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tripnotyzm said:
Hey Badfish how's it going ??!


Ugh, dreads are so annoying to maintain.
I just washed em, now my head is a giant fuzz ball -.-
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Hahaha, that's why I never went down the crocheting route for my dreads, my friends who have always wonder why mine never get frizzy and I don't have to maintain them. It's coming up to almost a year of neglect for my babies and they're looking amazing =D

Everyone I know has chopped off their dreads because of the extra length when brushed out. I have a couple of lose friends locks that I will be adding to mine when I get a chance.
 
Serotonin101 said:
I'm doing well. still clean. hoping to get to see a friend get her four year coin :D
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congrats on being clean man :) I can only imagine what it's gonna feel like for your friend to get that 4 year coin, that's actually really impressive.

I'm doing okay Trip, my last semester of school before the transcripts go out to college so I gotta make it look nice. Been having some depression/family issues but overall I've been enjoying life!
 
badfish45 said:
congrats on being clean man :) I can only imagine what it's gonna feel like for your friend to get that 4 year coin, that's actually really impressive.

I'm doing okay Trip, my last semester of school before the transcripts go out to college so I gotta make it look nice. Been having some depression/family issues but overall I've been enjoying life!
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she looked so happy and so beautiful (always had a crush on her and her "partner" lol. I asked a friend in the program if I had a chance with either of the girls and that's when I found out they were a couple lol). she got clean the same age I did and started using at about the same age as me. so she's an inspiration to me. its been a good night. good luck with the college/uni. damn youre a youngin! lol. you'll be fine though I'm sure. just keep pushing forward. ill be back at a 4 year uni this fall so I look forward to being back on path as well. don't forget us here in TDS when you start living the awesomeness that is college/uni.
 
Dude college is so the right path! where do you plan on going?

In my short experiences, I've found people like that who inspire you and you can call a friend despite having a "Crush" are the people totally worth keeping. I mean I totally have a crush on my best friend and she knows it but we just have such a great friendship that it's so trivial to both of us.

And i'll never forget you guys. Herby reminded me to come back and say hi and I remember how much I miss this community. So much. It had such an impact on my life and who I am today and has hindered me towards making the right, smart and informed decisions in life. It's nice to know that despite everything we've all been through we can find ground in the scary world, especially when so many people here are drug addicts, this is such a lifeline to the sober world, and I've always found that so amazing. When we're all here, we can forget about our vices and just enjoy the simple things in life. I get to meet people like you, and just so many others. You'll be seeing me on here still. I won't ever forget Bluelight or TDS.
 
ill be going to southern Illinois university in edwardsville Illinois. finish up my psych degree and possibly enter their grad school afterwards. :D
 
Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!:D Micheal, I didn't even realize that you didn't already know that. This must have been a tense couple of weeks.<3
 
This morning I copied down these questions:

When was the last time I was stopped in my tracks by beauty?

When was the last time I sank deeply into the joy of being alive?

When was the last time I lived life purely in the moment, instead of being caught up in plans, commitments, timelines, goals and expectations?

When was the last time I felt completely relaxed and connected to my creativity?

When was the last time I felt truly at peace?

Am I hungry for something more?

Do I know where I'm heading in my life and why?

Would I like to find out?

I thought I would share them here. That last one is way more scary to answer than it first appears. Just asking them does wonders for me.<3
 
When was the last time I was stopped in my tracks by beauty?

When I was in the mountains... that beautiful snowy view you just can't beat, whether it's the sun reflecting off the snow or the solemn peace of going down the slopes deep in a storm without any disturbances except the occasional bunny

When was the last time I sank deeply into the joy of being alive?

Listening to ska. It happens each time. I feel alive and I feel the euphoria bursting out knowing I'm great and I'm part of something even greater.

When was the last time I lived life purely in the moment, instead of being caught up in plans, commitments, timelines, goals and expectations?

Hanging out with my best friend Sarah. We see each other at most once a month, but each time it's just us, no worries, no stress. It's when time can stand still for just a little while, and know what a great part of life we are to each other.

When was the last time I felt completely relaxed and connected to my creativity?

The shower :) I love it. I'm so creative and introspective because I'm alone, in a familiar environment and my thoughts are so straight. In the shower, everything makes sense. There's no clothes to hide my inner beauty, no screams, shouts, bangs, or discomfort. Just me and my steady mind plotting my ever changing life.

When was the last time I felt truly at peace?

With Sarah. I'm telling you, we were just made to be friends. Our smiles, our laughs, we share them all. It's so peaceful to be able to be with somebody who you know matters to you in a place you know where you belong, where everything so wrong and fucked up with life just goes away. Nothing but us just lying on her bed staring at the ceiling while the sun beams through the window onto our faces, warming our lives. I know you've all felt this way. When life is warm and comforting without anything else to make it that way but the moment. No drugs, no distractions, no fears, just being able to live in the moment and enjoy this phenomenon of life and knowing there are truly great things out there. The people who make me feel this way are the ones who truly matter, and you will see they are enough to make life worth living.


Am I hungry for something more?

Always. I'm wanting to find a girl to be in a relationship with, a healthy one for once, and see if I can give myself an overall positive experience with the matter. I want to write more, I want to become a journalist and take this world by storm, be free of the corruption and speak for humanity and report truth and promote it.

Do I know where I'm heading in my life and why?

Hell no. That's the fun.

Would I like to find out?

I have a choice?
 
failosophy is like the dumbest show on TV... I cant believe this shit is on tv...
 
badfish45 said:
I've never heard of that, what is it?
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its a show on mtv that pokes fun at "modern young people culture". I believe its hosted by a relative of nicky minahj. its just atrocious. they "talk" in Twitter and text talk. like "be are be" before a commercial break and shit.
 
Hey! badfish is here! Balloons, confetti! =D I loved your answers to the questions I put out up there a few posts back. Your friend Sarah is a lucky girl and you a lucky guy. Friendship like that is gold.
 
Serotonin101 said:
its a show on mtv that pokes fun at "modern young people culture". I believe its hosted by a relative of nicky minahj. its just atrocious. they "talk" in Twitter and text talk. like "be are be" before a commercial break and shit.
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Oh god :|
 
herbavore said:
Hey! badfish is here! Balloons, confetti! =D I loved your answers to the questions I put out up there a few posts back. Your friend Sarah is a lucky girl and you a lucky guy. Friendship like that is gold.
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People don't seem to understand how much value they hold. Strong friendships require just as much if not more attention, effort, emotions and yield just as many benefits as an intimate relationship does. It might not be the same feeling, but it goes deep on its own level and it gives me a feeling that I can't even describe :)
 
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