Bit of background on past use and suchh
This thread is a great, I'm glad everyone is supporting each other.
Currently on a break myself, I've been a regular toker for 5 years or so, with little room for breaks until recently.
My usage began in high school, funny because I wasn't interested in trying weed, and only did it so I was 'ready' to try rolling(Molly).
The first time was amazing! Literally felt like I was in a movie, every time I blinked reality would cut, like a new scene/take.
Never had I expected it to become an everyday habit... But of course an amazing experience holds the desire to revisit and relive it.
Fastforwarding a bit to avoid trip report rambling.. Cannabis eventually fit into my life, and due to the extreme stresses I was undergoing, it was the perfect tool. After sometime I had suspected I was bipolar, and pot really seemed to calm me down, so I began to self medicate. My usage became frequent, I'd graduated from joints to only using bongs, snapping bowls whenever I felt necessary and the supply was...there lol.
Wish I could more deeply explain the events that lead up to my cessation of getting devildick-eye-high, but this will turn into a biography so bare with meh lol. My dance with Mary Jane came to a halt forcibly, as I involuntarily got admitted to the psych ward(long story how). That was my first break, and I got released the day before 4/20. My usage became very minimal, to about less than once a month, and eventually growing.
Needless to say I began using everyday again, and finished off a little under a qp of top shelf in 2-3 months (4-5 joints a day).
Now I've decided to stop for financial reasons, and to preserve the magic. It's day 3 going on 4 without smoking, and it's relatively easy to abstain. Side effects are MANY vivid dreams (at least one about weed lol), sweats, and I'm having troubles eating, can't handle heavy meals ATM. My break will continue until I truly feel it's right to indulge again, i plan to do it rarely and in high doses
Sorry for the ramble, I be a lurker and writing really helps me reflect.
I'll most likely write about my hospitalisation in a more appropriate thread.
Congratulations to anyone attempting to fix whatever negative aspects have been brought on by frequent use.
Keep chuggin on and know you're supported!!
Btw, does anyone have tips on increasing appetite..? I'm afraid of losing muscle/weight if I keep having eating trouble.