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How are you in one word? v. 2012

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^^ That really sucks man, I hope you're feeling better soon <3


I am in a terrible mood today. Work absolutely SUCKS and I fucking hate it!! :! I seriously want to quit today, like, right now.
To boot, I stepped on a rusty nail in my backyard last night. So fucking random. It was this really old outdated tack-like nail, I've never seen anything like it before. I have no idea where it came from or how on earth I managed to step right on it. Off to the doctor right now to get a tetanus shot. Hoorayyyyy :|
In summary, I am feeling angry :X
 
@ n3o- Probably redundant, but aside from the tetanus shot, make sure to keep the injury clean, punctures can get all sorts of nasty infections. I hope tomorrow is a brighter and better day for you.

Me, I decided to try and make seeing my ex into a good thing. I'm happy to know she is alive an healthy and happy, she has bipolar and substance use issues, so I sometimes wondered about her. But seeing her having fun coming back from a club and sharing a brief few words wither her is, in that respect, a positive thing.

rangrz is now full delicious gyro is delicious.
 
DexterMeth said:
Stay in school to get the job you actually want. What are you hating so much about your current job btw?
Wear shoes outside and clean up your yard?
Don't drink.
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Thanks for your relentless support mate <3
My current job...? I'm just over it, I guess. I've been here for 5 years, it's no longer stimulating my brain, it's no longer piquing my interests whatsoever. Not to mention that I have too much on my plate in my role at work and it's always too hectic in the office (and I'm shit at delegating jobs or asking for help ;))
Shoes? Nahhh, I'm too much of a hippie for shoes =D I don't even wear shoes to the supermarket half the time!


rangrz said:
@ n3o- Probably redundant, but aside from the tetanus shot, make sure to keep the injury clean, punctures can get all sorts of nasty infections. I hope tomorrow is a brighter and better day for you.
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Thank you rangrz <3 I am the queen of first aid so I got it all disinfected and bandaged up before I even knew what'd hit me ;)


tripnotyzm said:
yikes! so that's why you got needled up.
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Yep! Such a bizarre thing to happen hey. The chances of it occurring are probably like 1,000,000 to 1 8o


Right now I am feeling much more calm than before, but still not in the best of moods :(

Hope everyone had a good weekend <3
 
n3ophy7e said:
Thanks for your relentless support mate <3
My current job...? I'm just over it, I guess. I've been here for 5 years, it's no longer stimulating my brain, it's no longer piquing my interests whatsoever. Not to mention that I have too much on my plate in my role at work and it's always too hectic in the office (and I'm shit at delegating jobs or asking for help ;))
Shoes? Nahhh, I'm too much of a hippie for shoes =D I don't even wear shoes to the supermarket half the time!
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It's no longer stimulating your brain because you're evolving. You're smart and strong, yet humble. Don't let it go to waste now. :\
About the shoes... That's because you're a women (well :D). I go barefoot all the time, but then when I get to the restroom... Um ya. Maybe that's just an American thing? lol

You really make me smile, you know that?
Have a good one. <3

-You're welcome btw. I enjoy this.
 
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@dex, lol at barefoot in the washroom. Dear God, the washroom at work and the ones downtown have 2 inch deep urine puddles... I'll keep my boots on!

I am amused at the mental image of a barefoot hippy stepping in a mixture of urine, vomit and toilet water cause he had to use the bathroom that bad.
 
Make love, not gigantic piles of crap on the floor! PLURRRRRRRRRRR <3 :|

I'm usually the one to create all three of those things on the ground in there, so no love lost.

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Fine I guess

Keep thinking about railing a bunch of "FAs" but nah.. I'm starting to enjoy cognitive stability and lack of impairment. I can get away with more this way. With great power comes great responsibility..blah blah blah.. I'm done here.
 
Ok, little anxious

My friend got arrested for possession, twice, in ten days and he was short with coming up with money for the lawyer. So now I'm extremely broke. I'm also tired from not sleeping well and I got this paper to write; procrastinating


Least the opiate WDs are over.
 
have you thought about going on methadone or suboxone? You should really quit using dope man. I'm glad I didn't even look back my last run. Didn't go on bupe or anything, but if you've never used either for extended time, after going through that crap, I strongly suggest it.

You will be fine, just lay low and stop wasting away your money. You gotta learn to let go of certain friendships, and know when to say no.
 
I haven't taken anything in a week, and the last thing was sub. I haven't had any H in 12 days I've been on suboxone before.
 
worried month relativly free of deep depression but these pricks want me on some kind of antidepressant regardless and this time its zoloft. After a few weeks of tossing it up weather or not to, Ive started on it against my better judgment and already questioning weather i done the right thing:?
 
Stressed, I've got a lot of exams coming up, and I'm pretty far behind in math, OK in physics and barely there in chem.
And this weekend there's a party where my ex will be at, my friend broke up with his ex and is wasting so much money on her, and is suicidal throwing himself infront of cars.
And I've been trying to stay clean of every drug for 2 weeks, remembering that I have a life in the making that I must focus on.

And this stress is probably nothing compared to what's ahead in my life.

I honeslty just can't really see myself in the future, I'm just not there...
I'm not sure, I just mowed my mum's lawn for $20 just for drug money for this party.
At least drugs are still sort of relatively "cool", I'm not interested in the coolness, more for the experience, I don't know what I'm talking about.
I'll be using drugs to enhance my sociability this weekend, and I'll be mixing some uppers and downers + weed, and I know I'll be making some very unsafe decisions.
 
Manic

I have slept seven out of the last eighty-six hours. I do not know what I am going to do for work in two hours. I've been haggard this whole time, and my co-workers suspect that I'm using drugs. I know I've got nothing to worry about, but it jus *sucks*, walking around with the eyes of a raccoon and the vocal tone of a TBI patient... flat and expressionless... my eyes are usually so bright and telling. But for a week now, they have been vacant; bodies of clear water, now drained and lifeless.

Melatonin, temazepam, alprazolam, clonazepam, triazolam and trazadone have not put me to sleep this whole time. so in addition to being terribly, terribly deprived of energy, verve and motivation, I'm constantly in this zombified haze. It feels like I'm addicted to opiates or MXE again, which is an awful feeling for me :(

/pity party
thanks for letting me vent...

~ vaya
 
DexterMeth said:
I'm starting to enjoy cognitive stability and lack of impairment.
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Cognitive ability ftw!!!

Vaya-- I can identity with lack of sleep and the worry of people thinking you are on drugs. So sorry you are having a rough patch like this. I hope today at work goes easy on you. <3<3<3<3

Today I am quite upset I have work today after spending my only day off for the week sick and dying in bed. :-(
 
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Shithouse fucking anti deps, 2 hrs of sleep, some crazy shit goin on up there night of horror...Feels like im coming off a massive stim binge. Fuck you zoloft, you are the devil:X
 
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