What is really killing me is that even when I get high, I still feeling some of the withdrawal symptoms. Even when my habit was much worse I would do a shot and the withdrawal symptoms would go away for at least six hours if I did a minimum bag (sometimes 2) shot. Now I get high even higher since my tolerance is lower bit I still get the sweats. Could it be that since I never fully detoxed from the suboxone anytime I sweat it feels like and I read this on another forum and I liked it "on the inside," like I feel a warmness in my body along with that crawling feeling. For me that's always the worst, the cold sweats. I can deal with vomiting, diarrhea, not sleeping, anxiety, etc. I have all my life but the only time I feel this way is when I'm detoxing or actually sick from a illness (which I can't remember when that was. Is this all stemming from the fact that I was still feeling minor withdrawals after leaving the program just two weeks after my last dose of suboxone? I believe they gave me (two) 2 mg suboxone then 6 or 8 hrs later another 2 mg suboxone. Then (one) 2 mg suboxone three times a day the next day then (two) 2 mg suboxone the following day, then just one. Something like that. Subs don't make me feel much better like the used to when they where the tablets and I was just doing oxy's. I wanted to do it cold turkey but my insurance company would of not gave me more time had I refused medication. I did however try and run out of the nurse office every dose and spit out what was left in my mouth. I did stabilize slightly and the subs definitely helped because I didn't throw up which I always do if I'm coming off dope. Also, the withdrawals form the subs took a day or two to start due to the long half life and were sporadic, and with my luck 90% at night when i was trying to sleep lol. Any input would be appreciated.
