bbgirlclueless
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so for a month ive been addicted to nubain (nalbuphine) an opiate,along with this im addicted to iv versed (midazolam) a potent but 3 hour acting benzodiazepine for my moderate to severe social anxiety.one day im riding on a bus and my last dose of nubain was the night before but i'd run out of versed.i started feeling a little tender all over my body...ii didnt know what it was and atributed it to feeling tired from the journey...but i was feeling quite anxious and when the bus stopped i went to the rest room and took my last vial of versed.the rest of the 3 hr journey was fine but when i came home i started feeling tender all over again,the night became a hellish nightmare for me..i couldnt move my body from one side of the bed to another,my body was as if someone had hammered me,i was shivering and sweating,diarrhea bla bla...it was awful,i just didnt understand what was happening,i looked up my symptoms and opiate dependence came up and i cursed myself for having taken nubain for so long without realizing i had become dependent,i thought now i'd have to deal with two different habits which would be so expensive plus i didnt really enjoy nubain,it helped me sometimes in certain psychological problems,but otherwise i hated feeling a little paranoid.i went out of nubain too since i'd always kept only some on me,the next two days were hellish.
when i went to work two days later i was so sick everyone started asking me if i was okay,id tell them i was tired from an overnight journey,i was convinced they knew i was a drug addict and they were hating me.i was so freaked out and freezing plus dizzy i went away from work in severe social anxiety (benzo withrawal makes social anxiety ten times worse) and got some versed,the moment i took it everything became normal,it was as if someone had covered me in an extremely warm blanket,the pains dizziness diarrhea sweating lacrimation all stopped immediatly. since then ive taken nubain only a few times and havent run out of versed yet i dont feel any opiate withrawal,the last time i took nubain was four days back.....sorry for the long post but has anyone got any idea as to why this is!!
when i went to work two days later i was so sick everyone started asking me if i was okay,id tell them i was tired from an overnight journey,i was convinced they knew i was a drug addict and they were hating me.i was so freaked out and freezing plus dizzy i went away from work in severe social anxiety (benzo withrawal makes social anxiety ten times worse) and got some versed,the moment i took it everything became normal,it was as if someone had covered me in an extremely warm blanket,the pains dizziness diarrhea sweating lacrimation all stopped immediatly. since then ive taken nubain only a few times and havent run out of versed yet i dont feel any opiate withrawal,the last time i took nubain was four days back.....sorry for the long post but has anyone got any idea as to why this is!!

