I don't know if I would ask for desoxyn specifically, but I would voice your discontent with your current medication and explain the things that you don't enjoy about it ( the anxiety, ineffectiveness, long time to kick in etc). I think your doctor might be alarmed if you ask for something specific especially desoxyn.
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hatrix
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Agreed, asking your doctor to switch your ADD med to methamphetamine is an immediate red flag in my book.
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Bets of luck with this.. As they say at NA - Addiction ends in one of 3 ways.. Jails, Institutions or Death.
Jabberwocky
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Thank you everyone for your support I truly appreciate it. I'm starting proper and regulated subutex treatment tomorrow thank god. Tonight though I shall binge my heart out. My last drops of oxy and codiene will be bled dry. A sweet farewell to my long lasting companions and time to say good bye to them. My love affair and drug abuse will come to an end tomorrow. The start of a new beginning and a happy ending rather than death. An opiate party all to myself ha, I sound like an absolute loser. I might go into maintaince, but well see.
Looks like I'm just another statistic on the wall of abusers. Finally beaten by myself and the system. But I'm glad.
Popped all my DHC tabs, all my oxy, lots of benzos and chillin. Ill miss this.
Looks like I'm just another statistic on the wall of abusers. Finally beaten by myself and the system. But I'm glad.
Popped all my DHC tabs, all my oxy, lots of benzos and chillin. Ill miss this.
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Pagey
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Bad news --> massive massive relapse. Fuck.
Dougie, I asked my doc the same thing and she sticks by vyvanse because it is so steady and smooth .
I know what you mean about the lag time, shit is kind of annoying, but I found a way to counter that. Set your alarm clock an hour or two early before you wake up, have your vyvanse pills and some water right by your bed so when the alarm rings early, you can simply swallow the vyvanse and fall right back to bed. I promise you in another hour or two of sleeping, you will be woken up by the speedy effects and literally jump out of bed amped and ready to go. I have sooooooooo much trouble waking up in the morning that this technique really saves my ass when I got shit to wake up for and do. Same technique can be used for IR formulations too, but instead of waking up 2hrs early, try waking up 45-60mins early, popping the pill and fall right back to bed. Works like a charm.
Credit to NT for teaching me this technique. He showed me the way O_O
I used to play . Got to 2700 in arenas. Threes.. ofc with LSD .. I was the ele shamn. That shit took up too much time and I would get too frustrated when I lost 40 points a game and only gained 5 pts per win...and of course with the ele shaman nerfs in cataclysm I was like fuck this stupid game.
Just got back from the gym, feeling okay today, not too bad not amazing, but I'm excited as I will have some kratom arrive tomorrow and I have oxycodone IR to combine with it. Man, its been 8 or 9 months since oxycodone. I can't wait for the full agonist bliss of oxy+ kratom with some valium and Hydroxyzine. Tomorrow will be a good day
.how's everyone else doing*
Uh oh, what happened?
Synth. I really have grown to like bupre, it might not seem like you will get th same overwhelming euphoria, but if you keep your doses low, you will definitely receive a nice mood lift . Sometimes I will randomly nod out after taking a usual dose of bupre with vyvanse . It's weird, I will literally have to fight to keep my eyes open. The good thing about bupre is that their I'd NO high to chase, which was a bitch to get used to. Teaching yourself that taking more than 1-2mgs will DIMINISH the high is fucking bullshit. When I first started, I would just keep doing more and more with no success at getting any higher. Because of this, the bupre will be able to allow you to get your life back together.
I've tried it all, rehabs, AA, NA, therapy, counseling, ect... But I found that I didn't really need those to succeed on bupre. All you need is a will and desire to rebuild your life and bupre will work for you. Sadly, if you are still fixated on the idea of chasing the high and like the fucking monkey on your back, then bupre won't do much. Look at mass's post, he has bupre but still wants to get high and so he does.
What I'm trying to say is that if you want bupre to work for you bad enough, it will
But you have to really want it and you have to be proactive at find new hobbies other than drugs. Bupre is a band-aide, the real healing comes from making the decision to build character and push yourself over throwing in the towel and getting high.
Good luck my friend, and may the odds be forever in your favor!
I know what you mean about the lag time, shit is kind of annoying, but I found a way to counter that. Set your alarm clock an hour or two early before you wake up, have your vyvanse pills and some water right by your bed so when the alarm rings early, you can simply swallow the vyvanse and fall right back to bed. I promise you in another hour or two of sleeping, you will be woken up by the speedy effects and literally jump out of bed amped and ready to go. I have sooooooooo much trouble waking up in the morning that this technique really saves my ass when I got shit to wake up for and do. Same technique can be used for IR formulations too, but instead of waking up 2hrs early, try waking up 45-60mins early, popping the pill and fall right back to bed. Works like a charm.
Credit to NT for teaching me this technique. He showed me the way O_O
Any WoW players here? Ha im such a nerd, I love getting jammed and playing wow
I used to play . Got to 2700 in arenas. Threes.. ofc with LSD .. I was the ele shamn. That shit took up too much time and I would get too frustrated when I lost 40 points a game and only gained 5 pts per win...and of course with the ele shaman nerfs in cataclysm I was like fuck this stupid game.
Just got back from the gym, feeling okay today, not too bad not amazing, but I'm excited as I will have some kratom arrive tomorrow and I have oxycodone IR to combine with it. Man, its been 8 or 9 months since oxycodone. I can't wait for the full agonist bliss of oxy+ kratom with some valium and Hydroxyzine. Tomorrow will be a good day
.how's everyone else doing*
Uh oh, what happened?
Synth. I really have grown to like bupre, it might not seem like you will get th same overwhelming euphoria, but if you keep your doses low, you will definitely receive a nice mood lift . Sometimes I will randomly nod out after taking a usual dose of bupre with vyvanse . It's weird, I will literally have to fight to keep my eyes open. The good thing about bupre is that their I'd NO high to chase, which was a bitch to get used to. Teaching yourself that taking more than 1-2mgs will DIMINISH the high is fucking bullshit. When I first started, I would just keep doing more and more with no success at getting any higher. Because of this, the bupre will be able to allow you to get your life back together.
I've tried it all, rehabs, AA, NA, therapy, counseling, ect... But I found that I didn't really need those to succeed on bupre. All you need is a will and desire to rebuild your life and bupre will work for you. Sadly, if you are still fixated on the idea of chasing the high and like the fucking monkey on your back, then bupre won't do much. Look at mass's post, he has bupre but still wants to get high and so he does.
What I'm trying to say is that if you want bupre to work for you bad enough, it will
But you have to really want it and you have to be proactive at find new hobbies other than drugs. Bupre is a band-aide, the real healing comes from making the decision to build character and push yourself over throwing in the towel and getting high.
Good luck my friend, and may the odds be forever in your favor!
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tentram
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LACCY! what's up digby?
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Sorry to hear it, but don't beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a new day. If I could score right now, I would. My "Kick" is not self imposed, but it should be. I've been playing around with pills for two years now, ten years after a pretty big H habit (5 bags of that NYC goodness/day). I should know better. But I don't. I hope you get it back together. I'm pulling for ya!!!!
smokemctoke420
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I've been in a shit mood all day.
My oxy money(check) is in the mail, or should be. It got sent out Monday from Baltimore so I would think it would be here by Thursday since I'm only 2 hours away. I just don't see why it's taking so long. If its not here by Saturday then no oxy.
Waiting on the mail is giving me anxiety, cuz I keep thinking something bad could happen but maybe that's the junky part if me idk
On top of that my neck and head hurt. I'm getting drunk tonight, fuck it.
My oxy money(check) is in the mail, or should be. It got sent out Monday from Baltimore so I would think it would be here by Thursday since I'm only 2 hours away. I just don't see why it's taking so long. If its not here by Saturday then no oxy.
Waiting on the mail is giving me anxiety, cuz I keep thinking something bad could happen but maybe that's the junky part if me idk
On top of that my neck and head hurt. I'm getting drunk tonight, fuck it.
tentram
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wouldn't you be pissed if you were victim of a rogue mail sorter, stealing your cheque. just as well your oxy isn't in with your cheque. DUN DUN!!!!!
who sends money through snail mail these days with all the electronic alternatives?
who sends money through snail mail these days with all the electronic alternatives?
smokemctoke420
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Oxy doesn't come with my check lol It's from snow shoveling. My brother in law just got paid so now I get paid but I'm 120 miles away so he wrote a check. I'm just wondering why the fuck it wouldn't be here. I'm using that money to get my oxy instead of paying my mom back since I paid her back with my unemployment instead.
Its fucking bullshit. I'm going to go slam some vodka, hopefully that helps.
Its fucking bullshit. I'm going to go slam some vodka, hopefully that helps.
tentram
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i'm sure the vodka will speed things up
has there been any weather as to delay to mail? how much can you trust a brother-in-law as well he's boning your sister after all is said and done. bet the sonnabitch didn't even send the cheque, he's just letting on that he has. it's the oldest trick in the book which brings me back to my initial points - who sends money by mail with all the electronic alternatives these days! hell, i'd be happy with some gift vouchers instead of a lost cheque.
has there been any weather as to delay to mail? how much can you trust a brother-in-law as well
he's boning your sister after all is said and done. bet the sonnabitch didn't even send the cheque, he's just letting on that he has. it's the oldest trick in the book which brings me back to my initial points - who sends money by mail with all the electronic alternatives these days! hell, i'd be happy with some gift vouchers instead of a lost cheque.smokemctoke420
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technically, it will. ill be drunk all night so ill go to sleep earlier and anxiety will not be as bad.
as to the weather, the colored folk in baltimore deliver rain, snow, whatever. its rained but not nearly enough for a delay.
as to him boning my sister, thats pretty apparent since i have a lovely niece and by summer of 2014 ill be an uncle again. he wouldnt jew me, ive known him since i was 10 and that just wouldnt happen. idk any other alternatives that your imlying tho.
if its not here by saturday ill have him cancel the check and when by dad goes up on tuesday ill get him to bring me another check down tuesday night. ill either get my friend who is also getting oxy from her to front me or ill get the lady to save em. illl find a way
as to the weather, the colored folk in baltimore deliver rain, snow, whatever. its rained but not nearly enough for a delay.
as to him boning my sister, thats pretty apparent since i have a lovely niece and by summer of 2014 ill be an uncle again. he wouldnt jew me, ive known him since i was 10 and that just wouldnt happen. idk any other alternatives that your imlying tho.
if its not here by saturday ill have him cancel the check and when by dad goes up on tuesday ill get him to bring me another check down tuesday night. ill either get my friend who is also getting oxy from her to front me or ill get the lady to save em. illl find a way
hatrix
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Went to my doctors appointment today, happy with the results.
He switched my Xanax to Klonopin after I straight out asked for a different benzo, tried for valium but he said it really isn't the best for my anxiety and I agreed with him so we settled on Klonopin. I got 0.5mg x30, better than my Xanax refills that were apparently accidental because of what was in the system. Damn nurses.
Also was prescribed Trazodone 50mg for insomnia. Sometimes I just have trouble sleeping and he said it should do the trick, if not tell him and he will switch me to something else. I'm thinking Ambien if the trazodone doesn't knock me out. It's an antidepressant which kind of sucks, though I'm not looking to get high. I seriously just want something to put me to sleep when I want to go to damn bed instead of staying up all night.
Anyways, about to plug 106mg of 4-FA
Might take 0.25mg of the Clonazepam to smooth it out, or save it and take a bigger dose on the comedown. Either way it's going to be what's putting me to sleep tonight since I read the Trazodone is no good for comedowns and can be dangerous because of its 5-HT activity.
He switched my Xanax to Klonopin after I straight out asked for a different benzo, tried for valium but he said it really isn't the best for my anxiety and I agreed with him so we settled on Klonopin. I got 0.5mg x30, better than my Xanax refills that were apparently accidental because of what was in the system. Damn nurses.
Also was prescribed Trazodone 50mg for insomnia. Sometimes I just have trouble sleeping and he said it should do the trick, if not tell him and he will switch me to something else. I'm thinking Ambien if the trazodone doesn't knock me out. It's an antidepressant which kind of sucks, though I'm not looking to get high. I seriously just want something to put me to sleep when I want to go to damn bed instead of staying up all night.
Anyways, about to plug 106mg of 4-FA
Might take 0.25mg of the Clonazepam to smooth it out, or save it and take a bigger dose on the comedown. Either way it's going to be what's putting me to sleep tonight since I read the Trazodone is no good for comedowns and can be dangerous because of its 5-HT activity.smokemctoke420
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100 mgs of trazaadone will KO me real good for like 10 hours. i stopped taking it tho cuz i had repeated nightmares of me munching xanax bars down and stabbing people so i threw it away.... such a shame
hatrix
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Geez lol. Hopefully I don't get nightmares from it. Glad to hear it knocks you out though.
Yeah man trazodone works really well. I use 50mg at night when I cant sleep and it knocks me out as well. Make sure you have a solid 8 hours set aside because you will be kinda groggy. I would definitely start with 50 if you do 100mg I find it is so hard to get out of bed I can just stay in and sleep the day away. I used trazodone at the 28 day inpatient facility that I went to after my 12 days in detox my last time around. I'm not sure if it's the trazodone or my hormones coming back, although I'm almost 100% sure that it was a mixture of both, but every time I took trazodone I would wake up with the most intense and long lasting boners of my life. Very unpleasant. I believe priaprism is a side effect of trazodone
smokemctoke420
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yeah yo, it worked good but the nightmares outweighed the good. the fucked up part is that i was warned of the nightmares and still took it, but i didnt get nightmares till day 2-4 i believe.
hatrix
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Well it's pretty rare for me to get nightmares sober or for that matter dreams lately... Mostly because I don't have very good quality sleep because of 4-FA and dextroamphetamine use, coupled with Alprazolam.
I read about the boner thing lol. Sounds unfortunate.
I read about the boner thing lol. Sounds unfortunate.
smokemctoke420
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well then maybe you will be ok.
if i remember right you live on the east coast but im not sure. you got any opinions on how fast the mail is in your area? im supposed to get a check from baltimore,md to delaware its been a few days.
if i remember right you live on the east coast but im not sure. you got any opinions on how fast the mail is in your area? im supposed to get a check from baltimore,md to delaware its been a few days.
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