many apologies you lovely people, thanks for the concern

big mistake by me.
was drinking all day yesterday, had a nice day, felt alright so went out in the evening with some friends to a drum n bass thing, looking forward to seeing some people there n having a good night. usually go to all the decent music nights etc around the city and the atmospheric etc is amazing, full of good people. was there for 5 mins.... some tosser grassed me up for "trying to sell drugs", which i wasnt, and i dont sell drugs, got dragged off n searched and found with valium and asprin on me. they went nuts, some skanky old hag that i assume owns the place went mental, rang the cops, i dived out the way got away from the bouncers, ran off as as the cop car came, as i wasnt going through the hassle of the same shit i had last year when i got caught with 0.5 grams of meph on me... stuck in a cell and left to dehydrate for 11 hours, dragged through court, messed around and fined £180, criminal ecord (ridiculous). fucked by the system
was absolutely fuming, ruined my night, usually my nights are amazing and hassle free. so angry i jumped in the nearest taxi and got home, drank more vodka. made the stupid decision of hoofing up 2 unmeasred lines of MXE from different batches. good job i have tolerance or who knows what would of happened. felt it kicking in strong, huge regret, slapped some msj down me and waited. and thought i was gonna die. could hardly see, type, felt sick, messed up, fucked me up. made that mistake before and made it again. drank alot of water, fell around the room nearly breaking everything and literally crawled into bed, must have looked like a fucking zombie trying to crawl up out of a drain or something. got in bed expecting to never wake up. but here i am... lol
nevermind though i feel alright today
naughty of me...much love
