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Random MSN Gibberings 100th Edition : Salsa Dancing With My Confusion.

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Mugz said:
^yeah I had psychosis on 2-dpmp and mdpv, two separate occasions, one has a massive trip report, the other I thought I was being recruited by the cia to stop a deadly bioweapon being released in cambridge
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You failed and the bioweapon was released.

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Couldn't they just have released it in the sealed room? Why did you have to be in there?

edit: very noble of you nevertheless
 
Mugz said:
I was prepared to sacrifice myself to save cambridge during that episode, I kept telling them to seal me in the room and release it so only I would die.
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Aw. :) Thats really heroic Mugz.

I believe all the trips Ive had and realms ive visited are real. I've seen a few armageddons and Edens :D Different lives n stuff.. I think they exist and at some stage I'll be able to choose at will which realms to visit and what adventures to experience...
I think i'll be able to see yours too because that stage is pure one Self. ( man) Eg 'I'll' be able to choose what it was like to save Cambridge.

Thing is when I come back from long journeys I'm usually in a lot of trouble in reality land.
 
check this out,

"The music video for my song 'Alice', composed using chords and vocal samples recorded from the Disney film 'Alice In Wonderland'."

must have taken some doing to put that together,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAwR6w2TgxY

nostalgic, used to spend hours watching old disney films,
 
^ thats a shame. I've been catching up on posts and just read a few of yours.

When I got to the bit where you were discussing meds & anxiety and trouble due to not showing up at work I thought to myself 'what that guy needs really needs in his life right now is a couple grams of strong amphetamine'.
 
Seriously, don't try and get any more drugs this weekend. Number one priority is getting to work on Monday, then going out to the doctor, then going back to work. Plan for that, don't do anything that'll fuck it up. If you get amphetamine in you'll get motivation alright, it'll be the motivation to do ALL the speed and stay up three days meaning you can't do either of those important things because you're a gibbering wreck on Monday.
 
badandwicked said:
It's all about the consequences.
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indeed

i miss stims, but so glad i gave up meph, rollercoaster of ups and downs, took me ages to stop doing that stuff, feeling so much better for it. less anxious etc than ive been in years. can just about manage not to get back on it even when im drunk in a room full of people hoofing it,
 
jancrow said:
Seriously, don't try and get any more drugs this weekend. Number one priority is getting to work on Monday, then going out to the doctor, then going back to work. Plan for that, don't do anything that'll fuck it up. If you get amphetamine in you'll get motivation alright, it'll be the motivation to do ALL the speed and stay up three days meaning you can't do either of those important things because you're a gibbering wreck on Monday.
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This person speaks sense
 
jancrow said:
Seriously, don't try and get any more drugs this weekend. Number one priority is getting to work on Monday, then going out to the doctor, then going back to work. Plan for that, don't do anything that'll fuck it up. If you get amphetamine in you'll get motivation alright, it'll be the motivation to do ALL the speed and stay up three days meaning you can't do either of those important things because you're a gibbering wreck on Monday.
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I'll have to go to the doctor, and then go to work after the doctor depending on what the doctor says because I forgot to mention and even forgot myself that on Mondays my shifts are 11-7 so I wouldn't have time to do any work before my midday doctors appointment anyway. I'll get to the doctors though and then hopefully get into work after the docs, and not pick up that prescription.

edit - I might have some more cider tonight though
 
Mugz is saved by the fact that the speed is no longer available today, was on my way to get it then found out it was ungettable. Probably a good thing.
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Do you actually enjoy psychosis? Seriously, the number of uncanny psychosis stories you have is unreal. I thought I'd had some bad ones with the likes of PV but they are nothing in comparison.

Everytime you do stims, no matter what, even the ones that "aren't bad for psychosis" in your words such as ethylphenidate, you still end up with it. It can't be fun. Why do you need speed? Motivation to do what?

Seriously Mugz get a grip and realise stims fuck your head up. They don't do most of us any good really but you they really aren't going to help ESPECIALLY not with already bad anxiety and trying to kick a benzo addiction, BRILLIANT idea 8)

Booze doesn't help anxiety when you sober up either. Which won't help with making it to work or seeing this girl.
 
^ this

Deep in a cycle of abuse. ive scraped the surface. tis a hard one to get out of
 
Did I post anything here last night? :sus: I put it off coming back for a while untill i was drunk enough
 
Also Mugz.. if you've got it in you to sacrifice yourself for Cambridge you can overcome the urge.... Its just getting in that hero space and enduring or changing whatever is wrong with reality at the moment.

I'm just trying to get in touch with my inner heroism so I can pack the car for a carboot that is bound to be bloody rained off again tomorrow morning.. OM ;)
 
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