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How are you in one word? v. flying purple elephants

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Confused

I've received a job offer a long way from 'home' and it's almost too good to be true. I'm trying to put down roots somewhere, and then I get what might be the experience I need practically handed to me. I have 9 years of experience in my field - this will be something WAY different. I don't know if my anxiety will prevent me from making this happen. Time to get busy with what we call 'feasibility testing'.

Alaska might be my adopted home. My family and friends will think I have been smoking crack for doing this on my own. So, yes, confused. The snowy frontier calls me, but so do my two present homes. WTF! I will work it out.

My continued best to all who are struggling.
 
^ Yeah. Weekday use is a good thing to nip in the bud, if you can.

ATM: Dizzy. Picked my workout up a bit, and have been reminded once again how far I've let myself slide.
 
Red I hope you're in a better headspace soon. Lots of love and good vibes comin' your way man <3


I am feeling.....hmmm...I can't think of a good word to describe how I'm feeling...
Good, though
Maybe I'll just leave it at that :)
 
Worried...

I just told my mother that I want to take the next trimester off to focus on dealing with my mental health issues. She is not at all sold on the idea, and was trying to convince me to go to school this spring and then to come home for the summer, which would be awful. I haven't told her that my pdoc recommended an out-patient program...if it's not working out, I guess I'll let her know. I am absolutely not telling her about my hospitalization and my later shoplifting arrest, because she'd never let me leave the house.

Really, I don't know why I'm making a huge deal of it - my parents contribute nothing to my education, I'm basically financially independent. But if I can't find a job soon, I will have to ask them to cosign a loan for me...Also, talking to them about the whole thing is just painful because it makes it amazingly clear that my parents don't know me at all.
 
Strained...

Inuyasha(my beloved feline friend) disappeared Feb. 7th, today I cleaned my room and finally made myself pick up his food and water bowl from the spot they had been sitting since the last time I fed him. My cat and I were closer than some human friends are, and i miss him everyday.

It's funny, saying goodbye to my cat almost makes the break-up with my ex fiance' seem easy.
 
sarcophagus.heels said:
Worried...

I just told my mother that I want to take the next trimester off to focus on dealing with my mental health issues. She is not at all sold on the idea, and was trying to convince me to go to school this spring and then to come home for the summer, which would be awful. I haven't told her that my pdoc recommended an out-patient program...if it's not working out, I guess I'll let her know. I am absolutely not telling her about my hospitalization and my later shoplifting arrest, because she'd never let me leave the house.

Really, I don't know why I'm making a huge deal of it - my parents contribute nothing to my education, I'm basically financially independent. But if I can't find a job soon, I will have to ask them to cosign a loan for me...Also, talking to them about the whole thing is just painful because it makes it amazingly clear that my parents don't know me at all.
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I can totally relate to that sarcophagus <3 My parents don't really know me at all either. For me it was a sad and painful realisation to come to as well, but over time I have come to appreciate that it means that I've paved my own way independently of them.
At times like this hun, you really need to make the decision that is right for you, even if it means causing your parents a bit of concern. Ultimately, they will love you and support you with whatever you choose to do, especially if it means you're getting help that you need. What do you think the main thing is to focus on right now, getting a job? Or explaining the situation further to your mum?


nekointheclouds said:
Inuyasha(my beloved feline friend) disappeared Feb. 7th, today I cleaned my room and finally made myself pick up his food and water bowl from the spot they had been sitting since the last time I fed him. My cat and I were closer than some human friends are, and i miss him everyday.
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Oh neko <3 I really feel for you hun. My beautiful kitty died back in November and I still miss him every day too. It hurts :(
 
neko - <3 A friend of mine had his cat go missing for almost 2 months recently. He came back skinnier for sure, but he came back.

Me: confused. Just as I had almost made the decision to move very far out of state, an opportunity came here that I don't think I can pass up. I will see how the next couple days go before I finalize anything. There are a few catches/quirks.
 
@neko--I am so sorry. I actually check to see if you have posted any news of him. It is so terrible to have to give up. I know how closely you can bond with cats (and dogs!) and their loss is a huge hole to be faced every day. <3

indecisiveI hate this state...a bit like yours, Mariposa?
 
really really mixed-up inside :\
confusingness and stuff


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Oh god. Incredibly anxious. This has just come out of nowhere :(
 
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