More's the pity!!
Hi all, epsecially my esteemed pal Mr Brimz. and Ructions, KKat (glad u got xmas to enjoy if poss), Charlie Clean Jspun etcetc all the old heads! Its been a while most of you have probably forgot me altogether. Anyways, just checkin back in. Been off the gear for what seems like ages, Ive put in a lot of cleant time over the last couple months. I'm talkin not using for like 3 weeks, then scoring a bit but not using again for a month. Its been ok. Even thinking of reducing my 80ml daily meth, but one thing that worries me is that one of my motivations for doing so is that I'll hopefully get more of a buzz off me gear wen I do use!
Everything is shouting at me to reduce the meth-I've realised that I am really disinterested in life-dont wanna go out ever or socialise, just wanna chill watchin TV or on the computer or working. I thought this was just me, but someone pointed out this is what happens when ur on meth for any length of time (has been 4 1/2 to 5 years now I think), it seems normal. I've always been awkward and suffered wiv SA a bit but I did used to love goin out drinking, playing pool, clubbing and raving. Now its just become normal to stay in all the time (other than working etc) and Ive got so used to all the negative effects of meth that I cant remember life without them, ie the sweating, wind, stomach cramps, sleep apnea, snoring, shit appetite, severe constipation, dehydration, daily visits to the fucking chemist. Anyway enough about me for now I gotta go, I'll get back to the point I was tryin to make(?) in another post soon, in the meantime, as ever take care and HOPE U SCORE GOOD 2NITE!!