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feeling quite good today, feeling like i'm reaching some sort of normalcy again... (future dreaming, routine etc.)
 
Resigned

More rough health news this morn, this time a spinal deterioration thing that's pretty fucking creepy. For 5 years straight seems like every test result get back, even in it rules out one thing, the radiologist notices something else wrong, and the "cure" every time is either major surgery or major surgery can't have/need to put off as long as possible cause of risks and problems from past surgeries. Feel like a thousand miles of bad road, with a thousand more in front of me. Better get walking...
 
indecisive

I've got an opportunity to buy a 4WD SUV for well below market value. I can squeak by and afford it without taking on a payment. It's this, only in dark red:

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What to do? I really need a 4WD up in this neck of the woods.
 
sick some girl at work was complaining that she was deathly ill and later that day she walked into a small enclosed room I was in and sneezed without covering her face. Now I have it. Thanks dumb bitch at work who didn't learn basic hygiene as a child. :|

Drink chamomile tea Cohesion, it's awesome and oddly fulfilling in a warm and comforting way.
 
That's unfortunate :( Get well soon, Stardust <3

I'm pretty annoyed that my car is f**ked.
5am start at work means its pretty difficult to make it on time without transport.
Im rreeealllly struggling this Chrissy :( It should be a good time of year, but my luck just seems to be real bad.
 
Depressed.
Have not had a good past few days. I don't even know why, I'm just really stressed out and self-conscious and blurgh. I haven't even had time to come to TDS at all recently. :(
 
Still-not-using-heroin.
Not strictly one word,worked out the other day that on New years Eve it will be exactly 4 months since I last had any heroin. Pleased as punch.
 
maxalfie said:
Still-not-using-heroin.
Not strictly one word,worked out the other day that on New years Eve it will be exactly 4 months since I last had any heroin. Pleased as punch.
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As well you should be!! That is so fantastic, maxalfie. I remember so well when I first joined BL and started reading your very wise and empathetic posts to others; it used to break my heart that you felt so resigned to addiction for yourself. Then I remember how you decided to start pushing your envelope of comfort, tentatively reaching out for a little hope and faith, trying new things, going new places. It has been a very profound and moving journey to watch and I cannot tell you what comfort it is to me. You are a wonderful person with so much to give. I have nothing but admiration and love for you.<3
 
Better.

I was deathly ill yesterday and went to the doctor, I kept hinting at Strep because a coworker had it but they kept hinting at allergies because I'd been sick forever, only getting real bad the past few days. Diagnosis- Strep and Bronchitis.

Anyways, that was yesterday and by now the Strep is gone and I can breathe better than I have in some time thanks to nasal spray, a heavy around of antibiotics, and not smoking.

Which leads me to nauseous, I haven't had a cig since monday night :\
 
What is it about how you can just about guarantee you're gonna be ill for the holidays? Always happens, just waiting for something to take me down meself, zoviraxing the shit out of the cold sore that started tingling last night as a harbinger of worse to come. Bleedin' Herpes Simplex, piss off, I'm going out on Friday, never gonna pull with you erupting all over me top lip, bit of xmas lovin be right out the window! :! Not that there's much chance of that anyways but we live in hope. 8) It's like soon as you start winding down to some well earned rest and recuperation the defnces drop and the evil little beasticles are burrowing in through any entry point they can find.

((( Hugs ))) and soothing, hot, honey and lemony drinks to everyone who's currently suffering ( in place of the more usual tea! ). Now come on, get yourselves tucked in and wrap up warm, that's it. =D
 
^idk, murphy's law or some shit 8) I know how you feel about that herpes simplex though, that shit sucks. It gets worse with stress but that shit alone is enough for an anxiety attack in the right setting, say, right before a holiday dinner, a movie date >:(

Speaking of tucking in, I just tucked a kid in, I'll be working 'til 7.. am
 
Frazzled.

I'll be much happier when it's 1:00 pm on Saturday.
 
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