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Besides the actual drug...what do you enjoy about the drug game?

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Another question for my fellow bluelightersss. Like the title says I am curious about what everyone enjoys about the whole drug game besides the actual drug?

If you were to quit your doc...what would be something that you think that you would miss? Even though we are living the life of a habitual drug user I think that we all find that we enjoy something else about the lifestyle rather than only the drug.

I am also interested in responses from those who really do not enjoy amything at all about the lifestyle and why? Obviously addiction and withdrawls are negatives - I want to focus on the actual life style.

Maybe I am trying to just get a discussion going on the ups and down of living the life of a drug addict/habitual drug user.
 
I'm no longer an addict so I guess I no longer belong in this discussion, but while using I enjoyed nothing else - the people I met, the things I did - not good!

I enjoyed my drugs, the drug game however is fucking awful.
 
i love thrill of it cause its illegal...you just feel like such a badass doing drugs... if drugs were legal there would be no point really haha
 
the second I know I'm getting something... even if it's not in my hands yet... if I know I have the cash for it, and it's waiting for me, that right there is a high in itself.

I love using a hose clamp to powderize pills, I love making the perfect lines, and if I ever decide to "stop" I'll always miss having that little cheat code by my side. I call drugs cheat codes for life because you aren't "supposed" to use them, the awesome ones aren't condoned, yet they make everything so much easier for the time being.
 
Being in random fucking parking lots at 2am with crazy fucking people... the thrill of the chase... getting away with all kinds of crazy shit... that person in front of you and that person behind you are at the store for milk and cigarettes and you're here to take money out of the ATM to buy a shit load of drugs... the possibility of getting arrested any minute... living in that space between life and death... coming up with ways to get money and drugs you never thought possible... seeing someone else in ''the game'' and just giving them a knowing look... always having a one-up or a secret on someone... you versus the rest of the world...

Why am I romanticizing drug use? Because I'm a fool... but there is definitely something sexy about it...
 
It's become somewhat of a hobby of mine. Ecstasy was what really brought me into the drug lifestyle. I was always interested in what was in each pill, what did what, how it did it,what it felt like. Then I moved on to meth and research chemicals. It's like a fucking adventure! You and your friends read up about some drug - some new world - you prepare yourself and you dive in! You learn from your mistakes, enjoy the highs, and there's always the looming threat of death or serious harm.

Honestly, I've become much more aware of my body since the drug game, and if anything I think I live healthier now, haha. Reading up about drugs has taught me so much about life, and i'm still a novice if even that.

That, and users always tend to have a bit more depth to them. They know the full spectrum of what it is to be happy and what it is to be fuckig miserable, from a purely chemical perspective.

From the tweaks, to the nods, through the crack outs, I love the drug game. Great thread by the way!
 
My DOC is probably dissociatives in general, mostly MXE with nice long breaks between uses. The thing I would miss is the falling into the hole of what the fuck. You can try to stop it but the moment you let go that's it, there's the sudden rush as you 'go over the edge' and that's my thrill.
I also love the sorting of the drug... I think I'm addicted to CWE's and crushing pills no idea why but I just love playing with the drug before using. As soon as I get something I weigh + sort it out into doses in individual baggies/vials. I suppose its just convenience.
I love the research and reasons why something does something different to you despite only having one change in structure (H2O vs H2O2 etc.)
My friends didn't know I even did anything for nearly 2 years (only alcohol) and looked down on any users like they were the scum of the earth alongside rapists and paedophiles etc. so I met up with other users and I just love the whole semi-secret community, the secret little nods and winks while passing in the streets or at parties when you're with friends or family. There's a whole nother life out there, hidden, waiting...

and I definitely agree with the whole spectrum of feels thing ^, before you use there's sad and happy and now there's everything either side and in between.

The part I really just hate is the money. It destroys everything imo. Drugs are just another means of getting money no matter what it takes, like filling pills with pipes or cutting powders and the thing is there isn't really anything we can do without legalisation of drugs.

Carbon is the earth, Nitrogen the air, Oxygen the fire and Hydrogen the water. There really are 'cheat codes' as such in real life... You just have to get the elements in the right order.
 
Not much. I like to know the facts about drugs I put into my body and talking about subjective experiences. I also get excited when I know I'm gonna get my hands on a drug I really enjoy, but I don't like that feeling at all. Feels to me like cravings are turning into fiending.

Why don't I like it? Because it's all such a waste of time..
 
laugh said:
i love thrill of it cause its illegal...you just feel like such a badass doing drugs... if drugs were legal there would be no point really haha
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^This^ and also the secret drug community,the knowing looks and laughing at the people who preach about how bad drugs are who have no idea that I use and love drugs.

I love the anticipation of doing a deal and the ritual of preparing (usually racking up lines in my case).
 
laugh said:
i love thrill of it cause its illegal...you just feel like such a badass doing drugs... if drugs were legal there would be no point really haha
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QFT.

There's something about the "underground" that's so intriguing...and mysterious. Then once you get in it, it's just...ah I don't even know the words to explain it. But its good. Until you start getting too deep and have to sleep with one eye open.
 
I really meet people that no one would suspect does drugs that I just scored with couple nights before. Really I like to meet new people , most people are good friends but there are the ones that aren't.
 
I enjoyed the high before the high...getting a lot of money, or finally hearing back from one of my dealers.
 
Am I the only one who disagrees with this? I suspect these feelings will change once you actually are arrested, and if you use drugs over an extended period of time its bound to happen atleast once. I feel quite the opposite, I dont like engaging in illegal activity because I dont like jail and detoxing, but I love h and would enjoy it even more if it was legal.

As far as the drug game, I love meeting new people and their stories, especially tweakers.


laugh said:
i love thrill of it cause its illegal...you just feel like such a badass doing drugs... if drugs were legal there would be no point really haha
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That secret community thing, that too. Nailed it on the head with that. Because nobody talks about it openly, but after awhile of beating around the bush and you find out someone uses, it's almost like instant friendship or at least a good conversation piece. Like adventurers would, you share stories, experiences, perils, successes.

Trippiest part is we're all adventurers but I don't think we're looking for anything specifically. Or maybe we are; has anyone found that rush that has satisfied their thirst for adventure?
 
Tiesto said:
QFT.

There's something about the "underground" that's so intriguing...and mysterious. Then once you get in it, it's just...ah I don't even know the words to explain it. But its good. Until you start getting too deep and have to sleep with one eye open.
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Was going to type something similar. I like being part of something secret that goes on right under everyone else's noses. Being part of an underground network of people. Meeting in secret. Doing secretive drops and creative deals. Having a double life that only a few people know about.

You can be more honest with another drug user you barely know then you can with a friend who doesn't use. Even though they're your friend you can't just start talking about shooting heroin or something without making them feel uncomfortable.
 
treezy z said:
i like partying with people, getting wrecked and doing shit with friends.
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This. And im not a habitual user or depenedent on a substance, but have had forced periods of sobriety. I love the stories. I love everything about buying, doing and every other part of use of drugs. Sometimes i miss the act of getting drugs and the act of getting high more than the actual high. There is alot more that makes drugs appealing than just the high.
 
Hey thanks everyone! There are a lot of well thought out responses.

I am a big fan of just having that something to look forward too like some of you have mentioned. Like no matter what you have to do that day...just knowing that you have the money and will be obtaining your doc soon is a high in itself.

My favorite is when i have to work in the morning and have not had anytime to cop yet. Then as it gets closer and closer for my time to leave the excitement builds. So yeah just having something to look forward to is nice.
 
Well, most of the time I hate 'the drug game', but I'd be a lier if I were to say there are not moments when I've found it to be pretty exhilarating. One thing I especially always liked, as corny as this sounds (though I'm sure a thousand + other white boys will secretly relate), is hanging out with drug dealers and gang bangers. I've always felt weak and cowardly, so hanging out with real tough mother fuckers always gives me a boost of confidence. I guess I just like being 'the chill art kid'.
 
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