blurrrxx
Bluelighter
When your dope dealer starts expressing legitimate concern about your habit.
this, too. a couple different times..
When your dope dealer starts expressing legitimate concern about your habit.
Holy shit I fucking remember those days...You think back on the days when two, yes TWO Vicodin could make you feel peaceful and euphoric for at least 12 hours and you remember those times with the fondness of someone recalling their first long lost love.
Yup.... I've been clean of of heroin for 6 years :D but 3 of those 6 years I've been fucking around with pills :/ But yeah, you are probably a junkie or have been if you are reading this.your probably a junkie when you find yourself reading this thread.....
oooooohhhhh!
Even after 6 years I still asses every bathroom. Thinking "I could fix my shot right here" I still look my veins as well as everyone else I come into contact with. I get a racing heart when I see my veins all pumped out. I see a needle and my heart races. Thses feelings and thoughts will never leave me regardless of how long I am clean....if you're taking notes while watching "the wire." (baltimore ain't that far away...)
...you know the location (and names!) of every major vein in the human body and you aren't a med student.
...you haven't been to a family reunion in years.
...after six months of sobriety, you still assess every bathroom you enter for ease of fixing up.
...you've ever shot up with anything other than water.
...you've cooked up a shot in the bottom of a soda can.
...you've gone into a fast food restaurant just to grab plastic spoons and/or straws. (or a cup of water.)
...none of your cigarettes ever seem to have more than half a filter.
...you've used a complete stranger's rig because you just can't snort it. (fuckin' gross.)
...you usually have a razor blade in your wallet.
If you still religiously visit bluelight even though you have been clean for quite some time now.
yeah...And when your mom asks you, "Why are there no more q-tips?" and, "How come all the water bottles that I buy end up in your room with only a sip taken out of them?" lol those are some of my personal favorite 'mom' questions. haha