I didn't say I don't take Benzos just my doctor or any other wouldn't give them to me

, TBH in the UK you'd be luck to get 6Mgs a day for anxiety for a couple of weeks even with absolutely no history of addictive behavior and existing long term users are being put in an increasingly difficult position in many cases.
I made a decision a couple of years back when I was in a bad way to fully spill the beans on my drug history as I knew it was relevant to my mental health issues, I've continued, where necessary to do the same with any doctors and councellors where I have felt it was of benefit. For me getting better is more important than potential consequences of this being on my medical records and I would encourage others to do the same as they saw fit.
If you want drugs for recreational use then go buy them, its not difficult