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@n3o--I hate that sniper shot that comes out of nowhere! Breathe and try to feel what it is and where it is coming from. Awwww:( (((((<3)))))

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N3o!!! I hate that! I hope by the time you read this you are feeling better!!! So much loves to you, you know it, always<3<3<3<3

Me I am disappointed in myself. I drank again last night, woke up late this morning (like a bum) and now have typical anxious no motivation blahs today.
 
herbavore said:
@n3o--I hate that sniper shot that comes out of nowhere! Breathe and try to feel what it is and where it is coming from. Awwww:( (((((<3)))))
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stardust.hero said:
N3o!!! I hate that! I hope by the time you read this you are feeling better!!! So much loves to you, you know it, always<3<3<3<3

Me I am disappointed in myself. I drank again last night, woke up late this morning (like a bum) and now have typical anxious no motivation blahs today.
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Thank you so much beautiful ladies <3
herby, yes it totally came out of NOWHERE!! So weird. I am feeling much better this morning. Did not sleep well at all though.

stardust.hero do you know why you drank? Are you going to try to not drink today? You can do it hun, do something to distract yourself so you don't feel the need to drink. You'll feel so much better in the morning! <3


I am still feeling pretty anxious this morning, but nowhere near as bad as last night.

One question:
How is it possible to miss someone so much, when you've never even met? *sigh*
 
Indecisive as well... good call, Herby. The curveball I've been thrown isn't a bad one by any means. I was planning *another* enormous adjustment and only had the reasonable second-thoughts (i.e., how will I afford this, what will my new life be like, etc.). My house is undergoing a change in ownership, so I put feelers out for a new one. I talked with one of my classmates, he said "well I have a house and here's the cost, details, etc." Problem solved, right? Nope. We happen to think of each other as cute. I guess this is back to the drawing board (or an enormous risk) if I want to date him. It is hard to find housing this awesome at this price in my chosen neighborhood. I can even adopt my dream rescue Husky! I told him to take it slowly, that I'd have to decide on the house first. He's cool with that. We had dinner yesterday and talked more specifics.

n3o - my first panic attack (I was 19) came out of nowhere, too. I was cooking dinner after a relatively calm day at school and work, in a pretty good mood. I had to ask my roommate to watch the pan while I went to lay down on the couch. It went as easily as it came - felt like forever. I know I became more anxious more recently when I quit all alcohol except the occasional pint. Typical rebound anxiety. Deep breaths and rest, healthy eating, enough water... I'd recommend that, and I hope you feel better soon.

How is it possible to miss someone you've never met? Being BLers, we often have to deal with this... we miss our friends even if we cannot hug them at present. Whether or not this someone is a BLer, real connections are made in unexpected ways. <3
 
Mariposa said:
n3o - my first panic attack (I was 19) came out of nowhere, too. I was cooking dinner after a relatively calm day at school and work, in a pretty good mood. I had to ask my roommate to watch the pan while I went to lay down on the couch. It went as easily as it came - felt like forever. I know I became more anxious more recently when I quit all alcohol except the occasional pint. Typical rebound anxiety. Deep breaths and rest, healthy eating, enough water... I'd recommend that, and I hope you feel better soon.

How is it possible to miss someone you've never met? Being BLers, we often have to deal with this... we miss our friends even if we cannot hug them at present. Whether or not this someone is a BLer, real connections are made in unexpected ways. <3
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Thank you so much hun, and yes, you are absolutely right.
I hope everything works out well with your new housemate <3
 
n3ophy7e said:
stardust.hero do you know why you drank? Are you going to try to not drink today? You can do it hun, do something to distract yourself so you don't feel the need to drink. You'll feel so much better in the morning! <3
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I would say I drink just because I am addicted. I don't particularly like the taste or the feeling when I reach the point I had been drinking all night to achieve. It is a god awful drug. I give in just because it is something to do. I am going to try my best to not drink tonight. I absolutely cannot fall into that trap I was in once with it. Thanks for the <3.

I also know exactly what you mean about missing someone you haven't ever met in person. It makes no sense. I think we just create a superior persona of the person we know long distance and admire them as greatness because you haven't met them or seen them as a real person. Who knows :P I don't get it either.

<3<3<3
 
stardust.hero said:
I would say I drink just because I am addicted. I don't particularly like the taste or the feeling when I reach the point I had been drinking all night to achieve. It is a god awful drug. I give in just because it is something to do. I am going to try my best to not drink tonight. I absolutely cannot fall into that trap I was in once with it. Thanks for the <3.
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Oh my god I can relate to this SO MUCH hun. Be strong tonight, remember how good you'll feel in the morning tomorrow when you're sober <3


I am feeling loved :)
 
unwell
...but there is always a solution. Positive, open-minded action (based on acceptance) is around the corner.
 
^<3

i'm feeling proud of myself. i managed to dissect an eye and a brain yesterday and take a major exam today and i got through it all with no major freak outs. i don't know if i could have done that a few years ago or even a year ago. i'm progressing and it feels good. :)
 
hey that is great, Spork! :)

and n3o---Yay!!!<3

OD--the most amazing thing about you is that you always know that what it takes to get where you want to be. You are patient--that's a virtue!<3

stardust--don't be hard on yourself. You saw where you don't want to go.<3<3<3
 
hehe - There is so much one loves they can not live with -

Yet with the acceptance of more -

The more blessings one lives amongst,
Is with in harmony.

~
lol

I luvs yuh too, where ever you are..!
 
sarcophagus.heels said:
Worried...

I just told my mother that I want to take the next trimester off to focus on dealing with my mental health issues. She is not at all sold on the idea, and was trying to convince me to go to school this spring and then to come home for the summer, which would be awful. I haven't told her that my pdoc recommended an out-patient program...if it's not working out, I guess I'll let her know. I am absolutely not telling her about my hospitalization and my later shoplifting arrest, because she'd never let me leave the house.

Really, I don't know why I'm making a huge deal of it - my parents contribute nothing to my education, I'm basically financially independent. But if I can't find a job soon, I will have to ask them to cosign a loan for me...Also, talking to them about the whole thing is just painful because it makes it amazingly clear that my parents don't know me at all.
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Just to warn you I had something really bad happen the quarter before last at school and because classes go in sequence it put me a whole year behind.... But on the other hand if you can't handle it right now don't do it because you aren't going to get anything out of it.... I am not saying you are depressed but if you were people telling you to get motivated doesn't make you motivated.... but really think it through and talk to adviser first
 
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