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Gibberings CXIV: The nuts are acceptable here all year round

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My memory is upsetting me. I don't remember trips to cinemas a week ago. Friends coming round, who have just come back from hols and I asked next time I saw them 'how were the hols?'.. they just looked at me incredulously and I just wished cartoon black hole would open up for me to disappear into... but no!

Its impossible for me to write essays, though i'm getting better. I right quite a bit for a different forum tackling Philos, Theology, Biblical languages, Eastern Religions, sanskrit... blah . the list goes on. The point being I did my main subject in Theology, languages and Eastern Religion s. I loved it so I wrote some good stuff.. However I only stayed for half the second year due to me Popstar 17 arriving :)

I'm naturally very bright even academic ( apart from spelling).. But my long and short term mermory has gone to the place the socks, pinnys and handkerchiefs go.. space.. a bemuda Triangle I'm not sure.

I gave the pregabalinup about months ago odd... My memory and cognition are starting to come bac slowly. Sparring with atheists, satanists, nazis, paedos, hackers, anon, terrorists, means I have to wade through pages of defence and then formulate my own answers. To begin with a paragraph was like an essay. Its getting better.

I will never fucking take a gaba pill again habitually..eurgh I hate it. It also made my hair thinnen, its grown back but still and also 3 stone or more over weight. I was only on it a year. I lost it in 6 months and did'nt even change my diet so I know its the culprit.

Bastards want anyone with a bit of creativity and often compassion in them to be fat, stupid and poor.


ramble sorry

I don't take any benzos, pretty much for the reasons you've highlighted above. Tbh I NEED them. but I hate forgetting things, and I don't need any help on that score really.

Good luck with thee above <3

In other news I fucking hate acid reflux. One bottle of Cava and I fell asleep earlier, but I just woke up with acid reflux spurting through my nose. Least sexiest thing ever. Just eaten half a packet of rennies and back to bed for meee
 
ha, remember vic reeves big night out? the song at the end? oh mr song writer.... there was one that had the line in it a bout sugar puffs and wee . there were some random observations in that show.
"and that, mr michael mc intyre is how you make your life observations funny."

the man with the stick "what's that their "
"Oh, that's Jack frost out walking his dog"

You wouldn't let it lie;)
 
Morning, nothing qwuite like wakig up with you face glued to te keyboard and knowing you took the perfect dose :D
 
haha i came into a spare fiver and anticipating an opiate binge stocked with ice cream, and a packet of haribo tangfastics! and a few rocky caramels :D, college in 6 hours so i cant redose, but i know the exact dose that'l send me straight back to nodsville cause i'm right of the edge, minor irritant. Ahhhh well sugar time! Howa you kenny?
 
haha i came into a spare fiver and anticipating an opiate binge stocked with ice cream, and a packet of haribo tangfastics! and a few rocky caramels :D, college in 6 hours so i cant redose, but i know the exact dose that'l send me straight back to nodsville cause i'm right of the edge, minor irritant. Ahhhh well sugar time! Howa you kenny?

What opiate you been taking? What you studying in college?

You reminded me I should have bought haribos too, I got some gummy pythons last night, they are wonderful
 
Methadone, i've got a bit of a tolerance but not enough so that i find a nice it of meth + benzos really euphoric, and it lasts for ages also. In a lower dose i just feel plain nice, motivated, well just 'normal' and i enjoy work etc but higher doses are really enjoyable.

Tomorrow i've got web design class, thought it would be a bit more complicated than it is and even though i've never done it before i've got a pretty good grasp on how the coding works etc ad how computers work in general, and it turns out half the class cant even switch on a pc lke, teacher was begging me to take a job by the end of a 3rd lesson :D Wouldn't pass an extended CRB check though so i just volunteered instead, starting that next term in jan, for now just acting as an unofficial volunteer to help oiut the class. I also do spanish ad i'm starting to learn sign language in jan :D, nowt like keeping yourself busy to help with cravings etc

Tangfastics may have been a bit of a mistake, i'm not quite sure what my tastebuds are telling me maybe jelly beans or american hard gums. Meh, no worries, got rockys, crisps and lotsa ice cream! need to put some weight on anyways, but you never answered the question, how goes it? aussieland still full of cunts? Its your summer at least isn't it? its so cold in the morning
 
Hey man nice to see someone friendly, at least on the internets:( , wish I met more likeable people in the real world.

I have given up on being here really, I never saw this trip as a vacation or work holiday, I really thought this would be the sort of place to put some roots in a long-term context, but I really don't like it, I'm looking at flights as we speak, just trying to find a cheap one, but they're all bloody expensive at the moment. I'll defo be back by Christmas.

Right now it's torrid it was close to 40 degrees yesterday, to be honest I'm glad to be going back to the cold, I seem to suffer hot weather, worsen my insomnia badly, I'm from very close to the Alps, so yeah I'll be going back to shovelling snow and temperature in the minus-10, but hey I do have a fireplace
 
Oo you uk based? where you from? My mate went for a years break to australia end of april, working on a farm, but she was a lass and apparently the people there were harsh, not in a banterish way but just cunts, and lecherous and though she had a good few times on the whole it was shite, came home after 3 months. I'd love to go except i hate spiders and aint there trantulas and shit there? Ugh :(, still, i got a poassport on the way and i dont care where i just want to be free for a little while :)

Where abouts in the uk you heading back to?

Maan my pc was supremely fucked so i restarted from scratch, now gotta go through all that updating bollocks, its actually working though which is a pleasant change, been thinking of buying an upgrade when i have money :)
 
Methadone, i've got a bit of a tolerance but not enough so that i find a nice it of meth + benzos really euphoric, and it lasts for ages also. In a lower dose i just feel plain nice, motivated, well just 'normal' and i enjoy work etc but higher doses are really enjoyable.

Don't mean it as a lecture, CK, but you know it's also a very easy path to an early death if you chase a high with meh and downers. Especially when booze is in the mix.

Not that I haven't done it myself - I got through a stressful time a couple of years ago that way, but just watch yourself, yeah?

Says the guy who's going to crush up a suboxone and bosh a xannie in a second.

Ah well. Hypocrisy is a mod's privilege. :D
 
Meh, sucky Friday. Might get the sack today. Got a disciplinary hearing later for setting off fireworks in the carpark. Sackable offence? Or slap on wrist??
 
I wish I could take it seriously - it is serious after all. Can't stop grinning though, sorry. :)

If your employer has a sense of humour then they might just give you a ticking off. If they're stringent about H&S (or if they don't like you very much) then you're fucked.

Good luck with that one.
 
Don't mean it as a lecture, CK, but you know it's also a very easy path to an early death if you chase a high with meh and downers. Especially when booze is in the mix.

Not that I haven't done it myself - I got through a stressful time a couple of years ago that way, but just watch yourself, yeah?

Says the guy who's going to crush up a suboxone and bosh a xannie in a second.

Ah well. Hypocrisy is a mod's privilege. :D

Thanks for the concern :) Ahh man i made a coffee sat back down and must've sparked straight out lol its cold now :(. half rolled a cig and cover in baccy too :(..

But yeah, you're 100% right and i apologise if anyone who read my post thought that was an acceptable combo in any way, i should've (but forgot cause i was fucking slaughtered) mentioned that i keep the benzo dosage really really low, itd questionable whether these terrible pakistan diazepam are even active or not, the benzo more for a placebo to nod and anxiety, nice but not essential. Anyway, its not worth the risk, so i'm going cut out the benzos next time. Probably won't be home for a day or 2 also, cant let it become a daily thing just a little treat to nod off when if [deserved it like ;), and also in lower doses a motivation tool/last resort for those days when I wake up and cannot face getting out of bed

Reeet, some breakfast, a cig and a coffee then im off to college, actually sounds enjoyable! drug progress meeting in the afternoon though so i'll have to see how that does, good morning eadd'ers and you you're all well. I feel like i need one of you all to hate, i feel like one of those sitting on the fence cunts since y'all bicker like old ladies over the BNP. Ahh well, maybe in time, for the meantime, morning EADD! Hope y'all good :)
 
aint felt this rough for awhile, flu, earache for the first time since i was a lil kid, blocked and tinitus feels like ive been stood next to a rig all night, chest feels ruined. loading up on healthy munch, supplements, tunes, maybe finish watching Ted in a bit or crack on with dexter seasion 6. just popped a vallie for good measure, might be a blissful day
 
I get this occasionally when I've been boozing the night before and not drinking water, thought I was the only to describe it as smelling like sugar puffs haha.

How long has it been going on for?

Haha I get this too and just assumed I was mad
 
But yeah, you're 100% right and i apologise if anyone who read my post thought that was an acceptable combo in any way, i should've (but forgot cause i was fucking slaughtered) mentioned that i keep the benzo dosage really really low, itd questionable whether these terrible pakistan diazepam are even active or not, the benzo more for a placebo to nod and anxiety, nice but not essential. Anyway, its not worth the risk, so i'm going cut out the benzos next time. Probably won't be home for a day or 2 also, cant let it become a daily thing just a little treat to nod off when if [deserved it like ;), and also in lower doses a motivation tool/last resort for those days when I wake up and cannot face getting out of bed

No problems - I didn't worry so much that your post might encourage any lurkers (though thanks for taking that into account), I just know it's an easy crutch to lean on for too long, and I also (from your posts) I see you have an addictive personality. So I just worry that you might fall into daily use without noticing.

And meth stays in your system for aaaages; remember that. Diazepam too. You could keep your use to every other day and still end up in a potentially bad place.

On the other hand it's great to see you're getting motivated, so if you really can maintain control then it's not necessarily a bad thing.

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She has NO sense of humour whatsoever. So looks like gross misconduct then. I'll be in the jobcentre by midday!!!

Ah, bollocks.

Well, there's always grovelling and cheap appeals to sentiment to fall back on - it's nearly 'the season of goodwill' after all.

Fingers crossed that there are no more 'fireworks' in store for you today.
 
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