Frosta
Greenlighter
Hello, I've been IVing opiates for about a year now, got up to around 400mgs of morphine/90mgs of hydropmorph a day. I went on suboxone about 6 days ago and it BARELY helped. It basically made withdrawal JUST livable. I started off at 2 mgs, didn't realize I went into precipitated withdrawal, took more, 8 mgs altogether, and was sick for 2 days. After that, I was at 4mgs for 2 days, no sleep, no food except for chugging ensure to try to get some vitamins down. I've got nasty arthritis and the rebound pain/RLS kept me up, tried to use ibuprofen but it was useless. Because I was hurting, but could still deal with it, I dropped down to 2 mgs already, I'm on day 6, and the worst seems to be over. Today, I'm skipping a day because I have no money.
Do I really need it anymore? If I discontinue is it going to be worse than what I've already gone through? Does the bupe completely take over and become the "new opiate" hence more withdrawal if I discontinue? It seems to me like the worst is over, and I REALLY don't want to be dependant on any opiates anyore. I live in canada, so I was thinking maybe if it gets bad after a couple days, just grab some T1s, do a couple extractions for the hard days and maybe that'll help but I don't even want to do that. I'm just so sick of this SHIT! I want to have normal endorphins again! I want to be able to walk at my normal pace again. Be able to sleep in the same bed as my boyfriend without kicking the shit out of the sheets lol.
Also, I had some seroquel at my disposal, and it didn't even knock me out, I took 40mgs, 50 and under is supposed to be the right dose for sleeping right? Well, I combined that with some pretty potent pot and I just laid there.
Do I really need it anymore? If I discontinue is it going to be worse than what I've already gone through? Does the bupe completely take over and become the "new opiate" hence more withdrawal if I discontinue? It seems to me like the worst is over, and I REALLY don't want to be dependant on any opiates anyore. I live in canada, so I was thinking maybe if it gets bad after a couple days, just grab some T1s, do a couple extractions for the hard days and maybe that'll help but I don't even want to do that. I'm just so sick of this SHIT! I want to have normal endorphins again! I want to be able to walk at my normal pace again. Be able to sleep in the same bed as my boyfriend without kicking the shit out of the sheets lol.
Also, I had some seroquel at my disposal, and it didn't even knock me out, I took 40mgs, 50 and under is supposed to be the right dose for sleeping right? Well, I combined that with some pretty potent pot and I just laid there.
