15th Issue Heroin Discussion v. Be the Death of Me

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xstayfadedx said:
Hey guys,
Anyways I've been using heroin everyday for a few weeks now instead of my normal every now in then... I really regret it so hopefully I'll slow down. So my dealers like my friend and me... think we're beautiful/hot 8) so they've been hooking us up. All our bags have been fat now that we aren't having her brother pick them up for us now. Anyways I got the most awesome stamp yesterday. The dope was fire but why I think it was so awesome was because it was a Hellraiser stamp... had pin head on it too. I thought that was interesting and creepy at the same time. I might post a pic of it and then delete it but not sure yet.
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An actual image of pinhead? Bad ass. I'd definitely like to see that.
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
An actual image of pinhead? Bad ass. I'd definitely like to see that.
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I did some out of this bag before closing it back up and putting it bag in the ziplock (just saying cause dope amount). I did some other one's before this bag and then quickly realized I didn't need anymore.

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Please don't quote the image though because I will be deleting it.
 
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XThexXTank said:
Yeah man fuckin subs when ya can't get high on em xanax is what I akways turn to an actually I'm surprised it hasn't turned into a habit not that I want that fuck that. But I could imagine that shit gettn expensive I pop em an tollernce builds up quickly.
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Well when I was prescribed suboxone and was hooked on xanax (I was prescribed that too but my tolerance got up to 14mg of xanax so I had to supplement my script by buying them on the street or trading my subs for some) the market for selling suboxone was great, so even though my xanax tolerance got really high I was still able to afford my habit.

HighonLife said:
hair OHHHH win

its my life

n its my wife

-velvet underground

the song is just so true, so good, so sad. lou reed is the shit

ah what the hell ill post a link even tho i know we've all heard it many a time

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffr0opfm6I4
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I like the little laugh he does around 4:48, actually right after the lyrics you posted, and before the lyrics;

"Because a mainer to my vein
Leads to a center in my head
And then I'm better off and dead
Because when the smack begins to flow
I really don't care anymore."

BlueHues said:
well....with a name like "Captain Heroin" who are you to to doubt the man? Hmmmm?:)
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He should have switched his name to "Captain.Suboxone" imo. He could have done it back when he was on staff since they allow one name change for staff members. He was already off dope and all about his subs back when he was on staff, but I can understand wanting to stick with your original username.

A few years ago for April Fools Day the administrators had some fun messing around with mods usernames, and they switched C.H's name to Captain.Acetaminophen for the day. That had me cracking up when I first saw it, and for the rest of the day too.
 
Tommyboy said:
I like the little laugh he does around 4:48, actually right after the lyrics you posted, and before the lyrics;

"Because a mainer to my vein
Leads to a center in my head
And then I'm better off and dead
Because when the smack begins to flow
I really don't care anymore."



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yea thats why the song is just so good, its so true, so genuine. from the little things like the little laugh pointed out to the craziest fuckin sound at the end where its like he is loosin control of the song but to me its just like that feeling that after awhile with heroin just lose control. just a very well done song that is very relatable for anyone who has used/been addicted to heroin
 
fuck man the one dealer I still talk to isnt answering and my friend who I go down with sometimes because he knows different people (technically a middleman, but how much he asks me is only like 10 bucks more than what Id expect it to cost) isnt answering either and I just scraped out like 25 bags after finding one with a decent amount clinging to it and got like 1 bags worth.

it is really nice outside though, making me want to say fuck it and go cold cop

but Im not even like sick or anything I just get these random outbreaks every week or so where I just want dope really really bad.

If no one gets back to me in two hours its looking like a Choose Your Own Adventure book kind of night
 
It's that time of the year again. I was at my friends house to grab a few bags that he got for me in Queens, and when I got there a few of my boys that have been clean for a minute were there to pick up too. Once the weather gets nice people start chipping, then by the summer they get heavier into it, by the fall they are strung out and sick of it, then they quit for the winter, only to repeat the cycle over and over again.

One of the kids gets all high and mighty when he's clean, and I didn't talk to him when I saw him there because he threw me under the bus to my family when I had gotten arrested. My family contacted him since they know he's friends with the person who I had called last before disappearing (family called the phone company to get my phone records after my phone was turned off by the police and I hadn't turned up for a few days) and he told them that if I was with that kid then I was probably in X area of Queens since that's where the dope connect was. I was pissed because I had an alibi for myself and was gonna say that my boy owed money to his dope connect and I just bought subs from him and he was using my money to pay off his dealer, and I went along for the ride to make sure everything went smooth, but this kid fucked it up for me.

Then after I got kicked out of my house my family contacted him since he was clean but had experience with addiction, and they asked if he could reach out to me, and he did but then didn't return my call, so I was like wtf. Now sure enough he is getting high again, which is why I never take his preaching seriously when he's clean. He'll be the first person to tell me I should get clean when he is clean, but then he'll be the first person to call me up to see if I need bags when he's using again. I really wanted to collect on the money he owed me from right before he got clean last time, but I didn't even want to speak to him when I saw him the other day, and luckily I was on the phone when he came in to get his bags so I just said what up real quick, he got his bags, then headed back to work.
 
Man times are tough an $ is low. I havnt gotten high in days. The lil hustle I got goin is enough to support the min of keepin me from bein sick. Damn I need a fat muthafuckin shot now. Aite no more bitchin time to hustle.
 
XThexXTank said:
Man times are tough an $ is low. I havnt gotten high in days. The lil hustle I got goin is enough to support the min of keepin me from bein sick. Damn I need a fat muthafuckin shot now. Aite no more bitchin time to hustle.
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I feel ya man. I make good money between my real job and my... other jobs.. but my habit is so big that I'm still struggling. If I was sober I'd have a shit load of money saved. Be able to buy nice guitars, good booze, go out to nice dinners, buy my chic things, but no.. it all goes up my fucking arm.
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
I feel ya man. I make good money between my real job and my... other jobs.. but my habit is so big that I'm still struggling. If I was sober I'd have a shit load of money saved. Be able to buy nice guitars, good booze, go out to nice dinners, buy my chic things, but no.. it all goes up my fucking arm.
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I got some "other jobs" too to support my habit. Mostly just trees now though. I middle manned dope for people for a while, until I sold one kid three bags and four hours later watched him get pulled out of the building on a stretcher not breathing. For a while I didn't know if he lived or died and that fucked with me pretty hardcore. Haven't been able to bring myself to sell it since.
 
Yeh coinstars some good shit. Got like 22$ back after they held their own fees. Oh well that's all the change I had saved up sense october. But id always dip into it an get quartes. Coulda easily been over 50$

An its so fuckin hot. It was snowin last week or somethin an now its like 75. Damn ya gotta love this weather. But the good news is I'm gettn a bun later so its all good.

But yeh scagnettie I kno what ya mean. I had so much fuckin $ saved up even an emrgency fund. After I shut down my main operations the habit is still there. What ya gonna do. A week of withdraw? Fuck that. Blew threw everythin on pills and dope. I was forced to shut down though prob for my own good. When its callin ya name that's when mistakes are made an ya land a 20 yr prison sentence. Damn those were the good times. Hahaha.
 
Yo so today I finally got a bun did some bags popped 3 blues and now smokin some spice. I'm high as shit.

Ps I also got an eight ball of meth. Yup out here on the east coast muthafuckas. And its gonna turn into a plague.
 
^ Tank is an 8 ball of meth about the same price as coke? I haven't seem that shit in 20 years back then the prices were about the same.
 
I wish I never did heroin and just smoked meth instead. At least Id be doing some productive shit instead of just being fucked up for the next 4-5 hours.

I cant fucking stop thinking about heroin. Partly because im a piece of shit, but mostly because its the ultimate mind fuck. You get to the point where you are sick of the shit and all the baggage so youre like "ok im gonna lay off for a while" and you may feel a little odd thr next 2 days or so but then like a week and a half later at some point or another I just go back to it.

Its pretty fucked up but I might just have to never talk to some people again if I ever want to really stop for any extended amount of time. And its fucked up because I actually consider some of these people my friends but now its just about heroin. The ties of friendship have become "we both are looking for dope, lets combine forces and split it".

After we cop its just like "welp c ya later" and thats about it. Now that I think about it, I havent just hung out with someone and not bought drugs in over a year. And you could say getting drugs is hanging out with someone but its really just a facade of friendship. If we werent going to get dope we would not associate, period.

Shit sucks man, I cant help but think Im gonna keep doing this and drop my tolerance a bit too much and fucking OD after grabbing something that might be a bit stronger than expected.

Like my life is in the hands of some dope dealer who probably never touches the shit except when he's handing it over. So how the fuck does he know how potent it is? If you ask them 100-100 times it is good shit, so wtf do you go by. You just do a bag to test it out. But some shit doesnt hit right away. So you do another bag and you start feeling a little good.

Then you gotta decide whether to do 3 or just go straight to 4 and see how that works and its when you start jumping up two bags at a time you can get fucked. Every time I got way too high it was the first or second time doing it after not doing it for a little.

And thats the problem, "way too high" is the expectd result. this shit will seriously be the death of me if Im not careful like thread title is spot on. And even if youre careful you can still get fucked, being carful isnt going to make my skin not white, being careful isnt going to remove every gun from North Philly, being careful isnt gonna change that guy who needs cash now's mind about burning you. Coos have the shit down to a science when it comes to fucking with you. Pull up at a red light and they just look at you for a second and already know what the fuck is going on. And you know deep down youre probably just being paranoid, but in reality they just dont care enough to follow every probable dope deal thats about to happen.

At the end of typing this I still want it man, I should just move to Iowa or somethingbecause trying to quit heroin in the Northeast is like trying to go on a diet at Paula Deen's house the shit is all around and is more or less my comfort drug.

I mean Ill take a lot of shit if its around but Ill go out of my way for dope. And thats how I know its not as easy as jjst saying "I think Im gonna stop now". I mean I can do that, just not for any sustainable amount of time. Its at the point where im buying weed just so I wont buy dope. Fucking ridiculous man
 
day 21 of the vivtrol shot and am thinking of trying to get high. I attempted to get high on day 7 8 and 9 with xanax booze and dope. The xanax obviously worked, the booze got me real drunk, they say you wont get the euphoric effects but idk I felt pretty fricken good. The dope was to no success at all. IV of NYC dope and felt literally nothing at all. Today would be probably a bundle of paterson dope so I'm curious if it's worth it or not. I heard it does start wearing off around say 21, I'm just curious if using on day 7, 8 and 9 made the shot wear off even sooner, or if it doesn't work that way. Any advice would be great. THanks!
 
Welderman said:
^ Tank is an 8 ball of meth about the same price as coke? I haven't seem that shit in 20 years back then the prices were about the same.
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Naw man meth is a lot more expensive out here even though. But I got this shit delivered straight from the cook so it ain't cut. Never tried this stuff.
 
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