fuck no. just took 200 something trips for me to get there...
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i should clarify: when it comes to profound autobiographical insights, definitely overrated in my experience. shit ive worked out during the 250 or so trips ive had couldve been solved in 20h worth of psychotherapy lol. ridiculous actually how profound those insights you gain on psychedelics seem at the time (MY experience, others might disagree).
definitely NOT overrated when it comes to religious/spiritual insights. a single experience has the power to re-model your outlook on life and death completely. and that is to me the most desirable goal when taking them. strengthening my beliefs when everyone else in this world is either trying to tell you there should be no beliefs at all or yours are mislead or are delusions or whichever other way they could be invalid. i havent taken psychedelics in years except for a few accidental doses or a yearly dmt journey, mind you, so this isnt coming from someone who is constantly absuing the shit out of them (not anymore anyway).
It all boils down to opinion, but mushrooms can really open your mind to weird thoughts, that u never had before. For example, I realized how all letters, are the same thing, just shaped in a different form, seeing the 6 slowly rotate to a 9 on the oven handle.
exactly what i was referring to when i said "ridiculous how profound things seem at the time." the fact that the nine is a 6 turned upside down, is a phenomenom that took me 10 seconds to explain to my daughter, who had known the 9 prior to that because it is the number over our door. ever since then shes been able to identify the 6 as well. took 10 seconds, no mushrooms involved, i swear by my grandmas grave!
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So, what sort of realization did you have, if you are still aware of what they were. I know we grow a lot and these things just become part of our nature, and probably don't seem that impressive when we reconsider them.
ok here comes the crazy-talk. i really dont even bother to ever talk about this experience, cause it is so easily discarded as a neurlogical phenomenom. i am convinced that i have twice been possessed by ancestral spirits which showed as my body moving on its own. not just moving a little, but bizarre fucking crazy-ass dancing moves that i sure the hell did not know how to perform. i fought it at first, but when i realized it wasnt threatening, i simply let go and enjoyed the show. this was on ketamine+dmt. once i had gathered myself from what happened and everyone present looked at me with their jaws dropped down and their eyes wide open (4 wtf-faces) it took some time till i could speak and by then i had decided id best keep this to myself lol in order not to be considered bonkers. there are tons of scientific explanations for this phenomenom which i am well-aware of, i jsut dont give a fuck about them because this experience was of such endless beauty to me, that tears kept streaming down my face for months just thinking of it. i know this has no value whatsoever to most people and just boils down to delusional crazy-talk, but thats what every religious experience essentially is to any outsider... :D
this was 6 years ago and ive never looked at death the same way since then. in fact, i cannot wait for the day when my job on earth is done, i am freed from all social obligations and can again experience unity with my ancestors in perfect peace and harmony. until then, death is not an option. i have been suicidal since im 10 years old, and while i have never carried out any plans, the thought of me being able to do so used to bring the greatest relief. now it doesnt bring any relief anymore, it just seems like we are caught up in this shithole until we are freed, until we are allowed to leave and anyone who bails will not find the relief he is seeking.
i dont know, you can dissect any experience to whichever degree you please until it has lost all its magic, but this one im keeping to myself and this one has most definitely given me a much healthier attitude towards life with all its difficult aspects. i havent felt better since it happened, i havent become a better person, but its something i hold onto and its something i WANT to believe. in fact, retrospectively i think the only reason for me ever having used psychedelics was to reach that one experience that confirms to me: there is more to life than meets the eye, in a literal sense.