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How are you in one word? v. flying purple elephants

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@n3o - It does. Just give it some more time, the whole "day by day" thing. It will get markedly easier after a month or so. I had 5 months yesterday and feel like I'm on cruise control. I only superficially think about alcohol these days. It's part of my past.

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...if that is a word. I have to work early. I should really stop listening to this stuff and go to bed.
 
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Tonight is a particularly bad night :( . I've been stuck in this for too long... Sounds like some people are havin some rough nights. I'm usually content when I'm EXTRA fucked up... but tonight idk. I'm on a whole bunch of fentanyl n ambien n I can't sleep... I got work in the morning thats gonna blow. I need a job that isnt fucking my back up. I'm not really in pain right now but for some reason this depression really broke through the drugs tonight. I'm so fuckin sick of all this shit, I need drugs just to be fucking content, and even now, im more fucked up than usual but I'm so sad. They aren't working like they used to =(. I'm sorry guys i needed to get this out tonight im in such a fuckin bad place right now. I'm so sick of trying to deal with this shit. The only reason im even here is because of my family :( . I don't even know... im gonna go take a shower i think. thanks for listening guys, nobody in my life knows that much n i nneeded this tonight definitely. :(
 
Took the shower n read the post. Sorry for sounding like a little bitch =/. I'm gonna lay down till I have work I think. Sorry to hear ur struggling neo. Life can be fuckin rough man
 
n3ophy7e said:
fucking struggling
someone please tell me it gets easier?
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It gets a lot easier. It's going to take some real work on your part, but you've got it in you. You drank for eight years, Rosie. Give yourself longer than two weeks before you panic!

It may not be okay right now. You, however, will be okay.

I'm sorry you're hurting. But I'm so proud of what you've achieved. You're amazing.
 
Drained - Yesterday was a really bad day. Between a bad first go on a stimm ill never try agian and the stress that someone very close to me was in a car accident, and nearly arrested. I ended up a physical and emotional wreck all day, and im soooo worn out today because of it.

But these events did make you realize who very very important this person is to me, and how devastated i would have been if anything more serious had happened to them. Also the event made me open my eyes about some things about myself. I do think it happened for a reason, and I plan i taking the lesson to heart.
 
motivated I have to finish painting the second coat of my bathroom today. Then I am going to check out some decorating stores for some accessories to match my color scheme. =D=D
 
i've been eating better and exercising more for the past week and i feel fantastic i think i just might keep it up this time too! :)

Vaya said:
Proud of the mix I made at 3 a.m. this morning!
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do you have your mixes posted online somewhere? i'd love to give them a listen. :)
 
spork said:
do you have your mixes posted online somewhere? i'd love to give them a listen. :)
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I posted (for the first time ever) in Electronic Music Discussion both a static download link and a link to this mix streaming on SoundCloud. So, by all means, check it out if you would like - I love feedback :)

Mai Apollo Dub

Enjoy!

~ Vaya
 
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