timetohunt
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My background is 3 years of Opiate use (medium heavy, up to 140mg opana), and another 2 added years of use where subutex was the main opioid. The whole 5 or 6 year episode started with back pain, and was jacked up a notch by a terrible crushed leg
where plates and screws were installed. The lure though was the energy, superhuman productivity and anxiety relief I got.
I used orally for about a year or so, then snorted the rest of the way.
I've generally been off opiates since the end of 2011, last year. YES !!
I did have 3 short stints of a few days (2-4 days) where I used anywhere from about 15mg of opana to 40mg of oxy. Note that 40mg of oxy was the high mark and it generally was 15 or 20mg most days. I did have w/d on two of those occasions, short and not intense (except for anxiety), but still not fun. My motivation to quit was because I could not control intake, the expense, and having acquired myoclonus (twitching), and nausea (the nausea occurred not as w/d but as a side effect). Not to mention my w/ds can border on the suicidal. The nausea and myoclonus are gone now as they were clearly spawned from long term use.
I guess you could say I'm chipping. I plan on stopping that too but had some serious personal situations that required the
focus, strength and back pain relief that opiates give me. There is clearly still some work to do when it comes to controlling my use and living without. The good thing is that I simply don't have any access to quantities now, its just not there thankfully.
Anyway my topic is this - Gauging how one feels in the morning after a day of chipping. Even though I'm not entirely
physically dependent, if my body is stiff and achy, my brain is a bit cloudy, and can sense anxiety - then I know there
will be w/d symptoms. These could last 4 days, with another 2 days of just being 'flat' and irritable. A genuinely bad time.
If I start off the day with none of what I have described except maybe a bit of anxiety, I'll be OK. Not great, but not in w/d.
I still usually am flat for a day or so, which I also hate. I was just wondering if anyone else out there can gauge their personal
level of impending hell by the "wake-up"?
where plates and screws were installed. The lure though was the energy, superhuman productivity and anxiety relief I got.
I used orally for about a year or so, then snorted the rest of the way.
I've generally been off opiates since the end of 2011, last year. YES !!
I did have 3 short stints of a few days (2-4 days) where I used anywhere from about 15mg of opana to 40mg of oxy. Note that 40mg of oxy was the high mark and it generally was 15 or 20mg most days. I did have w/d on two of those occasions, short and not intense (except for anxiety), but still not fun. My motivation to quit was because I could not control intake, the expense, and having acquired myoclonus (twitching), and nausea (the nausea occurred not as w/d but as a side effect). Not to mention my w/ds can border on the suicidal. The nausea and myoclonus are gone now as they were clearly spawned from long term use.
I guess you could say I'm chipping. I plan on stopping that too but had some serious personal situations that required the
focus, strength and back pain relief that opiates give me. There is clearly still some work to do when it comes to controlling my use and living without. The good thing is that I simply don't have any access to quantities now, its just not there thankfully.
Anyway my topic is this - Gauging how one feels in the morning after a day of chipping. Even though I'm not entirely
physically dependent, if my body is stiff and achy, my brain is a bit cloudy, and can sense anxiety - then I know there
will be w/d symptoms. These could last 4 days, with another 2 days of just being 'flat' and irritable. A genuinely bad time.
If I start off the day with none of what I have described except maybe a bit of anxiety, I'll be OK. Not great, but not in w/d.
I still usually am flat for a day or so, which I also hate. I was just wondering if anyone else out there can gauge their personal
level of impending hell by the "wake-up"?
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