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Describe your love life:)

Perhaps I can set my husband up with your woman.

I think he wants children but is too scared to make the final decision and leave. I never wanted them and he has always known that. How can you not know? I do. He is not sure if these feelings of wanting children are real due to his mental instability. Because everyone knows that a baby makes everything okay lol. I am tired of feeling insecure and uncertain about our marriage. He is going to his family's house alone on my insistence this Xmas to decide what he really wants and come back with the next step. I am not going with him as it feels like a sham to pretend things are hunky-dory....I totally get that Sepher. It sucks but I am prepared.
 
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Perpetual Indulgence said:
Perhaps I can set my husband up with your woman.

I think he wants children but is too scared to make the final decision and leave. I never wanted them and he has always known that. How can you not know? I do. He is not sure if these feelings of wanting children are real due to his mental instability. Because everyone knows that a baby makes everything okay lol. I am tired of feeling insecure and uncertain about our marriage. He is going to his family's house alone on my insistence this Xmas to decide what he really wants and come back with the next step. I am not going with him as it feels like a sham to pretend things are hunky-dory....I totally get that Sepher. It sucks but I am prepared.
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Such a shame PI that he'd throw away such a real solid relationship for a hypothetical one :(
 
We had a really good talk since I posted last and he is dealing with more than the children issue. That is a very small part...however that is the biggest part that directly affects me. His anxiety and depression is out of control. He really did not let me into his world. I had no idea what he was going through. I have a better idea of what is going on and it must be fuckin tiring to be him. I feel terrible for him and helpless to help him. He needs to fix himself first and being around family might be the catalyst to do that. He is very family oriented (eldest of 5 and they all love in the same town) and this is the first time he has lived away from his family. His parents knew he was coming home alone because he is fucked in the head not because he was deciding on divorce. That is the furthest thing from his mind which relieves me. He attempted the trip alone Sunday, had a panic attack and returned home. I am hopeful the increase of meds and the addition of another will help stabilize him. He tries so hard. I want him to feel normal. He derives no happiness from anything right now. He still is unsure about the kid thing. He wonders if he is on the right path in life in general. Mental instability will cause you to question everything and make you desperate for solutions.
 
Yup. It is what I do. Support and smile.
I am no longer focused on how does this affect me and concentrating on being "there" for him.
Our marriage is solid. His mental status is not.
 
i wish you both all the best pi, you seem like wonderful people <3

my love life is kinda meh. i've been seeing someone for about half a year but i don't know if it's going anywhere, and i don't know if i'm bothered by the fact that i don't know if it's going anywhere. i'm kind of in a limbo and i feel no anxiety, no stress, nothing.
 
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Things are going well, for the most part. Been with this girl for 6 months and 5 days, nobody has ever made me happier. That said, there's a lot of shit that stresses me out about being with someone like her.. She's really outgoing, much more so than myself, she's also hot as all fuck so inevitably dudes end up hitting on her. She's true tho, moreso than any female I've ever been with. I have more fun around her than anyone else I've known, she really is my best friend. She's a few hours away right now with the fam for Christmas. As much as I miss her it's healthy for us to be apart.. We spend the majority of our time together, almost to a fault I guess. I think she's growing tired of me.. I also feel kind of taken for granted sometimes the other day she said "you're my microwave meal", like she presses a button and she has me. I feel I'm way way to accessible to her, distance would be healthy at this point.. Makes me feel cheap, disposable.

I feel myself growing colder to it all in some moments, especially when I'm left to my own devices.. But then she's there and I forget about it all.. And enjoy my time with her around. I'm blessed and cursed by this blissful state she seems to elicit in me, I hope I'm not proven a fool for trusting her and letting myself feel vulnerable.
 
Pretty good right now - I've given in to just letting go.

Last night I met up with one of the lasses I been seeing and I worked out I really didn't want a relationship with her. I like who I see her as in the future, not terribly fussed with who she is right now...we're in totally different places.

I spent 10 days with one of my friends who I haven't seen in ages, and realized I still really liked her, I think she's wonderful...we're really open, and we were talking about things and on my last night there, I jokingly told her I was sexually frustrated and it was all her fault. She asked why and I told her coz she's too damn cute!! I could see myself with her, but not right now, I have other things to concentrate on...

A real love life will have to wait, I'm not ready to truly commit to someone, I need to achieve a lot before I can even think about it, coz right now I'm in limbo, but I have 3 people I want to get to know even more, as they're beautiful creatures, and can see myself with all 3 of them...just not yet.

So my "love life" will have to consist of occasional flings to keep me satisfied and experiencing new things sexually.
 
Dec 23rd, my husband's brothers flew down and he met them at the airport at 9p to make the 10 hr drive back to his parents' house. They thought it was important to face his irrational fears and make the trip. I am continuously told by my husband that it has nothing to do with me. He reassures me that our marriage is one of the few things that he holds on to as real and good. I have hard time always believing that.

Historically, I have advocated just do it. This is not my first foray with dealing with his panic attacks. This is not the first time my life has been put on hold. My method of tough love has backfired in the past creating greater anxiety for him. I said he could drug himself up and I could drive as we planned months ago when he returned home in failure. I guess making this trip without me was an important element in his mental recovery. I talk/text him daily and he said he does not feel less anxious. So was it REALLY worth it? I want it to be.

I made it through Christmas alone by choice. I had social options but refused them all. I spent the past 2 days at home going through various states of emotion. He said he thinks he will be driving home earlier than Dec 31st as planned. One of his brothers bought a return flight so if he needs to make the drive with him, he will. He led himself to believe that being around his family was going to be the magical catalyst to feeling good...so far it is not but there is still hope. There is always hope. He agrees that he needs to seek a second opinion regarding medical management which we discussed before he left.

So I wait and hope.
 
Uncertain. I have this feeling that he doesn't feel the same way I do. I can't concentrate on all the work I have to do...I keep anticipating the worst...I don't know how to just be pragmatic about it. I feel like history is repeating itself.
 
my heart is split between 3 girls.... so confused to fuck.

im not saying im fucking them all at the same time... no no.... but my heart is split thats what matters.
 
Is she the one?

I met my girl more than 3 years ago. I had just moved a thousand miles for university and left a relationship behind. My girlfriend from high school and I agreed it was not in our best interest to do long distance but when I came back for Christmas that year we fell back in and tried long distance. I was friends with this other girl and was not really attracted to her at first but she started crashing in my room because she hated her roommates and was best friends with one of my room mates. It was completely non sexual but we got really emotionall close. She had come out of a really bad relationship with someone else and was honestly damaged by this guy it is a terrible but typical story. I started to get into her but was still seeing my previous girlfriend but this new girl made it clear she did not want it to go sexual. I was falling for her now head over heels and would have never thought so a few months prior. My high school girlfriend eventually had to break up but initially I was so afraid because this new girl was really unsure of our relationship going more intimate because she thought it would ruin our friendship. I thought I was going to lose both girls for a while and sort of did.

I spent almost a year chasing this girl but it was so worth it. She was seeing me emotionally cheat on my other girlfriend and I was convinced she in finally came to the conclusion I was a jerk. She would have never been with me if I was single all along because I don't think we would have gotten so close without sex. It was strangely meant to be and I am so in love with her. We've live together for almost 2 years now and were growing.

Recently I developed a nasty pelvic pain problem from using mephedrone that make all orgasms extremely painful so we have had to our sex life on hold past 4 months but it is such a life lesson in disguise. It's making our relationship so much stronger and teaching us so much. I thought she would leave me because I was so physically and emotionally devastated but were becoming so much closer. I think this is the girl I want to be with forever. I'm 21 and haven't been single in years which scares me and that I'm supposed to be single for awhile and have more sexual experience or something before I am able to be mature but
My gut says stay with her she's the one. It scares me sometimes how much I love her were barely ever apart.
 
The other night it hit me how hard I've fallen for this girl, how strong everything is. We had some argument earlier in the day that was petty, dont even remember the details. But I didnt get mad, it was just like heated talking. Later that night she takes me out to sushi at our favorite spot. We started talking and the conversation went everywhere, family friends, relationships.. It was a good talk. I feel like I got to know her a little better that night, if thats even possible.
 
The other night it hit me how hard I've fallen for this girl, how strong everything is. We had some argument earlier in the day that was petty, dont even remember the details. But I didnt get mad, it was just like heated talking. Later that night she takes me out to sushi at our favorite spot. We started talking and the conversation went everywhere, family friends, relationships.. It was a good talk. I feel like I got to know her a little better that night, if thats even possible.
 
My love life, well, lets just say it changes alot =)
My first time was hardly romantic, just heated passion.
My first boyfriend was sweet, but we never smashed, and i dont know why :/ but he was the best guy ive ever known, and a peice of my heart will always be with him
My third was an asshole, but he bought me tons of shit so i sayed with him for a while (terrible i know) and we did sooo much molly its retarded 0.o
Then i had a fling, basically consisted of alcohol and fuckkin and ravin and extacy
My boyfriend as of right now? PERFECT.
hes sweet, hes artistic like me, he buys me things, hes so handsome, and we have the dankest sex >_<
Im a little hesitant about him just because i really dont trust anyone, thats just the way of the fox, forever alone because im a mischievous creature when i dont mean to be :/ i truly hope this lasts, because hes the sweetest :)
The first time we met, was also the first time we connected.
The first night we hung out, was the night he kissed me
the first time we had sex we listened to lonely island promptly after and LOL'D TOUGH
pure bliss :)
 
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