Without opiates even when im not W/D ing
* No motivation whatsoever
* No interest in anything
* bad ptsd flareups
* thoughts all jumbled into a mess I cant untangle
* feel drained in every way possible
* psychically feel 90
* No real emotion except an annoying vague agitated feeling and a sense that im imploding
* Cant really talk..just cant express myself clearly..cant get the words or the meaning right in my mind...dont even want to be around people
* Disassociated from myself and the world
With opiates
* Motivation
* love doing many things
* still have some ptsd and other issues but can practice mindfullness and work them out sort out my issues instead of them paralyzing me
* have SOME energy enough to do things anyways
* notice that I feel somewhat drained but also healthier and able to rest and function
* feel all emotions just able to deal with themm
* able to be social
* want to be around people
* make plans for future
* Enjoy the present
* able to concentrate
* Can do the things I need to do to move forward with my life
I know its not a long run option though...And ive been sober...tried many things...nothing seemed to help...Meditation Excersize diet all feels impossible...and dosnt really do anything when im not on anything. Its been like this for years. Tried all the anti depressants...all made me wayy worse and suicidal...Should I maybe ask a dr about being on an opiate type antidepressant...I know there is one...cant recall the name at the moment..But wondering if anyone has tried anything like that...how easy is it to get...does it work...how long...do you feel a lot of the ssri action...? Any other ideas?
* No motivation whatsoever
* No interest in anything
* bad ptsd flareups
* thoughts all jumbled into a mess I cant untangle
* feel drained in every way possible
* psychically feel 90
* No real emotion except an annoying vague agitated feeling and a sense that im imploding
* Cant really talk..just cant express myself clearly..cant get the words or the meaning right in my mind...dont even want to be around people
* Disassociated from myself and the world
With opiates
* Motivation
* love doing many things
* still have some ptsd and other issues but can practice mindfullness and work them out sort out my issues instead of them paralyzing me
* have SOME energy enough to do things anyways
* notice that I feel somewhat drained but also healthier and able to rest and function
* feel all emotions just able to deal with themm
* able to be social
* want to be around people
* make plans for future
* Enjoy the present
* able to concentrate
* Can do the things I need to do to move forward with my life
I know its not a long run option though...And ive been sober...tried many things...nothing seemed to help...Meditation Excersize diet all feels impossible...and dosnt really do anything when im not on anything. Its been like this for years. Tried all the anti depressants...all made me wayy worse and suicidal...Should I maybe ask a dr about being on an opiate type antidepressant...I know there is one...cant recall the name at the moment..But wondering if anyone has tried anything like that...how easy is it to get...does it work...how long...do you feel a lot of the ssri action...? Any other ideas?
