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How Are You in One Word v. Somewhere Over the Rainbow

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^PK you're a cool dude, a lot of people like you... those thoughts come and go. They sometimes stay around longer than usual but in time they will fade back to being almost if not non-existent. Just keep your head up and maybe try to stay away from the alcohol.

Serotonin101 said:
^ding ding ding. I worked 40hours a week, had 16 credit hours at uni, rotc stuff, a family life (included a clingy obsessive fiance at the time), and her and my dope habits to support. It didnt end too well cuz of course the dope came first, then the fiance, then job (to buy dope), then school and rotc. What do i have left of all that? Well i still go to school lol.
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Yeah, I know that story all too well just different time before and a somewhat different situation. I've been keeping my opiate habits down but now that I have a dealer who is a friend.... even someone my mother associates herself with it's going to be hard. I always chill with these people, I work with these people.... I never had a dealer that was closely tied to me like this and they're always holding so it's going to be hard. I've been doing dope straight since I got it and I do feel shitty..... and all I think about is going home and doing more. I almost thought about doing some and going to class but I was like oh no, I can't. Well for now I'm telling myself I'll do it all now until it's gone and I won't buy any until awhile for now but it doesn't help that I have an additional 800 dollar refund coming but if I tell myself no I can handle it.... I'd rather get a tattoo instead anyways lmao...

sick/tired: stomach hurts from using all that shit and waking up for my am classes is never fun.... now I have to wait until two for my next class and then I can go home and chill. Watch some netflix and crap.
 
^ you and i think a lot a like. Right as i read the "$800" my first thought was "shit id get some ink". When you get it (there is no ifs, ands, or buts) post that tat up on BL. Ill be waiting :P
 
Ugh, good luck. I'm only a few days in and I have no idea how I'm gonna survive the year.

Actually right now I'm extremely pissed off at a supposed friend who turned out to be a real bastard.
 
School is pissing me off currently. Time for a cig and some food to stabilize my blood sugar and relieve some stress. Hooray the matrix is on!
 
Well just finished homework. Took a multi hour delay as right after the matrix ended, matrix reloaded came on... I feel energized as its time to work out, and then get ready for class and flirt with the beautiful cheyenne who sits in front of me. :) her eyes are so beautiful.
 
Dealing with Insanity and Dementia in this house...Mentally Exhausted....
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