cassandragemini
Bluelighter
there's a few reasons i stopped using codeine with smack, the number one being my laziness. doing a cwe takes time, buying it, filtering somewhere, having to cart the equipment and the returns are limited. buying and using smack also takes times and i guess because i had money i just decided that i only had time for that. also i didnt have much spare time to use, i was working full time, starting at dawn and usually finishing pretty late, only had a small window to buy and use in. i didnt have any smack buddies other than the occasion friendly junkie but no one i really related to in terms of how much and how hard i was using, everyone was a either too hardcore or were a friend and didnt use and didnt like me using so i kept it hidden for the most part. not something im particularly proud of but thats drug addiction. also ive always viewed codeine as inferior, ive never really enjoyed the high and due to my sensitivity its never been something ive ever sought to use except as a means to stop or ease wd's when cleaning up or to cheaply increase the return from stronger opiates. i much much prefer heroin but its almost impossible to sustain an addiction unless you are making a good 4 figure weekly paycheck, thinking back i should have kept using codeine to potentiate but honestly i was obsessed with smack and only had time and energy for it, all other drugs apart from the big opiates were just crud in my eyes.
one thing i notice with codeine, pst and tramadol is that i prefer a low, subtle high with them. with codeine im happy on two 30mg pills, its very mellow but still has that nice tight chested, slightly dirty, kind of tactile euphoria to it, as well as a nice mood lift. pst even more so however the nausea and headaches i get are usually too much for me to handle after a day or two. with heroin i found i could never really enjoy it unless i was nodding to the verge of unconsciousness, anything less and i just wanted more and thats both dangerous and fucking expensive to do at least once everyday. also i totally agree with you about how on smack you sober up very quickly with almost no lingering buzz, all of a sudden the euphoria seems to wane and then you're left unsatisfied and wanting more immediately. thats something that i always found frustrating, if you have money and a nice stash then redosing to your hearts content is great but if you're a struggling addict its pretty fucking depressing. pst on the other hand lasts for a good 5-6 hours for me, its nowhere near as mind bendingly euphoric but at least it keeps you satisfied, i can see how it could mix very well.
you dont shoot either eh? any reason for that? i was constantly encouraged by other addicts to shoot up, both as a way to make the most out of your gear and because it brings the pleasure of smack into a whole new ball park. i shot up a few times but was always a bit iffy about it, i dont have a problem with needles at all, in fact i find there purposefulness fascinating, like machine guns or racing cars. i have a problem with dying, getting infections, embarrassing scars and going further down a road i was already way over my head on. also im inherently lazy and having to go through the whole rigmarole of buying gear, getting needles, finding somewhere to shoot and then fixing up, potentially missing shots and fucking around more than i already had to more work than it was probably worth to me. i got plenty from racking up, its fast, pretty stealthy and at least somewhat safe. and still hits you pretty hard, hard enough to fall off park benches or have a dog take a piss on you. i also liked smoking a small amount, just because it was fun and requires a bit of skill.
codeine is a godsend when you need it though, im using both 30mg pills and cwe's now to ease the PAWS im riding out after jumping off suboxone, without it work would be hell and sleeping worse than it already is. figuring out that cwe's were a massive help for smack withdrawals was also a great day for me, it made a shitty situation so much more bearable. when i got to new york in pretty bad wd's a couple of years ago i went to the pharmacy hoping to get a pack of generic ibu/codeine only to find its not OTC there, it was heartbreaking. luckily opiate pharms might as well be OTC there and before i knew it i had a handful of oxymorphone, mmm mmm.
one thing i notice with codeine, pst and tramadol is that i prefer a low, subtle high with them. with codeine im happy on two 30mg pills, its very mellow but still has that nice tight chested, slightly dirty, kind of tactile euphoria to it, as well as a nice mood lift. pst even more so however the nausea and headaches i get are usually too much for me to handle after a day or two. with heroin i found i could never really enjoy it unless i was nodding to the verge of unconsciousness, anything less and i just wanted more and thats both dangerous and fucking expensive to do at least once everyday. also i totally agree with you about how on smack you sober up very quickly with almost no lingering buzz, all of a sudden the euphoria seems to wane and then you're left unsatisfied and wanting more immediately. thats something that i always found frustrating, if you have money and a nice stash then redosing to your hearts content is great but if you're a struggling addict its pretty fucking depressing. pst on the other hand lasts for a good 5-6 hours for me, its nowhere near as mind bendingly euphoric but at least it keeps you satisfied, i can see how it could mix very well.
you dont shoot either eh? any reason for that? i was constantly encouraged by other addicts to shoot up, both as a way to make the most out of your gear and because it brings the pleasure of smack into a whole new ball park. i shot up a few times but was always a bit iffy about it, i dont have a problem with needles at all, in fact i find there purposefulness fascinating, like machine guns or racing cars. i have a problem with dying, getting infections, embarrassing scars and going further down a road i was already way over my head on. also im inherently lazy and having to go through the whole rigmarole of buying gear, getting needles, finding somewhere to shoot and then fixing up, potentially missing shots and fucking around more than i already had to more work than it was probably worth to me. i got plenty from racking up, its fast, pretty stealthy and at least somewhat safe. and still hits you pretty hard, hard enough to fall off park benches or have a dog take a piss on you. i also liked smoking a small amount, just because it was fun and requires a bit of skill.
codeine is a godsend when you need it though, im using both 30mg pills and cwe's now to ease the PAWS im riding out after jumping off suboxone, without it work would be hell and sleeping worse than it already is. figuring out that cwe's were a massive help for smack withdrawals was also a great day for me, it made a shitty situation so much more bearable. when i got to new york in pretty bad wd's a couple of years ago i went to the pharmacy hoping to get a pack of generic ibu/codeine only to find its not OTC there, it was heartbreaking. luckily opiate pharms might as well be OTC there and before i knew it i had a handful of oxymorphone, mmm mmm.
Cant stop scratching it hahaha
