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Gibberings CXVII: Not lowering meself...

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farmaz said:
1,000,000% the same here too.

My step dad is a CUNT, I wish there was better words I could use but his a diease that needs to be wiped off the face of the earth.
I wish I was as strong as you Maxalfie to say what went on with that guy but I prefer to try to forget about it tbh.

I also wanted to kill him for many years & would dream up ways to "remove" him from the earth, I went as far as to part build a bomb as a 14 year old to blow him up but decided the evidence would be too strong & I wuld go to jail for murder.
I went for him with a knife when I was nearly 16 & have had full on UFC style fights with him also.

1 day he will pay for his crimes like everyone thats evil in this life, good thing is his begining to show signs of retention loss, I know this will sound terrible & EADD can judge me for saying it but I DON'T give a fuck I hope he has alzheimer's, as i draw breath on this earth I wish it on him or a terrible painfull illness like cancer, for ALL the fucking PAIN he put me through as a kid, I wish him a brutal & savage end in a nursing home, shitting & pissing himself while the nurses beat him on a daily basis & make him sit there in his own shit for hours on end.
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It's disgusting the amount of abuse that goes on in some families that is allowed to carry on.
When you are young you think every family is like that and it's only when you get older that you find out that yr mates don't get beaten by their dads.
I also used to think I would wait until I was an adult and he was an older man and I would give him a good beating and tell him how long I had waited for revenge and how good it felt to get my own back.
But I know if I did go and beat him now then I will be just like he was and I never want to be anything like him.
I'm sure that Karma will exact its revenge for me.
Sorry that you had to go through the same shite mate, it can really fuck u up if you let it.
But you have turned out a good bloke from what I know.
 
maxalfie said:
I also used to think I would wait until I was an adult and he was an older man and I would give him a good beating and tell him how long I had waited for revenge and how good it felt to get my own back.
But I know if I did go and beat him now then I will be just like he was and I never want to be anything like him.
I'm sure that Karma will exact its revenge for me.
Sorry that you had to go through the same shite mate, it can really fuck u up if you let it.
But you have turned out a good bloke from what I know.
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I try to be good Maxalfie, thats what gets me so mad about my woman's ex, he dont give a toss about his kid & his family look down on me for trying to be a "parent figure" but fuck them. His too busy shooting speed to care.

I guess people like us that have had it worse than most have some kind of "energy" in us that makes us want to help others & young kids to be better & be more balanced in life.
I so wish my womans kid can come out ok in life, she aint had a easy start to her 6 years on Earth but I truly believe 1 of the reasons I was put here was to help the kid. We share many weird links like both left handed, both have weird lazy eyes that go all fucked up when tired, both have what I call Laft hand logic & she thinks in picture form too like me, she has seen several ghosts too like I have as a kid.
It's like she is my kid in soul but not DNA.
 
OMFG I forgot to say............

anyone see Secrets of a Good Marriage with Sharon Horgan on channel 4 last night?
I have never felt so sick from a show, the "sex tea" lines were classic. His essence infused tea was ROFLMAO, it just made me hate new age hippys even more than I did before.
I promise you roll a blunt & watch this, you will cringe & also laugh till you nearly die

http://www.channel4.com/programmes/sharon-horgan-on/4od#3458973
 
Your girlfriends ex may be the biological father but it's the people that are there to care for and bring the child up are the true parents.
I bet in years to come if her ex has any sense at all that he will regret not staying around to be a father.
Fuck his family if they think you shouldn't act like a parent. What are u supposed to do, sit there and ignore her.
From what I know lots of little girls are daddys girls and think their dads are like superman and can do anything.
I really hope the pair of them can come to live with u cos you will have the opportunity to be everything to that young girl that your step father wasn't for you.
I can imagine being a full time parent is bloody hard work indeed but probably one of the most rewarding things you can ever do.
 
I saw on Jeremy Vile yesterday this woman who thought her man was sleeping with another woman and whenever he got home she would make him drop his trousers and pants and she would sniff his cock to see if she could smell another woman on him.
Fucking gross eh?
 
@Farmaz was good to catch up today mate and have a good talk. I gotta go as just about out of tobacco so got to go tesco to get some more.
Made the mistake before of buying 25g of Golden V from WH Smith and it cost over £9 which is over a quid more than what Tesco charge.
Have good day mate and will cya later.
 
SamhainGrim said:
As you do...

Benzos for breakfast are a tightrope. I'm fond of popping a xannie before work now and then; I find it helps motivation even. If I've not slept well or I have too much sub in my system though, it's usually counterproductive.

Best o' luck.
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Benzo's for Brekkie were a must for me today after that Special Brew sesh last night !

I had an appt. @ 10.30 & the woman thought i was gonna pass out at one point . She said " Are you ok you don't look very well , are you sure you can finish this meting "

Serves me right . S'aftenoon has been nice though . Chillin with some Temazepam Elixir that stuff is the bollox.
 
Evenin', all :)

I really do need to knock this boozing on the head a bit. Aside from the standard "doh! i seem to have become an utter nobhead at some point just past the half-litre stage" stuff to be expected, I just cannot be doing with the hangovers. Two days is more or less standard recovery now. Sometimes three. What a load of old wankery :\

New year, old drugs methinks. And new drugs. Actually, just drugs rather than drinks sounds about right. Harm Reduction, innit =D
 
Shambles said:
Evenin', all :)

I really do need to knock this boozing on the head a bit. Two days is more or less standard recovery now. Sometimes three. What a load of old wankery :\
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^^ This :( (drinking Black Russian from a pint glass after a bottle and a half of wine = 8o

Also, it brings on too much next day email/text/PM shame when mixed with days 12-14*




* from now on I'm gonna re-label those days 'When Marmz Attacks' I recon ... :\ :|
 
Marmalade said:
^^ This :( (drinking Black Russian from a pint glass after a bottle and a half of wine = 8o

Also, it brings on too much next day email/text/PM shame when mixed with days 12-14*



* from now on I'm gonna re-label those days 'When Marmz Attacks' I recon ... :\ :|
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PM shame, Mz Marmz? Surely not. I do hope I don't have any of that to discover but sure I'd never go emailing, texting or PMing actually shameful. At worst I'd reckon maybe a lil light leching combined with a small smattering of slime and an oddment of overt optimism. A dollop and a dash of drivel and doh! on the side, perhaps. I'd bet at least one of Spade's balls that you would be guilty of far less. Aside from that confession you made anyway. I didn't know you could do... that with... that let alone with those. Is no wonder you're barred from every aquarium in country now 8o8o8o
 
pontifex01 said:
My own fault for trusting a filthy drug pig's advice. :D
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Blame the tramadol. I would. Definitely. Although I find I can take 2C-x without any obvious imminence of death it's still absolute shithouse to be mixing with just about anything. Given that three of the other substances are either stims or feature stimulation reasonably prominently (ket is bloody stimulating for an anaesthetic) I'd not be at all surprised if the tram sent things a bit awry.

It's not just the serotonin that's the issue (although it's the potentially fatal bit so always worth a reminder of the potential for mischief and (death by) misadventure, the "N" in SNRI stands for noradrenaline (or norepinephrine or whatever) which is not always entirely comfortable to set up on rinse, repeat and recycle mode in the ol' brainbox.

Sadly, tramadol is just one of those drugs that ruin more or less any real drugpiggery. Why d'ya think I've been so slack on the substances front this last 18 months or so? A decent druglife just ain't very feasible on tramadol. Get yerself some MXE or summat and knock that shit on the head. I'll do it with yer if ya like. Am also on 100mg daily and is time for me to get off it properly this time. No mexy for me at the moment but get me script in tomorrow and with this lil smidge of oxy I picked up today I'll hopefully have enough alternative poppy product to distract me for long enough.

Is well worth it to be able to take decent drugs again =D
 
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