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AxlCobain

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So I'm bored to tears and thought maybe people would be willing to share the experience of the first time they rolled. The idea seems legit but I guess we shall see. I'll go first, lol.

Well I guess I should say that I thought I had rolled at a halloween party before I was shown the truth, dunno what we took but we also got drunk and were speeded out.

Now I met a Kandy Kidd at a birthday party and we smoked a blunt together. He ended up getting me a job and we worked pretty close together. I noticed that dude is always listening to electronic and wears bead bracelets constantly. I asked him about it and he described the rave scene to me. Well it peaked my interest and I continued to ask him about his experiences and such.

So then he tells me that a rave is going down in a nearby town and he knows where to get legit shit. Prior to this he swore up and down that I had never rolled, he's like the guru of rolls, I was skeptical to say the least. So anyways I tell him yea lets do it. He gets me my shit a few days early. I couldn't resist, lol. I say "only dropping one" well I get home hop on the Xbox and party chat that shit up! Before I know what the hell happenedy face exploded! I knew at that moment that all other times were bullshit!

I took 3 more that night I spent several hours listening to Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band. All the while my Xbox friends learn just how much they really mean to me, lol. Some of them were like "wtf is wrong with you man?" others played along though and starting dropping "loves" back my way. My ex was there but I think she was engulfed in her own world, ex for a reason right!

All in all I had an amazing time. I still went to the rave and got my first light show which are intoxicating. People knew I was boot status and went out of their way to help make my roll awesome. Scalp massage with a light show equalls amazing every time! So much good feelings it really changed my perspective on electronic music but the rave scene as a whole. So happy I was introduced properly!
 
This subject has been covered a lot of time but It's always nice to hear first time experiences :) - so before you dropped what were you expecting? What were your pre conceptions of the drug / scene ? Now that you have used MDMA how have your thoughts about MDMA / E changed?

I can remember my first -I used to have a regular hook up for Amps / LSD, this week when I went to get sorted he mentioned this 'new' drug called 'Ecstasy' and would I like to try it .. I had to wait three days for it to arrive, wasn't really sure what it was / what the effects were etc. So long story short / acid house party, tripping/sweating my tits off and dancing until the music stopped :D !
 
Well i really had no idea what to expect from it besides i would have a good time. My friend that introduced me too it tried to explain it but always came down to a "if you had rolled before you would KNOW" and "just wait till you roll then you'll know what I mean".

The music I had always looked down upon for lack of skill and I considered the rave scene to be full of a bunch of weird ass drug addicts with poor taste in clothes and in music. I was really anticipating the roll while I was waiting for it to hit. It had been hyped up so much that I was ready for it.

I do remember that it was a profound experiance. I never felt so simply "me" before. I was shocked that I wanted to be everyone's best friend and that they generally felt the same way. I never knew so many people could gather in one place and be no hate or drama. Just love and kindness for the sake of being human.

I learned that though the music sounds simple, to get someone to react to it in the manner I did and many others is no easy task. I can but do not listen to my regular music while rolling. I actually listen to a lot more electronic now cause it just reminds me of the pure happiness but I can appreciate the skill required to make a good track.

Though I abused MDMA once in the years since my first roll, and do regret it, I think everyone should do it at least one time. This is the only drug I know of that has GOOD come from it, if it is used properly. I just don't see how the insight and pure joy of life and care for others can be a bad thing to know about even once.

All in all, I was misinformed about the entire "culture" that excists. As I'm sure most people still are. Now, I'm decked out in candy, LED's, glows ticks and body paints. I usually spend my time roaming the grounds talkig to people, giving out cigarettes or water and helping to make your roll more enjoyable in anyway I can. It was Lifechanging to say the least.
 
I used to be a used car salesman when I met a customer who was the same age as me and he was just a good dude to be around so we became friends. i remember that we went on a test drive and he asked me what kind of music do i like, i replied i like almost anything, except country, i then asked him what kind of music do u like? which he replied jungle, i was like wtf is jungle is that the music from the jungle book...anyways he said he goes to raves and he told me about a "massive" in san bernardino on 9/5/05. so i was still scared to do real drugs, and i have always smoked pot but i heard that one time you can die from using E so i was sketched out, either way i decided to go to the "event" and just get a feel for it before i dropped.

The day has finally arrived for us to go to the "event" my friend had picked up a handful of blue dolphins, they looked like little pieces of cheap candy. we get into the event and immediately go to the sunken garden, everyone is smiling, dancing, talking just everyone was chill as fuck. the music didnt really work for me and i was getting a little weirded out by all the peeps with there face melting so i decided to drop one just to get to everyones level. an hour went by and nothing had happened, i started to tell my friend that these were wack, but he was rolling by now he sd take another one...bout 15 minutes after that happened BOOM i felt like i loved everything about anything that was at the event, i started sweating like a pig and the light trails is what i remember most. i just felt like nothing could go wrong and i know it sounds cheesy but i felt like everyone at the party was my best friend. it literally changed my life. know i cant get enough DNB or Dubstep and that is what is always in my cd player and it totally changed my perception about the beautiful drug we call MDMA.

did anyone else get the butterflies when they were explaining there first roll? cause i sure did.
 
i'll always remember my first roll. I was bored with some friends one night and we decided to get some coke. My dude didn't have any but said he had some bomb rolls. We decided to get a couple of these yellow aliens. I had done a tiny bit of molly before and had a bunk pill before but never really rolled until this night. I chewed one up in the parking lot as soon as I got it and after that spent the night hanging out with some friends and feeling the best i've ever felt in my life. I just remember this voice in my head going "holy FUCK! it's not possible to feel this good, oh my god, THIS IS INSANE". I ended up doing another 1.5 pills and smoking a bunch of weed and hookah. Unfortunately I spent the next couple years trying to recapture that first roll and never quite felt that intense euphoria and love again.
 
AxlCobain said:
Well i really had no idea what to expect from it besides i would have a good time. My friend that introduced me too it tried to explain it but always came down to a "if you had rolled before you would KNOW" and "just wait till you roll then you'll know what I mean".

The music I had always looked down upon for lack of skill and I considered the rave scene to be full of a bunch of weird ass drug addicts with poor taste in clothes and in music. I was really anticipating the roll while I was waiting for it to hit. It had been hyped up so much that I was ready for it.

I do remember that it was a profound experiance. I never felt so simply "me" before. I was shocked that I wanted to be everyone's best friend and that they generally felt the same way. I never knew so many people could gather in one place and be no hate or drama. Just love and kindness for the sake of being human.

I learned that though the music sounds simple, to get someone to react to it in the manner I did and many others is no easy task. I can but do not listen to my regular music while rolling. I actually listen to a lot more electronic now cause it just reminds me of the pure happiness but I can appreciate the skill required to make a good track.

Though I abused MDMA once in the years since my first roll, and do regret it, I think everyone should do it at least one time. This is the only drug I know of that has GOOD come from it, if it is used properly. I just don't see how the insight and pure joy of life and care for others can be a bad thing to know about even once.

All in all, I was misinformed about the entire "culture" that excists. As I'm sure most people still are. Now, I'm decked out in candy, LED's, glows ticks and body paints. I usually spend my time roaming the grounds talkig to people, giving out cigarettes or water and helping to make your roll more enjoyable in anyway I can. It was Lifechanging to say the least.
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What a great post and thanks for sharing :) - I took a good friend to his first rave, he had exactly the same misconceptions as you have stated (rubbish music, druggies etc) but after he came up on the dancefloor he couldn't stop dancing :D !
 
my first roll was with my wife... i remember getting butterflies in my stomach so i laid down to fell better, next thing i know we are in each others arms crying and telling each other how much we love one and other. after that we danced and i tried to remember all the rolling tricks i read about but couldn't. it was one of the best experiences in my life and my marriage had never been the same...
 
The first time I rolled, I took a capsule of MDMA with my friend. We decided to go for a walk while we waited for it to kick in. For a long time I wasn't feeling anything and I started getting frustrated, thinking I didn't take enough or that it wasn't working. We decided to start walking home and on the way, we sat on a bench for a minute. As soon as I sat on the bench, I all the sudden had this explosive, indescribable, explosion of pure bliss in my chest. I remember like it was yesterday. It felt like a fountain overflowing in my chest. All the sudden I was in the most amazing, incredible state of bliss I had ever experienced. We walked a little further and sat in a park, and talked for hours. It was one of the most healing nights of my life. I talked about trauma buried so deep that I couldn't even get myself to think about it before that night and he came out to me and told me he was gay, which he hadn't ever told anyone before. It was such an amazing night... words can't even describe.
 
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