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How Are You In One Word v. I got a feelin'

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trip <3, don't feel bad. I weeded out all my old real world friends a while ago. I have but one genuine from left. Now that I can focus my time and effort in being a friend with her, I don't really need anyone else. Plus I got my Bluelight <3

<3 n3o <3 :( come move to americas, land of the idiots:

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Took that picture yesterday while driving. (the flag was huge and whipping a lot more epicly than the picture does it credit) Some good ole "home boy" was swervin all over the road flying a flag that doesn't exist anymore. The southerners sometimes like to pretend that the north didn't pulverize them into submission and that we still should have black people as slave. The confederate flag is also a favorite for replacing the top interior of their trucks when it wears out.

America, america!! =D
 
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theartofwar said:
Hey fatjosh;
Best of luck man. Jus n FYI the iddle hands did me in so b careful !
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Artofwar u r so correct that tim between 7pm and 11pm are the hardest. But i am changing up my entire sleep/life cycle i used to stay up till 6am and sleep till 2pm and i told everyone its cause i was gaurding my weed thats growing lol i went to sleep with the help of a little xanax at 12am and i was up at 7 now that im up im going to take my dogs to the dog park and see what els the day hold without having to worry how to score fuck ya!!!
 
^@ villain--yeah, that lovely emotion rears its head every now and again in me and humbles the fuck out of me.:\ Best thing you can do is take it as the eyeopening teacher it is.

@Fatjosh--you sound like you are really shaking things up to make this stick--good for you! We are a very dog-loving bunch here in TDS. We need a picture in the pets thread of your canine companion.:) Keep up all the hard work. <3

@Trip-- I've had a couple of times in my life like that--where circumstances suddenly show you what your friendships are or aren't. It's really tough when what is revealed is that there is very little substance. In my experience there are only a few people willing to go deep with you in friendship--the rest are opportunists that are there when it suits them. There is room for everybody (because in all honesty we probably do that to others in our lives as well) but like Stardust said, concentrate your energy on the one or two people that you find that want what you want from a friendship and lavish your love and loyalty on them; it always gets returned. Returning from an amazing trip is such a life-changing event, too. A lot of people don't necessarily get that who haven't done traveling like that.<3<3

@n3o--all I can say is,"I know, I know" but if you were here I could pat your back while I say it. Of course if you were here you would be in San Diego and I wouldn't have to say it. ;)<3<3
 
Many thanks for the kind words, especially Herby - your PM made my day. <3 I am pleased to report that the great tidal wave of 2012 is over - my guy couldn't stand to have me away any more than I could stand it, so he stood up to his Mama and now we are all one big happy family again. Now we really CAN save to buy a house, travel... and all it took was me sucking up a little pride. I don't feel I have to compromise anymore. I feel loved.

Chloe (dog) thinks this is also a great thing:

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OMG Chloe <3 she looks amazing Mari. Does she have her own yard now, is that what I'm seeing?

Why are you worried stella <3. How is your daughter btw?

I am a disgusting sweaty mess. I just planted like a bajillion trees and patio plants. 8(
 
^ Don't be lonely. <3

stardust.hero said:
OMG Chloe <3 she looks amazing Mari. Does she have her own yard now, is that what I'm seeing?

Why are you worried stella <3. How is your daughter btw?

I am a disgusting sweaty mess. I just planted like a bajillion trees and patio plants. 8(
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^ I am trying to get this settlement over and settled. It is just annoying waiting on it. I am ready to be in our new place. Morgan is doing fine. We found out she's carrying a girl, so we get another girl. <3 Thanks for asking Stardust :)
*hands Stardust a towel to wipe her sweat*
 
I wish that was Chloe's yard! It's a nearby dog park that just won an award for a park makeover with new fencing and landscaping. Her new yard lacks a fence and it isn't practical to build one, so she goes to a different dog park 3-4 times per day that does in addition to her walks. Everyone who meets my beast falls instantly in love. <3 I wish she could be there for all of you to hug. She is truly Therapy Chloe. She ruff roo all. <3

Me: worried - Mr. Mariposa is having an allergic reaction to eggs (which he knew but ate them anyway) and if he keeps yakking he's going to the ER. Never a dull moment.

ETA: Stella, I hope the settlement works out in your favor. You and your family remain in my thoughts.
 
Aww yay a girl!!! =D. What was she hoping for? I think I want all my kids to be boys for some reason lol. Maybe all boys and maybe one girl. Ahhhh babies are so exciting!!!! Congrats again to you guys :). Other thaaan that.. I hope the settlement comes through soon.

And Mari, 3-4 times per day, holy dayumm lady! She's a lucky girl, and you're a good momma. And ew, yakking from eggs.

Overall I've been feeling very even-headed. No sudden or extreme bursts of anxiety or panic--at least in the past week or so. I'm very thankful for that.
 
^ Thanks Mariposa and Stardust. I am ready for it to settle for sure. Then I am taking a long nap, lol. Probably just in time to be a grandmother. Hehe! Wow, where does the time go too? <3
 
theartofwar said:
Feelin wicked alons for first time in a year I got Suicidal. Gonna try n reach out for help
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You know the drill man, you've gotten through this before, so you can do it again. Have you got a friend or relative you can call right now? Just talking to someone on the phone will help. PM me if you need to okay?? Take care taow <3


Thank you stardust and herby <3
stardust, I LOL'd heartily at the "home boy with the flag that doesn't exist anymore" :D
 
^^TAOW please PM me back sweetie. I have been waiting to chat with you. <3 Please be kind to yourself and ask for what you need. You have a lot of people that care about you. Hang in there man.
 
@Fatjosh--you sound like you are really shaking things up to make this stick--good for you! We are a very dog-loving bunch here in TDS. We need a picture in the pets thread of your canine companion.:) Keep up all the hard work. <3

Thanks again for the kind words herbavore. I will try to get pics up along with the other critters cause i have an albino burmese python and the most random pet ever... I hand raised a raccoon, he lives in my room and is litter box trained. You see i grew up from age 4 wanting to b a vet cause i have this unrelenting draw to animals i swear im like the fucking dog wisperer mixed with jeff corwin. Reptiles r my thing although i had to give up my whole collection when my dad was dying of cancer due to them having salmonella i couldnt have them in the house with him with his immune system down, but i love all animals i had an article in our small town newspaper because when i was 10 i found a baby pigeon that fell out of its nest, i fed it with an eyedroper and even when it learned to fly it never left, not only did it not leave but it learned to use our doggy door and it would follow me and my friends as we skated around our town. I kno im kinda strange but animals truely r my passion and even throughout my addiction they never went without. Sorry if im rambling on its just that im really glad to have my life back, and its nice to say positive things about myself because when im using i swear that little voice in my head tells 100 times a day that im a piece of shit even tho i kno at my worst im 100 times better than some sober people i kno. Plus i feel like i won the lottery ima have so much money now that im not spending 50-80$ a day on pills!!
 
paranoid android said:
Miserable as fuck and looking forward to the day i die so i can finally get some peace.
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I dont kno what lifes like for u android but i felt the same way a week ago and now i feel i have new lease on life. I dont believe in god so i wont tell u to look to him but what i will say is that that cheesey saying "its allways darkest before dawn" is so true dont give up on yourself tomarrow is another day and while that may seem like a downside, tomarrow could be the day things change things happen in the strangest ways i finally got thru my opiate withdrawl after trying for 3 years and it all happend by accident because all i could find was methadone. I have been fighting for years and it kinda happend by accident so keep your head up and kno your not alone
 
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