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Doing Benzos Alone (Literally, by my lonesome)

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reflekt

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I enjoy using benzos in social situations like

  • school
  • going to the mall (ends badly though, buy a looottt of shit)
  • after drinking (hangover prevention, makes alc more fun)

or mixed with other drugs like adderall + valium was a blast, to sleep after stims, etc.

but would doing it by my lonesome, in my house, be fun? i take Valium.

or would it just end up being depressing as hell texting dumb shit to people?

EDIT: I might add I'm pretty bored and feeling pretty dull at the moment. Maybe if I did something I enjoyed while taking the Valium it would be alright?

EDIT 2.0: Seems like drinking alone a bit... shit.
 
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nah benzos (especially valium) are pretty sweet alone , but pretty likely ull start doing it more regularly . benzos (when i can get them) make me feel not so depressed , and like everythings ok for a while . but sometimes ill get more depressed than i would if i wasnt barred out , thats on xanax tho not valium , valium is more euphoric . definetly smoke weed after u dose , if u smoke weed that is .
 
When I was using benzos without dependence or tolerance, I always loved using them in social settings over using them alone because I had some fairly significant social discomfort and anxiety, and they disinhibited me. I always felt them stronger when I was out and about, in the beginning that was. Using benzos alone, however, can certainly be enjoyable just to relax your mind and body, and not give as much of a fuck. I have felt they are a bit different when I am alone (at higher doses than my usual daily doses or when I had no dependence or tolerance), like I said, but not bad. Most of the drinking I have done has been alone, and I always enjoyed that, where some find it depressing, but alcohol and benzos are different drugs.
 
reflekt said:
I enjoy using benzos in social situations like

  • school
  • going to the mall (ends badly though, buy a looottt of shit)
  • after drinking (hangover prevention, makes alc more fun)

or mixed with other drugs like adderall + valium was a blast, to sleep after stims, etc.

but would doing it by my lonesome, in my house, be fun? i take Valium.

or would it just end up being depressing as hell texting dumb shit to people?

EDIT: I might add I'm pretty bored and feeling pretty dull at the moment. Maybe if I did something I enjoyed while taking the Valium it would be alright?

EDIT 2.0: Seems like drinking alone a bit... shit.
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Most of what you have said is exactly what Valium is good for, but..... what i have underlined in your quote can also happen (IME) so just be careful on the doses you take and with mixing it with alcohol to avoid doing embarrassing things and/or possible dangerous things.

Have fun and stay safe/sane ;)
 
I've found benzos taken with no other GABAergics alone at home to be really boring, even if I smoked weed on top. The exception is if I was exceptionally anxious, then it is very relieving. I try not to take benzos when I'm feeling down, because it just makes me feel worse. Being benzoed out can make me feel hopeless with my current situation in life.

Benzos are tools for comedowns/sleep and medicines for panic/anxiety, so I wouldn't go chasing a high that's not there.
 
I wouldn't recommend getting into such a habit. Benzos are functional drugs, that have a good purpose in treating anxiety, panic attacks, etc. (and even so, using them too often in this regard can still end badly). Once you get into the mindset of doing them just because 'why not', then you're risking getting into a habit of just doing them for shits and giggles, when they should be treated as a medicine.

If you can control your usage to no more than twice a week, then go ahead and do so. But just remember these are powerful drugs you shouldn't treat casually if you want to avoid withdrawals.
 
Back in the day when i used to be really into benzos, on days i had nothing to do.i used to cop a couple of xanax, kolonopin, or valium go back to the house pop enough to get me right to my sweet spot then at the peak flip on some chopped&screwed music or lil waynes "me and my drink", spark up a nice fat blunt and half way through i felt like i was reaching nirvana . Moral of my story is benzos alone is pretty great in my opinion.
 
reflekt, when I do benzos alone, the textin people dumb shit kicks in. I get weepy/depressed bc I sit and think about EVERY problem I'm currently facin, etc.
Now I can take them at home IF someone is home bc I get very social on benzos which isn't like me normally. But then again I suppose that's the magic of benzos, takes away the inhibitions of anxious people who would normally avoid social settings. IME anyway..
 
If you mean taking benzos to help weith boredom, it dosen't really work like some other drugs do. You're probably best off saving it for when you go out or taking it to sleep. It looks like you figured this out alreay though.
 
phatass said:
i don't see anything wrong with taking a few benzos and watching a film alone, or listening to soe music
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But there's nothing fun about it, either. It just... numbs you, which is good when you are anxious or panicking, but when you're already chillin and bored, benzos are so boring to take alone.
 
Taking benzos alone makes me feel 'okay' with being alone / makes me feel less depressed that I am alone because they numb my feelings and all I feel is relaxed and content
 
I find they're better alone. Puts me in a null state where time flys by. I discovered this website blacked out on Zopiclone (Immovane), lol.
 
Yeah indeed, they're especially fun when you just wanna lay back, think/worry about nothing and relax, and usually I do that when I'm alone. In social situations benzos alone could even be annoying if you don't like your mind being clouded, sometimes makes me a little antisocial (unless it's combined with another drug). That's totally subjective tho, it's also quite possible you enjoy it in social situations.
At home, alone they're always fun though. That's why benzo addiction creeps up on you like that. You never see it coming, when you do it's "too late".
 
If youre up to use benzos alone at home, this is in my oppionion the "last step".
I experienced this early this year when i had a load of different benzos at home, before that i NEVER had problems with them (nearly always used them as TOOLS).
Well i started to use them recreational one here two there and lost control over a few months....
Its like you think its alright i dont pop them each day, but you have to remember the long halflife of some of them, and that it doenst evben matter in which frequenty u pop them but how much u pop overall.
If i cant talk u out of doing this, the best thing (which i should have done too) would be doing a list how much mg u pop over the month...
Believe me they drag u in addiction more backstepping than any other drug, at least for me... after that time i stopped for 2 or three weeks and found my self in dramaticly withdrawal. felt like going insane with pictures of death EVERY night vor 2 weeks... believe me i was VERY close to chose pop one to get out of that hell, but i knew i would have been TRAPPED for real then...
I think what i experienced was really a joke compared to what daily use over months or even years can lead to, but still it was hell, coming from someone who had to go though a lot of drugrelated and non drugrelated shit.
Just be careful, benzons nowadays have my fullest respect, it scared the shit out of me, id choose any addiction (from drugs known to me) over a benzo one!
 
codeineluva said:
If youre up to use benzos alone at home, this is in my oppionion the "last step".
I experienced this early this year when i had a load of different benzos at home, before that i NEVER had problems with them (nearly always used them as TOOLS).
Well i started to use them recreational one here two there and lost control over a few months....
Its like you think its alright i dont pop them each day, but you have to remember the long halflife of some of them, and that it doenst evben matter in which frequenty u pop them but how much u pop overall.
If i cant talk u out of doing this, the best thing (which i should have done too) would be doing a list how much mg u pop over the month...
Believe me they drag u in addiction more backstepping than any other drug, at least for me... after that time i stopped for 2 or three weeks and found my self in dramaticly withdrawal. felt like going insane with pictures of death EVERY night vor 2 weeks... believe me i was VERY close to chose pop one to get out of that hell, but i knew i would have been TRAPPED for real then...
I think what i experienced was really a joke compared to what daily use over months or even years can lead to, but still it was hell, coming from someone who had to go though a lot of drugrelated and non drugrelated shit.
Just be careful, benzons nowadays have my fullest respect, it scared the shit out of me, id choose any addiction (from drugs known to me) over a benzo one!
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Some very true words spoken there.

The list of withdrawal symptoms from Benzos can be almost endless, but for me, the morbid thoughts, feeling of impending doom are the hardest to deal with, when you mention pictures of death i can relate to that, it must be very hard for somebody to grasp unless they have experienced this.

At my worst along with usual... Rebound Anxiety/Insomnia/Depression, auditory hallucinations, closed eye visuals etc i would have graphic detailed images of Friends, Family and loved ones being killed in horrific accidents, it was like living out a trauma that was not even happening but mentally and psyically it felt real, to the point where i would be in tears everyday, also images of my own death and funeral. I also used to have daily suicidal ideation during these times.

I know this maybe at the extreme end of the spectrum as i suffered with terrible Anxiety and Depression before i discovered Benzos but it really did make me understand how mind altering they can be, yet at the same time they can almost fool you because they can seem so subtle when used.

Apologies if this is a little bit 'Darkside' but just wanted to give my perspective, i realise Bluelights main goal is harm reduction (and my post may not fall into that category) i also am not intending to scare-monger.

Anyway be careful, they can creep up on you and before you know it they can have you in a vice-like grip, and its hard grip to wriggle out of (IME)

Take care.

Oh btw my Benzo use was EXTREMELY EXTREME!
 
I've always preferred taking benzos when alone at home, and just relaxing in bed listening to music w/ them or something...this did lead to a very strong addiction though and I think anyone using benzos alone would be at a very high risk for that.
And as was mentioned, benzo addiction and w/d are no fun :\
 
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