I don't really know what i should of put for the title
also i don't really know how to word it either but I'll try my best. So a little over month ago i went to a rave and rolled the hardest I ever have. my usual dose is 100-120 mg of common molly, I test my stuff sometimes and most of the time its mostly MDMA or MDA cut with caffeine. I can't find a reliable source so It's extremely hard to find pure molly but the last rave i came across ~1.5 pts of pure crystal MDMA.
30mins before i took the molly i took .75g of some potent shrooms because i wanted to hippy flip for the first time. I then parachuted 90mg around . The whole time i was sitting in my car with a friend waiting for another friend because the 3 headliners didn't start until 9. We were telling stories for a good hour and during the first half-hour i kept doing small bumps because I felt that it wasn't intense enough, before i knew it i took all 150 without realizing it but at that moment it wasn't too intense. an hour after i took the first 90 our friend came and we went in. after i went in there all sense of time went down the shitter. 5 mins felt like 30 or an hour felt like 2 mins it was a really weird experience not bad just weird. that whole night doesn't even feel like it happened when it did. the best way to describe it is, it feels like it happened over the course of 3 nights and it was pieced together into a sequential event.
Once i got in there and started dancing the feeling kept getting better and better and better and well you know. I wasn't worried until music didn't even sound like music. it just sounded like white noise but it still sounded like the best thing in the universe (like i said, it's close to impossible word the feelings i experienced). then I noticed i was extremely hot and i was covered in a constant film of sweat that didn't seem to go away. So i left the main room to go to the outside chill-out area and drink water. well that didn't seem to help enough so I found my friend and told him We should go find D (the other friend) who was in his car because ,as i told him, i was feeling a little off, while in my head i was thinking "oh fuck, fuck! I got serotonin syndrome". we found D got in his car and asked if he could blast the AC which ,I love him for it, he did. once i got cooled off and cleared my head abit i calmed down enough to where i could enjoy the rest of my roll. I started coming down and drove home around 12 (don't worry i drive super super careful after rollin even if i feel completely sober). when i got home i noticed i felt "off". the "off" feeling turned out to be ,for lack of a better word, retardation. I couldn't carry out any complex thought, i couldn't even spell google because i wanted to look up serotonin syndrome and i couldn't think to just type it in the search bar.
The next day i felt like ABSOLUTE shit. the "retardation" lasted about a week and within 2 weeks i felt back to normal except for one thing that still happens now. Anytime i try to shut my eyes and bring up a memory of the place and try to picture the stage and the lights and the music, it's almost as though it's too intense and i either shock back to reality or my thoughts involuntarily switch to something else.
I'm out of school now and i'm worried i caused some kind of permanent damage that i haven't noticed yet because i haven't had to strain my brain since the rave, but as of now i don't notice any lasting effects beside the memory thing
sorry for the length and any incoherency. any thoughts?
also i don't really know how to word it either but I'll try my best. So a little over month ago i went to a rave and rolled the hardest I ever have. my usual dose is 100-120 mg of common molly, I test my stuff sometimes and most of the time its mostly MDMA or MDA cut with caffeine. I can't find a reliable source so It's extremely hard to find pure molly but the last rave i came across ~1.5 pts of pure crystal MDMA. 30mins before i took the molly i took .75g of some potent shrooms because i wanted to hippy flip for the first time. I then parachuted 90mg around . The whole time i was sitting in my car with a friend waiting for another friend because the 3 headliners didn't start until 9. We were telling stories for a good hour and during the first half-hour i kept doing small bumps because I felt that it wasn't intense enough, before i knew it i took all 150 without realizing it but at that moment it wasn't too intense. an hour after i took the first 90 our friend came and we went in. after i went in there all sense of time went down the shitter. 5 mins felt like 30 or an hour felt like 2 mins it was a really weird experience not bad just weird. that whole night doesn't even feel like it happened when it did. the best way to describe it is, it feels like it happened over the course of 3 nights and it was pieced together into a sequential event.
Once i got in there and started dancing the feeling kept getting better and better and better and well you know. I wasn't worried until music didn't even sound like music. it just sounded like white noise but it still sounded like the best thing in the universe (like i said, it's close to impossible word the feelings i experienced). then I noticed i was extremely hot and i was covered in a constant film of sweat that didn't seem to go away. So i left the main room to go to the outside chill-out area and drink water. well that didn't seem to help enough so I found my friend and told him We should go find D (the other friend) who was in his car because ,as i told him, i was feeling a little off, while in my head i was thinking "oh fuck, fuck! I got serotonin syndrome". we found D got in his car and asked if he could blast the AC which ,I love him for it, he did. once i got cooled off and cleared my head abit i calmed down enough to where i could enjoy the rest of my roll. I started coming down and drove home around 12 (don't worry i drive super super careful after rollin even if i feel completely sober). when i got home i noticed i felt "off". the "off" feeling turned out to be ,for lack of a better word, retardation. I couldn't carry out any complex thought, i couldn't even spell google because i wanted to look up serotonin syndrome and i couldn't think to just type it in the search bar.
The next day i felt like ABSOLUTE shit. the "retardation" lasted about a week and within 2 weeks i felt back to normal except for one thing that still happens now. Anytime i try to shut my eyes and bring up a memory of the place and try to picture the stage and the lights and the music, it's almost as though it's too intense and i either shock back to reality or my thoughts involuntarily switch to something else.
I'm out of school now and i'm worried i caused some kind of permanent damage that i haven't noticed yet because i haven't had to strain my brain since the rave, but as of now i don't notice any lasting effects beside the memory thing
sorry for the length and any incoherency. any thoughts?
