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Really bad craving, I don't want to give in...

Sex dont make you feel completely fucking miserable physically and mentally if you dont get it for a while :P
 
i was confused by something in your post. if you don't get sick from heroin withdrawal, why are you prescribed suboxone?
 
i was confused by something in your post. if you don't get sick from heroin withdrawal, why are you prescribed suboxone?
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I got addicted originally because I was prescribed a massive amount of painkillers, I broke both shoulders, tore several ligaments and tendons, and shattered my knee in an accident. Suboxone is now the only pain med they will give me after I got addicted and od'd on the fuck-ton of pain killers they use to give me (and it really doesn't work that well for pain). That and my doctor believes it helps with cravings for stronger opiates. I probably would still be copping if it wasn't for subs. Part of this new craving is the fact that if I got some H, I would be pain free for a little bit, something I've been dreaming of for the last 9 months or so.
 
ah, makes sense now. yeah, the only good thing for pain is lady heroin. god, i miss her. hopefully i'll meet her again tomorrow. you should definitely not though...at least according to everything you've said. you seem to have a strong will to stop.
 
Hey bro I went through the same thing as you last week. But I caved in. It just left me feeling like shit, really guilty . All that clean time (7 months) is now gone. Don't do it, it's not worth it. I havent used since,thank god. it's hard though I can get really good dope anytime of the day at the drop off a hat down in skid row .
 
Hang in, Benny.
Got a similar situation, it would be so easy but... I really don't wanna bother. Damn itch. No, not tonight.
Tomorrow's another day.
Best of luck, man.
-izzy
 
bennyZA said:
I did good today, I withdrew money, but put it back... I guess that's good...
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Yeah never a bad idea.
I'm bad with money but I'm starting to do a little better. I have so little of it but damn if I come across it easy, and we know how it gets easy if we put a lil work in, I'll spend that. Not money I make working. I at least think about it a little bit.
 
You can't sorta quit drugs... took me along time to learn this. If your a addict you got two choices... two real choices. Quit Drugs, or don't quit drugs..

Its more then possible to start using again and not get addicted (it can be done) but no matter what if your a real addict it won't last and you will after awhile maybe years of keeping it in check get addicted again. Worst off is when you get addicted it comes back as bad as it was your last time.

So.... Either quit drugs or don't ... don't play games of im going use a bit then quit, or use then wean down, or just do a little on the weekends.. trust me it won't work and you will get fully addicted in no time.... Don't play games addicts either quit or don't quit
 
Totally true, you have one addiction substituted for another. So this perfectly applys to what I'm going through right now. I just tappered off benzos 100%. After that I was prescribed ambien, because the Benzo WD's were kiling me, I did sleep for days on end. So I got the ambien today, I took 10mg... nothing. So I proceed to take 10 more after 25 minutes have gone bye. Nothing. So just said "fuck it" and popped another 20mg. I walk around turn light on and off, and the only feeling I'm getting is a loss of motor control. Well, right before I write this post I ate another 20mg! and snorted 10mg So what is that now total 70mg?. No hallucinations. My coordination is slightly effected. For this size dose I expected something more! Honestly, I wasn't even trying to do any recreational substance but as xxSicknessxxx points out, I've turn my craving for heroin into a weird ass night on this weird ass drug. (this took way too long to type).
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For me high dose ambien didnt put me to sleep. Itd put me into a weird dream like state. Be careful bud. Turn your addiction into something healthy. Become obsessed with health like i have. Itll take you further.
 
I go through this every day man, i would have NEVER thought i would have got clean. I don't even smoke weed now, been clean for a couple of months. My H dealer messages me every friday, saying friday special... or memorial day special.... etc. And i am able read it and ignore it every time, just think of the feeling after man . Heroin is one of those opiates where you get a hang over the next day, just no energy, no drive for anything, and a blank dull mind. We can stay clean together man.
 
Hey. I just want to let everyone know about what happened since this post.

1st, I wanna say that something really shitty happened to me recently and it's really hard to deal with. So... I decided the other day to take some acid cause I needed to get a different perspective on what's happening in my life. [self edited to avoid triggering]

2nd. Problem with doing the acid is that I drank - to comedown - for the first time in 10 months, something that really set me back emotionally. Then I drank the next night. LUCKILY I puked the second night after such a small amount, and I felt like shit, I wasn't even drunk. Again, it put things in perspective. I NEVER WANT TO DRINK AGAIN, IT'S A HORRIBLE FEELING!

3rd THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART despite the traumatic event in my life and acid + drinking... I NEVER SCORED HEROIN I did it, I beat the craving for H. I realized it would be the worst idea possible. Despite the relapse, I'm much more concerned with the fact that I was able to get over my craving and I no longer want to score, AT ALL.

Thanks everyone for the support you guys gave me, I read this thread over and over again, and it's because of all of you that I didn't score H. Do I wish I never drank - of course - but because of the horrible feeling while drinking (and puking), I never want to drink again.
 
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