My friend you are in the very rare part of the boat where the captain's cabins are, you are on the upper deck with a great view. in other words, I envy where you are. TRUST ME ON THIS, if you screw around with harder opiates, you WILL find one you like too much, or find one that likes YOU too much. It may take a long time, but it will happen. My short story: about 15-20 years ago I got my first hydrocodone buzz. It was nice. I didnt do it often since I didnt really know anyone who had them for sale. Maybe five years later, I met up with a guy who was scoring H and had a scrip for methadone. So I did those. Snorting at first, little bits (a bag would last a week). Fast forward six months, I cant breathe from my nose, 3 bag a day habit,so I started injecting. Within a year I had what many call a "dealer's habit" (tho I didnt deal, just had lots of disposable income at the time). 20-30 bag a day habit. Boy that SUCKED to kick, but I did it (after a nasty OD). Stayed clean a while, then met up with this chick who was getting roxies (IR oxycodone) at a GOOD price. Off to the races again. Kicked that habit when her dealer lost his PM doc. Clean again a year. Then met up with that same dealer, he had hydromorphone this time. That was over a year ago, still fighting the opiate demon.
I look young for my age still, but my insides are wrecked. Imagine a guy almost 40 who looks 25 but has the guts of a geriatric patient. Not saying you will wind up like me, well, actually, yeah,I am saying that. I dont know of anyone who can chip opiates except for an exceedingly few who have no connects or are always broke as shit or both. Chances are if you 'meet a guy' who can get you x opiate, you'll meet someone else, and someone else, and before you know it your cell phone has more dealer's numbers than friends or family.
The worst mistake you can make is thinking you are above this. That's the one I made. I was young and arrogant and thought I could beat anyone or anything. Remember, there is always someone stronger than you, and there are little pills or bags that can bring you to your knees.
Do not curiosity get to you. And Ill leave you with one of my favorite song lyrics, from Alice in Chains:
"There's no going back - to the place - we started from" - All Secrets Known