I would definitely go for my family, but none of them can come. I posted here about 18 months ago when my mom died, and my dad died in 2007. I haven't spoken to my nearby sister in about 5 months, which is a long story but boils down to her caring more about her friends than me, and it finally came out that everyone (her and her friends) doesn't like me and only tolerated me out of pity. The reason was never given, just that I'm awkward/unusual. The only two sisters I'm close with live in Texas, which leaves only my teenage niece who lives nearby. But the extent of our relationship is her accepting my $100 gift cards each Xmas (I'm not the type that expects gifts in return, so I never asked why I never got a card). Besides, I can't ask her to come by herself. Also, I have literally no friends whatsoever, not even acquaintances, other than classmates I meet for group work.
I've read articles that say that no one should skip such an important event under any circumstances, and will certainly live to regret it. But it seems to me that it would be an unpleasant memory which I will regret participating in. I do not wish to try tagging along with a group or family of people I don't know, because that can turn out bad just as easily, if they agree that I'm "awkward." I'm not even planning to get a cap and gown, nor am I going to take pictures, because it seems like a big waste of money just to send them to my sisters in Texas. I'm honestly not looking for sympathy, I'm asking for advice because I'm surely missing something. But so far I can only conclude that I'm an exception to the widely given advice, do you agree? If not, what should I do?
I've read articles that say that no one should skip such an important event under any circumstances, and will certainly live to regret it. But it seems to me that it would be an unpleasant memory which I will regret participating in. I do not wish to try tagging along with a group or family of people I don't know, because that can turn out bad just as easily, if they agree that I'm "awkward." I'm not even planning to get a cap and gown, nor am I going to take pictures, because it seems like a big waste of money just to send them to my sisters in Texas. I'm honestly not looking for sympathy, I'm asking for advice because I'm surely missing something. But so far I can only conclude that I'm an exception to the widely given advice, do you agree? If not, what should I do?