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My drug life is confusing.

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idontdothizz

idontdothizz

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I have a little story. It starts with, I LOVE DRUGS.

It started out with weed of course and then I started doing opiates every once in a while. The opiates never really game me a euphoria though. Nothing like what I am about to get into...

Eventually I gave into all the hype that all my friends were talking about with ecstasy so one day I decided to give it a go. Wow. Wow. Wow. I dont need to explain this one to you people. You know how good that shit feels when you first start doing it.

Well, I did that weekly and it started to lose its magic and one day I went overboard and did 5 pills which I think were cut. I had a seriously, seriously, seriously bad reaction. I believe serotonin syndrome because well some of the symptoms included but not limited to my arms and legs from the elbows and knees down were very noticeably purple. Also I experienced rhabdomyolysis, a condition where your muscles start to breakdown. VERY UNPLEASANT FEELING. I could literally see them breaking down and getting smaller right before my eyes and so could my brother! I was hospitalized. Every since that day I had mild hppd and tons of anxiety.

I was clean for almost a year after that. Anxiety got better. I used xanax a few times recreationally bla bla bla.

But then overhearing conversations my curiosity rose again and I gained an interest in DXM. First dose being 300mg. LOVED IT. I kinda felt like a was rolling just a teeeeensy little bit and my attitude felt so courageous and it felt like I was becoming a new and better person.

This led me to getting addicted to it. I was doing it a couple times weekly with dosages 500mg+

THIS IS THE IMPORTANT PART: I tried delsym. For some reason I think I react differently to this one than other people do, because when I do it at night, I sleep for two hours, and wake up feeling ON TOP OF THE WORLD. I feel waves of euphoria that comes EXTREMELY close to an mdma peak, ALL DAY! And my libido goes through the roof and also my erections turn god like! Holy wow man too good to be true I was doing that all the time. I liked the afterglow WAY more than the trip! Its like being on ecstasy all day with no stimulant side effects!

Then I overdosed on it and felt retarded for a week and never did it again for a pretty long time, besides, I could not handle the syrup anymore.

Another year goes by and I learn about the Delsym water extraction. So I get into it again and did not stop for a while until coming across a chemical we all love, MXE. I ordered it. Researched it for the whole week it took to get here so I knew what I was in for. I believe due to the dxm I already had a decent tolerance, because it took 60mg before I REALLY started to feel it, and Im talking about that gooood amazing batch that we all know about. The white fluffy crystally manic one. Yeah. So that replaced DXM easily because I could do it every single fucking day with no side effects.

I got pretty addicted to it and ran out, got some more, but this batch although looked the same, did not give me energy like the old stuff, so I tried a US source, and it just felt a bit speedy and not much like MXE usually feels. So I cut down on MXE. I was off it for two weeks, and decided to give delsym another go.

Extracted my usual dosage, dosed up, and waited. But guess what? NOTHING HAPPENED. I came up for a couple seconds after 4 hours and then it was gone. From 5oz of delsym. No afterglow at all. Now I am depressed because there is still no drug that tops that afterglow.

I want something that can give me that... Anyone know what can do that to me?

Also I mentioned the overdose on ecstasy thing because ever since then, I cant do drugs with stimulant properties because my arms get numb and purple and I get really weird feelings. This was with 6-apb and 4-ho-met on different occasions.

I miss DXM, but I cant do it anymore because I fucked MXE so hard in the ass that I cant even feel DXM anymore :( suggestions?
 
Jesus man take it easy. 5 ex pills at once? wtf? seriously dude get your shit together

drugs can be fun but they must be used in moderation
 
haha you dont need to tell me that man this was 3 years ago and I lost EVERYTHING because of that night.
 
dude quit abusing dissociatives. It sounds like you just built up a huge tolerance, which you should take as a sign to stop using (at the very least stop using a couple times a week or daily, I would say go for once a month if at all) Trying to get around this issue to keep getting high sounds like the beginning of addiction to me...

Any drug will lose its magic or stop working eventually. You just used too much DXM and MXE too quickly, if you had spaced your trips out you would probably still be enjoying these substances.
 
eat healthy, take vitamins, some probiotics, meditate, sleep a lot, breath deep deep breaths through your nose and out your mouth, and smile!
 
Yeah I know. But hey, I am deploying to boot camp for the Navy on the 21st, so I am gonna go ahead and do whatever drugs I can. I got a drug test yesterday and since it only tested for THC, Coke, and meth, I was overjoyed at the thought that I can abuse the shit out of my MXE and etizolam. I am just dissapointed that the dxm celebration had no effects on me at all. I tried to combine them when I wasnt really feeling anything, subbed 20mg mxe, just made me feel like there was some weird shit going on in my head so i just popped some etizolam and went asleep.

Really what I want to know is what causes the afterglow of Delsym(dxm polysterix) it effects me more than others to the point where my pupils are dilated all day and im pretty much rolling.
 
give it a nice long rest, dxm has a funny way of cutting u off if u abuse it too much.
the magic may never fully come back unfortunately.. and I gotta say it forgive me, but it sounds like ur self medicating for depression or social anxiety..I dunno, stay active, take care of ur body, and try again in a few months
 
Give psilocybin mushrooms a try man, they have little if any stimulant properties - it's a really chill, euphoric, profound and beautiful high. And if you end up abusing mushrooms, well, then I guess you would be an abuser of any drug in existence because they arn't addictive at all. Mdma and dissociatives are horrible for your body though; in the future you should choose drugs that arn't so brain damaging (like psilocin, the non toxic drug in mushrooms). It sounds like you want to do as much drugs as possible before going to boot camp, but that doesn't seem like a wise choice to me especially because you've nearly died in the past because of drugs and messed yourself up permanently slightly. A mushroom trip or two might actually help you sort shit out and get yourself on track to a healthier lifestyle. Peace and good luck.
 
wow no offense but you seem to try anything you can and it appears you go overboard....my advice quit drugs, goto rehab or find a hobby!! hope bootcamp sorts you out and your mentality towards getting high!
 
Hey,

Like you I started using Methoxetamine daily at one point and earlier this week I go rid of 80% of all RCs I had in and only left with Psychedelic. I have recently found 2C-I, 2C-E and DMT and all have made me realise that dissociates ALWAYS end up with daily use. I did the same with Ketamine but when Methoxetamine came along I couldnt say no!

Seriously, try RCs such as AMT and 25B-NBOMe. I've not tried either but the next two on my list and also think I will stick with more established substances as a dangerous game very new RCs!
 
transitioneer said:
25_-NBOMe compounds are pretty new lol.
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Yea completely however I have recently made a list of all my recreation substances and it currently stands at 25 Class A,B or C/Prescription/Legal/Banned for classification. I had a big look at my life and realised that I would only proceed with a few select psychedelics, many being 2Cs. I believe that many of the 25_-NBOMe subatances will be a great mix of 2Cs and LSD.

I reckon it wont be around long as someone will OD as it is so potent.
 
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Hey,

Like you I started using Methoxetamine daily at one point and earlier this week I go rid of 80% of all RCs I had in and only left with Psychedelic. I have recently found 2C-I, 2C-E and DMT and all have made me realise that dissociates ALWAYS end up with daily use. I did the same with Ketamine but when Methoxetamine came along I couldnt say no!

Seriously, try RCs such as AMT and 25B-NBOMe. I've not tried either but the next two on my list and also think I will stick with more established substances as a dangerous game very new RCs!
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well Im not gonna buy anymore because I am leaving for boot camp in 13 days. I do still have 6-APB which I did last night and I also have 4-ho-met which I am gonna do in a few days. and then 6-APB again sometime before I leave. It just sucks because the stimulant side effects effect me so much worse so I did 1000mg niacin and 2500mg l-arginine and an etizolam to combat them. Worked pretty well, as I did not have to get in a warm tub this time, but my fingers were still tingling a bit. It was worth it though.
 
As Roger said, no "What should I take?" threads, sorry.

I think you need a break, and you should start now. Maybe when you return home after being deployed your tolerance will be lower and you'll have a clear head to use these drugs more responsibly and without ruining the experience for yourself.

If you're going to take something either way I'd say you're better off with regular psychedelics simply since you seem to have an addictive personality, and while psychedelics can still be abused, they don't have the seductive allure of dissociatives dragging you back time and time again.

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