Yeah, do you inject your coke? I ask because I can see how when insufflated cocaine can/has been relatively harmless (for me-though dont misinterpret me, cocaine is addictive no matter what) The problem is that I don't like the insufflated high, because I get twenty minutes where I'm feeling real pumped up, aggressive, ready for some intellectual debate, and after thirty minutes, I start to feel myself sort of sink back into the corner of the room, I can't talk, and I usually (if I'm to be honest, feel like I'm going to start crying if I don't get the fuck out of there.)
IV coke is so different though, because it's really not a "high" it's a rush. I can sit in a bathroom for hours on end shooting coke, knowing "this is really fucking horrible for my body, my veins are closing up my organs hurt etc, etc.." and I'll continue because even as the rush begins to diminish (due to depleting all my dopamine), I just don't want to face that crash, where I'm lying on my couch, sweating bullets (and that sweat SMELLS like cocaine *blech*), trying to tell myself I won't use the next day-just to ease my conscience so I can fall asleep, wake up, and rationalize picking up some more blow the very next night.
