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How Are You In One Word v. I got a feelin'

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"Brakes applied" - to my ongoing woes. (See my "Cops decide to press attempted arson charge. I'm suicidal. Please help." thread also in TDS).

The massively heavy oil tanker which is my present depressed state of mind mainly due to the current legal mess I'm in, at least temporarily, - thanks entirely to the love and wisdom which flowed my way from the keyboards of fellow TDS'ers who very kindly took the time to advise and comfort me in the aforementioned thread above - feels like it's no longer crashing forwards out of control and heading non-stop for the jagged rocks of suicide.
 
motherofearth said:
Gourmandized like the pagan forefathers of olde.
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That sounds mouthwateringly educational! As always MoE!! <3 Glad to see you're doing well. Poke your head around more often. I miss you!!! <3

I am so excited. We went landscape/tree shopping today. Came out with one mango tree, one fig tree, two banana trees (the ladyfinger kind), and like a bunch load of discounted patio plants =D. Success!!
 
Tired...finally slept half an hour and my son came to wake me, for some goodies and videos and a drink.....
Oh , how them children enjoy the simple things,make it last,God,Please.................................<3
But i'm up.........
 
Thanks neo i kno its only 3 days but i am feeling pretty fucking ok and super excited mentaly.it all kinda happend by accident it was super dry around my town so all i could get was methadone so i got 20 10mg pills. I took 5 a day for four days and on the fifth day when i finaly had some oxy i thought to myself i havent been high in 4 days and i dont think i feel like it so i decided that my body had a 4 day break from oxy i might as well give it a try.i have been telling myself these last 6 months that once i man up and go cold turkey(from a 200mg oxy habbit) and make it thru the acute phase i fucking swear im never taking another opiate ever again cause i just love them too fuckin much i cant be an occasional user i just dont have it in me. So here i am 3 days later and i feel like im thru the worst of it and u wanna hear somthin weird? it didnt suck half as much as when i tried to kick my habbit when it was only 70mg of hydro is that ass backwards or what.
 
Unhappy.

I have very few real friends.
Today i have decided i am going to cut out a lot of people from my life.
Nobody has tried contacting me to see how my overseas trip was..
Today a few of them were together & called my girlfriend, asking if we could help them score some thing to smoke.
My partner said no, 'but Dan is sitting here with me', and they were in too much of a need to score to even say hello to me over the phone.
:'(
I have the worst selection of pals.
I want to go back to my old home.
My friends there are rough and don't have the highest morals/standards, but at least they are genuine towards me and care about me enough to ring me and want to catch up on a weekly basis.
The people i have met through parties and stuff won't try organize anything with me anymore.
If i want to see them i have to phone around and work my ass off for it.

Ahhh sorry.
Feeling very depressed.
 
wired

it's 4AM, and I'm wide awake. I'm not even sure why, I just don't feel sleepy at all.

@ trip - <3 I know how it feels to be unloved by your friends. Just keep looking, there are real genuine people that care about you out there. It's always disappointing to find out people aren't who you thought they were. You can tell ME about your trip overseas :)
 
Thanks badfish, I'll upload you some pictures in a couple of days :)

@ N3o..
<3 <3 <3
You are the best.
Your facebook message helped a lot :)
I'll send you a reply soon.
Please cheer up!! I miss you!
 
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