I haven't had MDMA and h together I don't think, if I have it didn't make a big enough impression for me to remember. I didn't make that clear, what I meant was the euphoria from k holing was better than the pleasure I've experienced from each individually.
I feel totally spent from a big weekend of using, I haven't had a poly drug binge for a long time and felt like I needed to cut loose, it was a lot of fun but I'm going to be regretting it for the rest of the week. Ah well. I need to clean my act up a bit, I relapsed on heroin in a big way the last two days, i don't really know why but I decided to IV which I have never really done nor ever really felt the urge to do. I now see what all the fuss is about, it really takes heroin to a new level. The whole process of fixing up, finding a vein, registering and watching the puff of dark blood draw back before driving home was intensely satisfying and the rush leaves smoking or snorting h in the dust. It's time to get back on the wagon and remember the reasons I wanted to get clean in the first place of which there are many, trying IV makes me feel as though I could be teetering on the edge and that's not somewhere I want to be. God damned you heroin, youve shown me something so good that I know I can never have and now that I've seen it I can't look away and pretend its not there.