i'd like to try more drugs but i'm terrified of getting paranoid. I smoke almost daily now with little effect but occasionally still feel a little paranoid. My first few times getting high were terrifying and made me never want to try again. The first time I was with people I didn't really trust in a sketchy stairwell in some apartment building and I remember feeling like they were going to kill or rape my friend and me and I was terrified I was going to jump off the roof. I was scared of going down the elevator so we took the stairs...it was the scariest feeling of my life, it was like climbing a tree and not being able to climb back down...anyway, i'd like to know what drugs to avoid because I don't want to have a bad trip on anything. I've tried hydrocodone, ether, ketamine (didn't really have an effect-maybe didn't do enough). I hate losing control of my mind and not knowing whats real like that and want to try drugs that make me happier/more talkative/etc. Sorry if i'm sounding like an idiot lol. xo
