I realize there is a mega-thread regarding anxiety issues, but I couldn't find any discussions dealing with my current problem. So, I apologize if starting a new thread is against forum policies.
Anyway, I've been at my current job for 4 years, and few times a week I would use amphetamines(Vyvanse) to maintain my productivity and balance school work. I never had any problems at first. But I'm not gonna lie, I did overuse them and would run out before my next refill. The last time this happened, I browsed the RC market for a stimulant alternative. I chose Ethylphenidate because of my past experience with Ritalin. I would later realize that this was the worst mistake I could've possibly made. The effect was extremely powerful, even more than amphetamines IMO. I work at a call center, and the first 4-5 hours went very smoothly. During the end of my shift, the drug started to the wear off. My heartbeat and pulse skyrocketed, but the phone calls kept coming in. I started to get extremely nervous, which escalated into a panic attack. This all occurred while I was speaking to customers, so there was so way to calm down. I completely lost control of my verbal skills, words were slurring and my speech was extremely rapid. I haven't touched RC's for 4 months, and took a 2month break from Vyvanse. But now it's been getting extremely difficult to function at work, I keep getting flashbacks of that experience. I've completely lost my confidence and I feel like I'm the verge of having a panic attack on every phone call. How did I overcome this?
Anyway, I've been at my current job for 4 years, and few times a week I would use amphetamines(Vyvanse) to maintain my productivity and balance school work. I never had any problems at first. But I'm not gonna lie, I did overuse them and would run out before my next refill. The last time this happened, I browsed the RC market for a stimulant alternative. I chose Ethylphenidate because of my past experience with Ritalin. I would later realize that this was the worst mistake I could've possibly made. The effect was extremely powerful, even more than amphetamines IMO. I work at a call center, and the first 4-5 hours went very smoothly. During the end of my shift, the drug started to the wear off. My heartbeat and pulse skyrocketed, but the phone calls kept coming in. I started to get extremely nervous, which escalated into a panic attack. This all occurred while I was speaking to customers, so there was so way to calm down. I completely lost control of my verbal skills, words were slurring and my speech was extremely rapid. I haven't touched RC's for 4 months, and took a 2month break from Vyvanse. But now it's been getting extremely difficult to function at work, I keep getting flashbacks of that experience. I've completely lost my confidence and I feel like I'm the verge of having a panic attack on every phone call. How did I overcome this?
