There is one way to not get hooked again. First you have to ride a unicorn to the end of a rainbow. Then you take the pot of gold, and bring it to Bigfoot. He will then give you a secret message for Mitt Romney, who in turn will give you magic underwear, that when worn, will keep you safe from all addiction!
The other answer is no. Those of us with the disease of addiction will always try and kid ourselves or rationalize to convince us that we can use responsibly. It is a sick, insidious disease and the only way to have a life worth living is abstinence. I wish you luck, my friend. Personally, I have been clean for four years and all I know is my personal story: My life is FAR from perfect right now, I suffer from awful chronic pain, my tolerance is beyond anyone my doctors have ever seen (from both being on pain medication from a young age and from my past abuse), and I am having lots of medication issues right now. BUT I would take my WORST day now over my best day of using, without a second thought. I am lucky that I found a program to work that has helped keep my clean and sober, and I hope that you find the same. Just remember that the above poster is correct, just because you have something you don't have to use it, that is just an excuse. Heck, its not too late while you are still above ground. Good Luck!!