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Dilated Eyez

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Ecstasy pretty much was the best and worst thing about the last three years!

When ecstasy is readily available it's hard to say no.

I have been clean for 4 months and it's the best feeling knowing my seratonin is replenishing!

Sitting back enjoying a spliff of some fine herb and watching some Netflix.

Can't wait until Spring Break/SPI. They have an amazing line-up this year & this bag of Dragonfly's is calling my name.

Anyways, I'm new here so thought i'd introduce myself.

-Dilated
 
I have probably eaten a few hundred pills over the last three years. The rave scene snuck up on me and ecstasy helped me ween (sp) off another drug.

This is the longest break I have taken but it hasn't been hard. I went through some rough patches and would eat them like candy. Depression is no fun to deal with and my brain felt like it needed a break.

Also, everytime I smoke hydro now I get really bad anxiety. I'm not sure if it's due to the pressed tabs and other additives in it or just my general overdoing of all drugs (coke/dxm) mostly. Lol man was highschool crazy. Anyways anxiety sucks.

Hope everyones having a good week. Can't wait for the weekend.

Cheers mates
 
I seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Congratz on your 3 months break so far. Make it to 6 months if you can.

Im going to reccomend a special diet for you to help you with your depression and anxiety. It is as follows:


Broccoli (anxiety)
walnuts (anxiety) (Serotonin Increasing)
Bananas (Serotonin Increasing)
Tuna (Serotonin Increasing)
Small Small Small amounts of dark chocolate (Serotonin Increasing)
Cheese (Serotonin Increasing)
Turkey (Serotonin Increasing)
Chicken (Serotonin Increasing)
Milk (Serotonin Increasing)

Get a decent amount of sunlight every day if you can.
Get up at a fairly early time as well.

Good luck :)
 
I greatly appreciate the help and support. Thank you.

This site is full of all the right people to talk too, take care.
 
hell ya people are smart as fuck on here and happy to spread the knowledge to those in need -- im gonna copy that diet and try to start eating more of those :) im a picky eater but i can have more milk bananas and maybe some walnuts but lol those dont sound to appealing :)
 
I had a good appetite Before i became a stoner at 20,
Now im like flipping pacman! sometimes it takes me 10 minutes in the kitchen to actually decide on a snack
 
i've never felt the "addictive" aspect of MDMA, it's strange because (at least in my experiences) the people I've known that were "e-tards" or whatever weren't rolling every single day like i take opiates...

it's almost like they were equally addicted to the "scene" around raving and nightclubs and house (lol) and whatnot. for me the next morning is always a rough one after rolling really hard and I usually say "never again"... always a lie though :P
 
lol never again was a drinking thing for me - stopped drinking liquor several years ago best thing for me!!
 
Oh, there have been plenty of mornings saying "This will be the last time". I knew I was lying to myself but made a mature choice to stop. One time I took some pink pumas (meth bombers though) and didn't sleep for 3 days, cut all my hair off and would puke when I went into the sun. All in all it wasn't the MDMA that has messed me up it was shit pills. I have a batch of dragonflys that everyone seems to love. Supposibly some of the best tabs circulating this year.

What were some of yall's favorite tabs in 2011?
 
Dilated Eyez said:
Oh, there have been plenty of mornings saying "This will be the last time". I knew I was lying to myself but made a mature choice to stop. One time I took some pink pumas (meth bombers though) and didn't sleep for 3 days, cut all my hair off and would puke when I went into the sun. All in all it wasn't the MDMA that has messed me up it was shit pills. I have a batch of dragonflys that everyone seems to love. Supposibly some of the best tabs circulating this year.

What were some of yall's favorite tabs in 2011?
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When you aren't looking forward to the next time that's a good indicator to at least slow it down, in my opinion. There's those months that just have days so close to each other just dying for a dose and you can't say no for the sake of the experience, but in order to keep the experiences happening you gotta regulate. Do some psychs instead, or something!

I wouldn't say it was only the shit pills messing you up. When you take a nice, clean roll the feeling is very strong but rather short-lived. This leads to re-dosing, sometimes more than once in a night even thought you know it won't lead to anything amazing. You end up consuming a lot more than you thought you would.

The pills loaded with tweak so fuck your shit up, though. Sometimes the haze can persist into 2 days with those bad boys... which is all the more reason to make harm reduction top priority.

The best shit I had last year (fuck last year btw) was old green playstations and pink playboys from a dudes private stash of savers. The molly I picked up in cali was fire too.
 
Hills I couldn't agree with you more about most of the things you said. It seems like you know your shit and that's cool.

I would kill for the tabs your listing as ours are pretty much always the same and if there's something different I know about it.

Sorry to hear your 2011 sucked. Mine did too, I spent 3/4 of it with a worthless joke of a ex-girlfriend. I met a great girl and had some amazing times also. Cheers to having a good 2012 mate.

I also got a pretty hefty bag of some decent Molly. Man, I was just dipping my finger in that shit lol. I walked like 6 miles to my friends house (I have a car), with the biggest grin on my face. Gotta love that shit!
 
OpanRanger30 said:
i've never felt the "addictive" aspect of MDMA, it's strange because (at least in my experiences) the people I've known that were "e-tards" or whatever weren't rolling every single day like i take opiates...

it's almost like they were equally addicted to the "scene" around raving and nightclubs and house (lol) and whatnot. for me the next morning is always a rough one after rolling really hard and I usually say "never again"... always a lie though :P
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MDMA addiction works differently than opiate addiction. Its the mental addiction of doing it once a week or around that...which isn't good for anyone....that feeling that you need mdma to enjoy a show or go out dancing. Even at once a week, it seems it does similar damage as doing daily opiates, just in a slightly different way. You still get dragged down, depressed, anxious, etc.....and its still hard to stop if available.

Good for you for taking a break, dialated! I feel like I was addicted to MDMA at one point for a couple years. I only did it once every 2 weeks on average and only .1-.3 a session and waiting 2 weeks was not enough time for my brain to heal. Sometimes I did it 2 nights in a row. I felt like i was in a fog. In fact I think it lead me to an opiate addiction, dealing with the anxiety during the week.

Quit doing all that and now I just roll off one or 2 every couple of months at the most. Started exercising and quit alcohol on weekdays and binge drinking. That helped. I still cut loose once in awhile but I feel MUCH better doing it than I used to when i was "mentally addicted" to mdma.

Thanks for letting me kind of hijack your thread, I am just in tune with your space right now since its been awhile for me too and I am so ready to have one night of crazy fun soon!
 
No worries my friend I can relate to the binge and weekday drinking. I have had a Four Loko everyday for the last 8 months or so.

And cigarettes, don't get me started. All in all there's a lot more I could do to better myself and I'm a smart guy I'd like to think.

You only live once might aswell do things the way i'd like too (with many exceptions)!

Glad to hear your doing alright and that I'm not the only one that has experienced "Suicide Tuesdays" lol.
 
the stone ipas at costco @ 24 packs for 27-28usd i just cant stop drinking during the week :) maybe when i start using my gym membership i pay for monthly again ill stop but living in vegas its like thats what people do lol
 
I read a couple negative things about 2011 in this thread so I'll just add this:

FUCK 2011

It's 2012 though! Things are already getting better in my neck of the woods. Good luck everyone with keeping the good times rolling, and under control.
 
rocknroll702 said:
the stone ipas at costco @ 24 packs for 27-28usd i just cant stop drinking during the week :) maybe when i start using my gym membership i pay for monthly again ill stop but living in vegas its like thats what people do lol
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Dear Gods that price is insane.

The Arrogant Bastard is amazing as well, one of the best beers I have gotten to experience. Every time I'm out of my state I go on a journey to nab either DFH, Alesmith, Russian River, or Stone brews.

I have been through a ton of experiences with MDMA, and I honestly can not say I have had a bad experience. Really the only bad experiences stem from bad company with this substance. There's always those wonderful beings that are there for you though, almost as if they are meant to be there at that point in time just so you and them can have that epic euphoric connection.

One time I was at a library and met this guy who was recording people's stories, literally anything they wanted to tell, good, bad, gory, sexual whatever. Completely anonymous. He was compiling it all into one collection, going city to city, state to state. I was so enthralled with this idea that I sat and talked to this guy for over an hour while my friends rode some elevators. My eyes were as big as saucers, but this guy was seriously enthused that I was so enthused, and we just couldn't stop talking.

Honestly, if you treat this substance right and you have the right state of mind (positive, happy, I suppose) going into it then you have the possibility to really have an unmeasurably amazing experience.
 
Great to meet you! Come hang in the Ecstasy Discussion Social sometime~ the ED forum is a fun place to be, so don't be a stranger. ^^


Also, I started out using whatever tabs/pills I could find (6 years ago or so) and I only remember that the first one I ever had was blue and said "BAPE" on one side. For the past couple of years, due to moving, I have only come across MDMA in its powdered form...so I have no tabs of 2011 to reference. Is that a good, or a bad thing?

So, yeah, there's my two cents. Once again, nice to make your acquaintance!
 
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