xanax problems

[Jabberwocky]

hey guys,

about two nights ago i took 5mg of xanax because i was having a pretty major panic attack - and throughout the past two weeks using it infrequently say two or three times a night due to some panic issues i've been having.

two weeks ago i also took an extremely high dose of benzos after snorting what i believed was cocaine but clearly wasnt - i think around 6mg of xanax coupled with 18mg of bromazepam. all that did was calm me down strangely, and i'd had quite a long break from benzos prior to that, sort of horrifying considering i had to take so much in order to simply calm myself. i took that amount in the space of about 2-3 hours, it was surreal, it seemed to worsen and worsen and the benzo's weren't actually helping that much until i reached that dose. blood pressure and heart rate were still through the roof as well. argh.

also - i've never EVER taken such a high benzo dose before in my life. whenever i have used them it was for theraputic value and i've never seen the recreational side (unless mixed with opiates) but thats a different story - even then i never went about around 1-2mg at the most.

like i've said, i have been trying to go down to lower and lower doses and take the odd day off - surprisingly i've had no real problems but now it seems to be kicking me in the face.

last night was possibly one of the most terrifying nightmares which i have ever had. i realised that two nights ago i'd taken a relatively high dose, so i took 1mg of xanax and was planning to take 0.5 today just in terms of withdrawal (i seem to get it bad from xanax), and as soon as i shut my eyes and attempted to get some sleep i had the most vivid nightmare i've ever experienced in my life. i suffer from sleep paralysis, and i thought it would simply be a bout of that but in fact it was much worse, it must have lasted around 20 seconds, but it felt as if i had been trapped for hours on end in that nightmare.

i had to wait about 4-5 hours before i could get some sleep after taking another 0.5 of xanax.

could this possibly be due to the benzo withdrawal? (is it even possible for such a short time taking it?)
-and does anyone know what i could do to stop this happening again tonight? i'm terrified to go back to sleep

with regards to other medication i am taking 40mg of d-amph in the morning for ADHD. for the past three days i haven't touched it though.

sorry if this message is a bit jumbled/confusing, i'm still sort of recovering from my ordeal last night

 

[nAON]

Yeah it sounds a bit like WDs. How long have you been using xanax?

 

[podsnomo]

Dude, what are you doing with those doses? Do you have a ridiculous tolerance? the mod has a good question. if you've been on xanax for a long time, probably WDs, but if not, could just be you're body/doesn't know wtf to do with all you're throwing at it. IMHO you should find the dose of benzos that keeps you OK and slowly taper. Wow man, be safe, be alive.

 

[Jabberwocky]

We'll the dose was so high due to whatever was in that so called cocaine. Prior to that had been clean from benzos for about a month or so.

Would it be advisable to taper regardless of just using them for the past two weeks?

I only use benzos when I am in serious situations of panic/anxiety Or to mix with opiates. I am not a long term user I guess but a frequent one some times a month - but at low doses.

 

[tokenname]

do you have something else available to you besides xanax for sleep?
I'd try to switch from xanax to something like valium w/a longer half-life..and
not quite as many side effects.
Agree..pretty sure that wasn't cocaine...

token

 

[Jabberwocky]

Well I may be able to get ahold of some mogs, but not for a lOng term basis just in an attempt to slowly taper off the benzos properly because it seems like I'm suffering withdrawal from them (nitrazepam)

I don't really wish to use them long term. I only ever take benzos in these kind of extreme situations and try to control the intake but when I'm in that real state of panic it's hard to not just swallow a handful of them unfortunately.

 

[pirates_]

I suffer from sleep paralysis as well, mostly when i mix heroin with xanax..and what i do when i mix them is i prepare my self for SP.. i tell my self it is going to happen..and i just let it happen......it doesnt make it go away any faster, but it helps me not panic..

 

[Jabberwocky]

Yeah I have been doing that (or attempting to) and reduce the Xanax I need to calm myself down if I have them. It used to take around 2mg but I've managed to get it down to 0.5 now - but that's not the issue at the moment.

I think that my brain was just simply overloaded with benzos and I need to taper correctly back off, but I'm not sure of that is actually the case, or even whatever what was in that cocaine could have affected my brain. Not sure on the likely hood that but perhaps worth taking into consideration?

Also thanks so much for the replies an help so far guys it's much appreciated.

 

[spini4]

When I stopped my Xanax prescription a few days after I had a experience where my body felt like it was very very heavy. I could still hear my wife asking if I was ok although I felt as if I was out cold... Does this sound like ur experience? I allways wonderd if it was due to Xanax withdrawl.

 

[generic username]

Since no one else has called it, I'm gonna guess something that falls under the paradoxical reaction category? I mean is 2 weeks of on and off small dose use (unless I misunderstood?) really enough to cause w/d's? I usually take 1-5mgxday for a couple weeks and drop it cold without any real noticeable problems

To me it really just sounds like you're taking an odd/unusual occurrence and blowing it up into this psychosomatic thing. Just relax and forget about it and see if that doesn't help, I mean it's mostly about a nightmare leading to panic attacks, right?

 

[tokenname]

Well I may be able to get ahold of some mogs, but not for a lOng term basis just in an attempt to slowly taper off the benzos properly because it seems like I'm suffering withdrawal from them (nitrazepam)

I don't really wish to use them long term. I only ever take benzos in these kind of extreme situations and try to control the intake but when I'm in that real state of panic it's hard to not just swallow a handful of them unfortunately.

All I can say to that is...you're not alone in it..
in fact it would make no sense, if you didn't want that panic to go away..
but best of luck to you...the best, smartest thing you can do it quit altogether(but safely, taper)
or use only as rx'd or intended.....
both i realize are easier said than done..
but both have also been done...

token