So many dealers I could bitch about. Though I've never really had much luck with dealers as I'm such an obvious outsider in the drug scene. No one are going to believe I belong there and they always say things like "I didn't know it was possible to look so straight" or just assume I'm an undercover police. And new outsiders are just the ones they like to take advantage off, especially if they don't expect to see you again. Also doesn't help I'm usually seeing them for the first time.
Like, last week I decided I wanted some Klonopins (just for sleep, hadn't slept for days) and I remembered the guy who helped me out the last time had a really good deal on 100 Clonazepam, won't say the price, but I've paid 5 times as much for benzos. Also remembered this guy seemed pretty decent, quite sober, and was really good to deal with the first time, and he said he was on Suboxone maintainance, so I thought "How desperate could he get?" (I try to avoid dealing with the ones who are really desperate and downtrodden by drugs as that's just asking for trouble).
He'd given me his number, almost forgotten about him, but thought I could give it a try. So I called him and he said "Sure, yes", and that I could wire him the money and we agreed I'd first send him pay for half then when it arrived I would send him the other half + a small bonus so we both had as much to lose (he even said he only needed half of the bonus I offered, but I said that was ok since he helped me out the last time and it would still be much cheaper for me). Then we agreed I'd wire him the money that night and he'd send it when it arrived on Thursday and I thought "Well, if he can do that he should be titled drug dealer of the year, because I've never been able to get anything that easily", though it sounded a bit too good to be true.
Then when I called him up later to ask for his address he was REALLY high and could barely remember what we agreed on. And already started to bargain back and forth saying things like if I couldn't send him the full amount upfront as he didn't know if he could trust me, and when I said "No", if I could send him a smaller amount, and then the half of that, and in the end started talking about how he was worried about sending it through the mail in case it didn't arrive, etc. And I just thought "He's already planning to use that as an excuse when it doesn't arrive and is obviously in bad need of money".
So I just gave up on it. Wasn't that hard to see through, very manipulative guy, but I'm a bit better at psychology and he was so high. But kind of disappointing, I mean, I actually believed him when he said the worst he had done was sell some fake Speed when he was the most addicted. Now I'm thinking he probably just uses Subutex as a base, and probably other opiates on top of that, and probably has a benzo addiction, aswell. "One day I just decided `Now I've spent enough time on being high.`" Hahah. Apart from all the mess he must get himself into for deals gone wrong, etc. and has to come up with money in some way. I'm just not thinking I'm going to help him finance it.
So that went downhill pretty fast. Was actually quite surprised as he seemed pretty genuine, one of the few more normal-looking people I've met in the drug scene. When I went up to him 3 police woman were swarming around him as he was bragging about being in business school for a yea. I mentioned they couldn't seem to tear themselves loose from him, as he's a very attractive guy and I guess they can't help themselves), and that made me laugh but he said that was nothing new. Seems like a typical conman, didn't seem like the aggressive type, but uses his charm and intelligence to get what he wants.
Sure the only reason he was so good the last time was because he knew I needed it in my hands before I gave him any money, but if he gets an opportunity to just take it I'm pretty sure he's gonna do that. So now I'm not really in the mood to stay in touch with him, though he's still probably one of the better options in that scene, but I don't feel I can trust him. Though I guess it's my own fault for expecting a complete stranger I meet in that environment to go out of his way to mail me drugs, etc. it's not that realistic.
