TDS Photo Thread Vs. Snow Day!

[footscrazy]

Gorgeous photo n3o, and that liquid eyeliner looks perfect

 

[motherofearth]

stardust, I owed you more hype than I delivered. Let me be the mother my username implies, and dotingly state I love the support/flattery from you and n3o equally. No favorites w/ you two. Bad enough when my mindset is in the reeds and ruts, but worse is when I am physically, in body, in a place waiting to waste my money to invite more self-inflicted, controllable torture in my life. I just poured my heart out with a stream of "thank you's" all over what I remember to be the TDS thread: How are you in one word vs. the pink flying elephants, probably somewhat inappropriately placed, I exulted the nascent modifications I can sense in my long-gloomy and venomous attitude. I've never considered myself bad, just so skeptical of everyone and everything's intentions it has left me the archetypical jaded young adult. I hate saying I play into a caricature, but it feels somewhat accurate. But I'm running the risk of rambling, so I'll indulge my whining a little longer and say one more thing in response to support, in TDS, and in general. I consider myself fairly self-aware, and I do make a conscious effort to not take the wondrous things in my life for granted. Yet, I accept this is a highly ubiquitous problem for not just addicts, or people suffering mental health issues, or the myriad afflictions (I hope that is an okay word) appearing throughout the Dark Side, but to varying extents, it happens to everyone. That being said, notwithstanding my efforts to acknowledge and repay the dedication people in my life lovingly show me, I recently for the first time considered the fearful possibility I am becoming the junkie who sucks in peoples' love, generosity, goodwill, and so on like a black hole. Depleting people and leaving them feeling ever the more dubious toward life than before they helped me. I'm not saying that is my perception of myself, but something I dread becoming. I try to always realistically account for the propensity in all people, but mostly myself to do almost anything. More specifically, I never pridefully and apathetically regard myself as incapable of cruelty, or someone out of the reach of mob mentality. To sum this up, I think it crucial to always account for the essential fortunes in life, people being at the center as drivers and engines of growth, progress, redemption, and reward. I attempt to healthily leverage this celebration of the blessings or achievements with reflection free of condemnation in aims of keeping myself and those I love safe from pernicious elements within humanity likely to engender cruelty and atrocity.

Sorry to ramble on the photo thread. If this is inappropriate I don't mind it being relocated. stardust's words just have me thinking of some of the essential features, views, values etc. which comprise me. All that stuff I just typed, while helpful in a self-defining know-where-I-stand kinda way, comes across as more austere than I normally am. I'm often a someone utilizing humor, and I love light-hearted discussion a much as profound ones, or ranting half-attempting to masquerade as profundity, not sure what I did . My excuse is I haven't been able to get to bed tonight after being out all night, indulging some vices, and coming home w/ a head full of ideas hindering sleep.

Thanks for indulging my rant, and feel free to humor me, disagree, critique, or adulate my little early morning blurb here. I swear I may be embarrassed after I read this when I wake (but I'll never admit it), so if you disagree w/ anything please hit me as honest as you can muster. I love to debate more than just about anything, especially when in over my head, like, on subjects I know little or nothing about (but only with people good-natured enough to understand when I lose my temper. Alright, I'm already embarrassed in what I now confess to be a directionless ramble on the photo thread. Goodnight, and I didn't mean to annoy you, anyone and everyone

EDIT: Don't remember typing this, but the last few days have been, um, I'lll just say episodic in a bad way. I don't understand most of what I was trying to say here. I won't delete it as a lesson not to do things I don't remember or understand.

 

[badfish45]

Hey-

I hope you're doing alright. Well...it doesn't sound like you are. Me and your sister miss you, of course you know her much better than me. I wish I could have known the real you for a lot longer than I did and I was sad to see heroin take over your whole life. I hope you know that we love you and just want the old you back. Your sister misses her best friend in the world and the only person she had. I just met her and started talking to her last night, and well... we're both really scared for you. I hope you haven't forgotten that we care about you, and I hope to see the real you again someday. I will always forgive you for anything you've done, but I will never forgive heroin from what it did to you and what it took away from everyone who loved you.

*taken our for privacy reasons.*

 

[tripnotyzm]

^^^ x1000

 

[Dave]

That's her? Oh badfish, I'm so sorry.

I hope that she comes around some day. Keep trying to support her-- she'll need a friend. I shudder when I think what may be in store for her.

 

[badfish45]

The only times she ever really texts me anymore is to sell me drugs

 

[endlessnameless]

Before I discovered the finer fruits in life...

<snip> ---Triggering ---

Badfish45

And when they discovered me...

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want...

 

[DexterMeth]

^ es Me Thumb Piano - with this one inparticular you can create a WAHWAH effect.
the keys can be tuned in many different ways, it is unique like that, there are hundreds of ways they can be tunned.
they have been popular through out history to play while walking and traveling. In Africa they would be played to call
spirits and ancestors.



+ a mini-shaker, very small but very loud ! I can make a million sounds with this thing!

Oh cool, an added way way effect.. How does that work?
I have one made out of half a coconut shell. I love it.

 

[stardust.hero]

... Ponders a Kalimba club

Kalimba club would be awesome.

We gave ours to our roommate when we moved out and she lost it when she was evicted from her appt. We also have that mini finger harp and a few other little finger toys but the Kalimba was the most fun. Our appt at that place was so pathetic we had no tv or cable and no furniture. I can't tell you how many evenings we spent sitting on the floor with someone playing it. When one person would put it down another would pick it up and we'd talk and try and make cool sounds. Such good memories. Kalimbas are awesome. I'd says they're almost a staple to put on a living room table for get togethers.

 

[n3ophy7e]

Gorgeous photo n3o, and that liquid eyeliner looks perfect

Thank you lovely!


endlessnameless I like your style

 

[panic in paradise]

Dex
Im still twearking it but seems, rotating in half a half circle facing you, at slightly different momentums for different keys that them it will, I think maybe besides the way the body is constructed that maybe one of the two bridges is lower smaller then the other, adding off set to then add some wah...

Kalimba club would be awesome.

We gave ours to our roommate when we moved out and she lost it when she was evicted from her appt. We also have that mini finger harp and a few other little finger toys but the Kalimba was the most fun. Our appt at that place was so pathetic we had no tv or cable and no furniture. I can't tell you how many evenings we spent sitting on the floor with someone playing it. When one person would put it down another would pick it up and we'd talk and try and make cool sounds. Such good memories. Kalimbas are awesome. I'd says they're almost a staple to put on a living room table for get togethers.

... Wow, total mental image yeah its little things like that ~ a Golden Apple .
lol @ kalimba club, guess it just kind of happens naturally with those, my cat loves it,
I can not say this for the shacker....:-x

 

[panic in paradise]

endlessnameless, are you wearing a rosary in those bottom few ?


I do that.......sometimes.

 

[stardust.hero]

Oh cool, an added way way effect.. How does that work?
I have one made out of half a coconut shell. I love it.

Mine had a hole in the center top below the metal keys and when you struck a particular note (there were only like 3 or 4 keys that it would work with) you could use your thumb and sway it in and out of the hole and it would make the note change pitch it kind of sounded like wah wah wah, (get it?). So cool.

... Wow, total mental image yeah its little things like that ~ a Golden Apple .

And the mental image of a bunch of minimalists chilling on the floor enjoying some simplistic sounds of the kalimba is way cooler than how it actually went down. haha Thank god we had the kalimba to keep the awkward silence at bay . But at least when I tell the story to my kids I'll make it sound super cool and chill like that.

 

[panic in paradise]

^ haaha I got it to help me transcend and it did it again -
Mine doesnt have a hole as you described...hm

Dex yeah I gotta get a coconut shell one, my shaker is partly coconut.

~
The Bansuri is another story.....
kundalini chachacha

 

[stardust.hero]

^ haaha I got it to help me transcend and it did it again -
Mine doesnt have a hole as you described...hm

I was thinking the hole on the inner side was the thing that made the pitch change? If you don't know you should try it. Try striking each note and moving you finger in and out of the hole (there's no other way to describe it!) to see if you get the sound.

 

[VanWeyden]

That was last summer:

 

[VanWeyden]

And a picture of my neighbourhood:

 

[stardust.hero]

VanWeyden, great pic! You live by the ocean, or was it a day trip? I used to live by the ocean and I miss it dearly every day.

The picture of your town is great also. So this is what Germany looks like, huh? You should post more I would love to get a feel for your town. I love how different every place is. I also love how similar in little ways they all are to each other also. Thank you for sharing!

 

[1sweetpeach]

 

[VanWeyden]

VanWeyden, great pic! You live by the ocean, or was it a day trip? I used to live by the ocean and I miss it dearly every day.

The picture of your town is great also. So this is what Germany looks like, huh? You should post more I would love to get a feel for your town. I love how different every place is. I also love how similar in little ways they all are to each other also. Thank you for sharing!

Unfortunately, I would have to flood the Netherlands to live by the Ocean. That would be great but a tiny little bit of genocide, too. Maybe it's worth it. ;-) No, it's from a holiday in Greece last year.
Hopefully I find the time to walk a bit around and take some pics here. I'll post them immediatly then. Also check out the "(Photography) Why you love the place you live" thread in SO. I didn't take those photos but they reveal some of the most beautiful spots here.