pinkpapaver
Bluelighter
folks, i'm feeling melancholia..that battle: can't live with bein a bga head, scared of being without it. wish i could talk about this with my nearest and dearest. But y'know blah blah blah. happy new year!!
One time, a flatmate of my then girlfriend stole 3 months rent money and spent it on a holiday to the Seychelles. On her return, she called the girl's mother to explain her daughter was living with a drug addict and she didn't want to see her blow the cash on heroin. Made no sense in terms of her theft, for which she was still roundly condemned but caused no end of trouble for the poor chick and mademe feel rotten for giving the bitch the excuse.
Heroin can make you go far too easy on yourself and at the same time beat yourself up needlessly. Wherever there's stigma and prejudice, there's an excuse for bad behaviour. If you're dishonest on dope, it's because you've dishonesty issues; the dope life just provides one of the adverse circumstances in which latent tendencies will show. Again, if taking dope is making you unhappy, take the time out to kick or reduce yourdosage; but first make sure you're not hanging your hat on a convenient but wrong peg.
I haven't been on Bluelight since before xmas, I've had a fairly quite time, nothing exciting my end!
BUT it was expensive and the bags were tiny! The guy wasn't selling weight so I had to buy a load of small bags, it cost a fortune to buy it that way! But I was delighted that there was a bit of strength in the gear, for the first time in two years I could taste heroin in the heroin & I got stoned!!! So I went back to the guy a few days later & I scored a load more bags to get me over the xmas, BUT the gear had been cut right down Oh I know, I wouldn't drop the bomb on the poor woman unless I knew that she already practically knows, but is just in severe denial. He lives across the street from his smack-head uncle, spends all his free time at his uncle's place, and was wearing long sleeves in August (and I'm talking about the south of Italy - 40°C). I'm talking about a woman who's had a heroin addict for a brother for 20 years, she knows the signs when she sees them.Trust me, she won't be surprised. I just hope it doesn't have to come to that. But if it does I'm not going to flinch for a second.
He's an idiot for getting sucked into it in the first place. Don't get me wrong, I don't judge addicts, and if I did I'd be a hypocritical prick, but he gave me so much stick for two years while I was chipping on opium, telling me I was an idiot and had to be careful, acting all disgusted and superior whenever I was in withdrawals, and the instant he tried smack he got hooked immediately. Two years later the tables are completely turned. Bah.
You control the drug, don't let the drug control you. - Gandhi
You're judging & feeling let down by a heroin addict? You should know betterYour wedding sounded like a bit of a car crash waiting to happen to be honest.
Dont bring your mates heroin related shit to his poor mothers door, denial or not. She'll have suffered enough, she doesn't deserve it. He's your mate, suck it up.