enigmaticfreak
Ex-Bluelighter
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- Oct 20, 2011
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I am going to use Psyclobin Mushrooms next weekend. I am trying to plan for a very intense trip b/c I am basically battling depression and have been for a while, I am on SSRis, I realize for most of these things it will diminish effects. I did read that with mushrooms though that you can break through. I really want to do DMT but I have to get off the Antis first, and the antidpressants are bullshit anyway. I do think Luvox has worked wonders for my OCD< but I need to get off of some of them, and try some different methods. Maybe a mood stabilizer, the more I read about SSRIs the more I just get sick of even taking them. I am either really depressed or just numb all the time. I've abused the E and lots of other stuff for the last 10 years, but never abused the psychadelics, I have done Mesc and loved that! Just need a breakthrough, I am alone....to be honest. My only contact is with a very self destructive manic idiot who I shouldn't hang with. I want this trip to be pure and all that is righteous with doing this type of thing. Thinking maybe I should go to a local park we have here that is in the forest, and just walk the trails and rest, take it in, or something like that. I realize that most people would advise me to stay on the medication and stop talking nonsense, but I'm going to do what I know I have to do. I would rather abandon all the meds and go crazy and even possibly die than to keep living in this dreadful cycle of nothingness. My life consists of watching netflix all day, going to weekly movies, reading books, the great stuff like Castaneda, which actually is a good thing. My point for telling you this is that I need to get out and reach out and find someone to love, and I mean love as in connect, not necessarily a girlfriend, as I am probably not ready for anything remotely like that. If you have any tips or suggestions I would appreciate it. I realize this isn't a psychoanalysis website where I can just utilize everyone as if they're a therapist.I just need help, and my issues are hard for me to express to anyone, much less my shrink who is just a money hungry corporate brainwashed Doctor who writes out scripts like he's going out of business. Thanks and much love everyone.
