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How Are You in One Word Vs Happiness; Only Real When Shared =D

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Bleedin' lightweight. 6:22 in the fucking morning here, hardcore none-sleeping that is. No work tomorrow ( well, today now I mean ) so that's a bonus. Why are you working on a Sunday? Sounds most uncivilised. Can your employer not do without you for one bloody day? Tell them your a hardcore orthodox Xtian and he has to respect your religious right to keep the Sabbath holy, that should shut 'em up.
 
Because lord knows that the disabilities that affect the children I look after don't rest on Sunday, and I heard one time that if Jesus healed on Sunday, then it's okay to work and set house straight on Sunday, as long as it's out of goodness.

And hey- the ten hour doesn't pay too poorly, either.

Long story short, my word is tired. Too much bl last night 8)
 
I'm so *so* glad that it was failed, Heather. You have a beautiful heart and soul and I'd be crushed if that was taken away from us. Please remember that you're loved so much more than you know and you do have the strength to get through these hard times. <3 <3 <3
 
hthr007 said:
In pain from a failed attempt.
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Would it be bad and wrong to say I'm really pleased to hear that? Just read through some of your recent posts and though we've not spoken all that much I can tell you this with absolute certainty. The world would be diminished without you in it. Even at your lowest you still reach out to others here to try and lift them back out the same dark place you find yourself in demonstrating your compassion. Save some compassion for yourself. You're not so special that you don't deserve the same compassion you freely offer others are you? Hang in there Heather. I know it's hard to believe when you're at your lowest ebb sometimes but things can and most likely will get better. You are a unique individual, noone else can be you, or give what you have to give, and that has value beyond measure. Your life has value, trust me. <3
 
@ Spork, Sepher, Sconnie, Night Watch, Abject & Mrsomebody:

Your kind words matter so much to me; everyone's responses to me on here is causing me tear up! I've never been shown such love and support before especially from friends I met online. Much love to all of you - you're such an amazing group of people, I love our community here. I'm sorry to anyone who I may have concerned.

<3
 
jealous - am i a horrible person for being kind of upset by someone else's awesome news? and then feeling bad for myself....

which is now sending me into a downward spiral of feeling all alone like i wish someone understood.... and i might have to go cry for a lil bit
 
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jealous - am i a horrible person for being kind of upset by someone else's awesome news? and then feeling bad for myself....

which is now sending me into a downward spiral of feeling all alone like i wish someone understood.... and i might have to go cry for a lil bit
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You are not a horrible person, you are human. I have an idea of what you're referencing, and I would feel the same way. Just remember, your life is no less over now than it was before, and you have people both in here and out there who care.

My word is REVITALIZED.

Of all things, it took a combination of immense personal pain, and a funeral (unrelated) to help me latch back onto my life, to value it and my condition again.

I am done killing myself, and it's time for me to thrive, because I know I am worth it, and capable.

Revitalized. :D
 
Like you daren't question it too much or count on it lasting for long just in case there's something shit lurking round the corner gonna fuck it all up if you do? Anything like that at all?
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Yeah, kinda. Also at the time I didn't have any overarching reason to feel that good. Turns out that fears were unfounded... so far.

ATM: Warm.
 
hthr007 said:
In pain from a failed attempt.
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I'm so sorry. I hope that you can feel how absolutely off the mark your ex's cruel words are (referencing what you wrote in another thread). You, unlovable??? What planet of arrogance is he living on? Your generous, loving and empathetic nature might make you more vulnerable than someone harder but it certainly makes you lovable as well. Being lovable means that you are a person capable of giving love. He needs to worry about himself. I hope you can put all those harsh words into perspective and start to heal. TDS would be so empty and a whole lot colder without your presence. <3
 
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