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  • BDD Moderators: Keif’ Richards

BDD Social/Information Booth v15 - It's almost New Years 2012...

I dumped my ex; she was basically the "enabler" in a sense that when I don't have $, I start on subs and then taper off. She had $$$, and would just keep buying them for both of us, so I'd give her kpins and weed (former got a script, latter I have a good amount of at any given time). Opiates just caused problems. She wasn't what I wanted in a person (too introverted) but dearly wanted to change for me. Another turn off. 'Twas just a matter of time for that one.

I went into the relationship thinking "oh, an aquarius, she'll just want to fuck around and leave" turns out she's the wifey type, and while I'm also a "long term" kind of person, I can usually quickly figure out if a person is viable for my life/lifestyle or not. She's also not the first to want to continue to "casually date" so she could have her umpteen orgasms whenever she wanted. Tough shit, I'm not sticking around for someone else on their terms.
 
omg

effie and hydro back on line (flying high [how high?], literally and figuratively speaking, depending)

I got an early Christmas gift last night (a few 20mg methylphenidate tablets) and still got that clonaz hanging out in the background, decided to help it out with some loraz, I mean, they're good friends. Plus, I find methylphenidate to be a bit rough around the edges...the benzos really help that out.

Now to locate some opiates....
 
Hola Effie :)

Been trying to think of an appropriate avatar for a while now, no worries :p
 
Oh I hear ya, but this where being a bit OCD isn't helpful. Gotta pick just the right one...

This shall do for now.
 
psh

nAON, your avatar is pretty good one. I just can't hang onto one, whenever I find another good one, I change it up. Keeps the BDD regulars on their toes.
 
atm23 said:
Thats makes no sense at all or very perfect sense :)
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She still hangs with her friends and they drink and party. I may have a beer or 2 if its a long night, but, my tolerance is gone and here in IL, its a damn good idea to have a DD. 1 DUI will futz your shit up for life. They aint joking about that anymore. I agree with it too. I dislike people who choose to drink and drive. If you cant afford a cab to go home or line up other means of transport then dont go out to the bar. Im pretty strong against that. Stoning at work tho? Yeh, thats perfectly acceptable ;)

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No, stoning at work is not cool either.


I change my avatar when I want to, cus I can.

"...Where the faygo is on tap and I wash my hair and my buttcrack with it, cus I can..."
 
haha

I have to say that it does take the edge off a bit. The bottom line is, drugs + driving usually isn't a good idea.

Stimulants (to a degree...) seem to help a lot though. The problem with stimulants is they can cause increased risk-taking and aggressiveness. Not things you want while piloting a 3000 pound hulk of steel, glass, rubber, plastic and gasoline down the road at 70 miles an hour (that's 112.6 km/h for you euros)
 
I love driving around fairly jammed, even tripping on a light dose of acid is a fucking wonderful time. Bombing back roads (no one else around except a couple cows) and blasting some good tunes. Wonderful.

The biggest thing, is that I'm a car guy. I completely understand all aspects of my car (well within reason, I'm not gonna go ahead and calculate the total coeffecient of friction given different weight distributions), and know how to drive a car quite well.

I think of it as: pick one distraction or another if you must. I'm much better at driving while candyflipping than most women stateside dealing with cellphones or a child (or who the fuck knows what makes them so shitty at driving cars).

Guess it's cluelessness? It's rampant in public.
 
Ah I hate that. I will always come up with something catchy while I'm tripping or rolling, but can't operate the notes app on my iPhone because I'm too high...

Anyway, state dependent memory ;) get back into whatever mindset that you were and see if they can be found or remembered :D
 
Im hoping they are at home. I was on some things when I wrote it tho. Re-read after I was sobered up a bit and was like, hm, not half bad.

Does anyone have the issue of being able to write better in silence and on paper versus using a pc or other tech device to write your feelings? I always get distracted on my pc and thus when I try to write from the heart it gets all futzed.
 
I changed my avatar again :p

I wanted to have the "clear" background, but I'm only working with the silly editor in photobucket, so no editing capabilities of that sort are available. If I still had my MBP I'd be all set, but alas the logic board shit the bed in that one...

Edit: Aveo - I personally hate writing anything creative (that I'm putting proper effort into, ie for a female I'm courting, NOT for school or shit) on the computer. Pen and paper all day.
 
My advice...get a college ruled spiral bound notebook. I've got tons of them (being in grad school and all) - have one totally dedicated to grocery lists, ramblings, to-do lists, ideas, etc.
 
I even prefer writing on paper with no lines at all haha, and nice thick paper too.

Man I'm peculiar about certain things... Particular pens tickle my fancy as well (though I'm no connoisseur in this dept.)
 
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