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I feel I'm totally mis-understood and I'm really shy and when people know me too well I get defensive and people take me the wrong way. I'm just a bi-sexual dude with no friends who is thoroughly depressed. I try and relate to people as I have major insecurity issues and it makes me seem overbearing and annoying, when in reality I just want to relate to them, to let them know that I care etc. <snip>I just sorted out some mental hang-ups and would just like to say that I <3 you all, peace!
 
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I may have to get around to coming by you sooner. I'm still down for getting tats together if you are! :)
 
my good friend is a chef in a restaurant in madison, wisconson. i have spent the last bunch of years perfecting a recipe for a beef vegetable barley soup. he's going to make the soup in his super hip joint. the moral of the story is that people are going to pay to eat soup from a recipe i came up with. what a fucking rush!
 
I'm really trying to be supportive to my girl. She is seriously hormonal its fucking rough lol. I'm just trying to be sweet and supportive to her, its hard not to bitch right back at her. But you guys hear me bitch about that enough.

In other news I dj'd my first gig in 3 years on Saturday.
I used one of those traktor controllers, my edm heads if you've seen or used them they are seriously bad ass. Jog wheel easier than cdjs and you don't even need to touch the laptop its so easy to scroll and drop tunes.
 
^Your technology fell asleep on you.:\

@Michael--that is fantastic!

@sinewave--congratulations on the gig. That must have felt wonderful. Hormones may be changing for your girlfriend but you can still gently remind her that you are in this together and before the baby comes is the best time to get a handle on how you deal with each other under stress. How far along is she?

@Heather--I hear you. I am not in the mood for work today. Of course I never am but when I get there I get into it.

My guys are home from Patagonia with unbelievable stories and pictures from their trek. It's hard to believe that my husband was just suffering through horrendous cancer treatments 6 months ago and now has just completed 60 miles of backpacking in rough terrain. It was so good for him. He went so slowly that my son would get to the campsite, rest and then double back to carry his pack the rest of the way. They said it was light from 5AM to midnight and they were so tired that they never could stay up long enough to see the southern constellation in true dark.

I know I say this a lot but I have to say it again: being out in nature cures the soul. My husband has been seriously depressed since our son died. He has said repeatedly that the only thing keeping him alive is our other son, but internally he has no fire, no will of his own to go on. I hoped that this trip into the great big wonderful world that is always there outside of our own temporary states of joy or sorrow would be a way back into life and it surely was. Find a place with quiet, with water and wind and a big view and you cannot help but feel connected to and held in something far greater than your own tiny life.
 
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@sinewave--congratulations on the gig. That must have felt wonderful. Hormones may be changing for your girlfriend but you can still gently remind her that you are in this together and before the baby comes is the best time to get a handle on how you deal with each other under stress. How far along is she?
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She's right around 13 weeks. I'm just taking it with a grain of salt and if we fight I'm sure to make up and apologize very quickly.
I cleaned the house today and left her a note letting her know how strong of a woman she is and how beautiful she is. I tell her that at least 20 times a day. I also spoke to her and very emphatically let her know that she can rely on me and I will always love her. Its true.
We are building trust, but we do fight. Lately she has been very physically distant but its just something I have to put up with because she shows her love in other ways, I know physically she is changing and sex isn't always on her mind but I'm starting to deal with that better too.
 
^That's great to hear. <3 What a guy! When I was pregnant the first time it was a really hard adjustment. My husband was in graduate school at night and working his first job in his field during the day. I had to quit my job due to health complications so we went from a pretty equal couple (both working, no one in school, same basic schedules) to two ships passing in the night and two very opposite realities. Sometimes I look back and wonder how we made it through that first year but then I remember--we got the greatest little guy on the planet! (well, in our estimation he was.:\)
 
^Well, he's a grown up now! Seriously though I loved being a mom. I had so much fun hanging out with my kids, seeing the world through those eyes again. <3
 
well my ex (the one I was hanging around with during the summer, the one who "got away") and I have started chatting again. she's going to school ay the college a block away from me and I may be possibly driving her home Thursday night :D I haven't made it public but my current relationship is quickly heading south and I don't forsee a future really with the girl I'm currently with. sad but its the facts. I'm seeing my current girl tomorrow at NA and will have a face to face with her about what's going on. my mind is all sorts of crazy right now, not in a bad way. soon as my ex texted me today I swear my heart skipped a beat.
 
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