Mr Blonde
Bluelighter
Introduction: I don't have scales unfortunately, so this was all eyeballed. I'm about 175cm tall, 52-55kg and not much muscle or fat so stims tend to hit me harder then others. I had consumed a cup of coffee prior to ingestion, and smoked cigarettes before, during and afterwards. The night before I had consumed roughly 12mg of etizolam, and five days previously had consumed about 200mg of MDMA. I am not normally a stimulant user, in fact I much prefer downers but I decided I'd try this one out.
0:00 – Eyeballed what looked like around 25mg or so. Burns like a mother going up! Luckily the pain doesn't last too long.
0:04 – Light up a cigarette. Starting to feel something coming on, feeling stimulated. Start to feel a mild drip.
0:10 – Definitely feeling stimulated and have a definite mood boost. Replying to a whole host of messages I hadn't had the chance to get back to in the last few days and have a real urge to talk and talk and talk.
0:13 – Have to keep updating this as I'm still feeling more and more stimulated. Watching the news and every single story that comes up I'm having to look up on the internet for more info. Commonwealth Ombudsman resigns over collusion allegations? I don't know why that makes me so excited but I need to know all the details for some reason!
0:20 – Feeling like maybe the 'pushy' stimulation has stopped rising; I feel really good and need another cigarette for sure. I'm jumping back and forth between news articles and Bluelight.
0:29 – Can hear my brother and his friend playing music upstairs and I definitely feel deeper music appreciation. I'm listening to the notes they are playing, the interweaving of the guitar and keyboard and the dynamics between them. Think I might go upstairs and bug them so I can have some conversation as no one seems to be online at the moment.
1:10 – Wow completely lost track of time there. Was jamming alongside my brother and his friend; my guitar and amplifier are too much to take upstairs so I played on the higher end of the keyboard and came up with some cool riffs and ideas for the songs we played on. I feel as if my creativity has been given a kick. The adrenergic stimulation has died down a bit but I definitely feel the euphoria and drive to do things still. Feeling like I want a re-dose but I think I'll put it off for a while.
1:40 - Did a second line of around the same dosage because I felt like it.
1:50 – Feeling that stimulating kick again... very nice, could get a lot done on this substance.
2:16 – Helping step-father out with computer problems. Normally I'd rather be doing my own thing but I feel quite happy helping him out, I like doing something useful. I'll also note here my appetite is definitely suppressed; it's currently 2:27pm and I haven't eaten since last night and right now I couldn't touch food at all. My stomach is rumbling though to remind me that I should have eaten.
2:35 – Feeling like another re-dose, even though I'm very much still stimulated and mood is still up. Haven't had stimulants in a while and I find myself jumping back and forth between conversations, Bluelight, Sydney Morning Herald, forgetting to update trip report. I'm sure that I could focus my energy on to one task if I wanted to though.
3:00 – Have to run some errands, and decide to put off re-dosing until then. Again, I feel pretty damn enthusiastic about it even though it's not exactly my cup of tea. I have a good amount of energy in me... slight headache which is probably from not enough water. Will drink a glass or two now.
4:27 – Errands took longer then expected. I could feel the effects wearing off, and felt a little irritable and wanting more. Was glad to get back home and have another line. I also noticed that there seem to be some diuretic properties to this substance, something I often get on stimulants. There also don't seem to be many adverse physical effects; my hands are perhaps a little shakier then normal but I have the shakes in general and it doesn't seem too much worse. My typing is fine. Off to do a few more errands apparently.
5:12 – Whilst still running errands I go into a pharmacy to get my blood pressure checked. 120/70 with a pulse of 90. The elevated puse came from having to walk down an obscene amount of stairs before I got to the pharmacy; before that my heart rate felt fine.
6:30 – Errands took a lot longer then I thought. Have a moderate sinus headache; fairly sure this chemical is irritating my sinus infection. It does hurt a lot when snorted. Just had another line and seems to fulfill that compulsion to dose almost instantly... can feel the energy coming back.
8:05 – Some people came over and had to eat dinner. Forced the food down but unlike recent times I felt very comfortable around our company. Did two bumps for a re-dose, was very painful... if this substance is overused, it could probably do some real damage to the nasal membranes.
8:50 – Keep thinking of things to add to report. By now re-doses are starting to have less of a stimulating edge, but are definitely keeping mood elevated. I also find I'm still getting really involved in multiple tasks; writing out long emails, reading studies, chasing up on things, etc...
9:06 – Another larger re-dose just taken. Estimated at 50mg. Unlike amphetamine and methamphetamine, this stimulant does not seem to be particularly good at keeping my nose dry and free of mucous, so I'm making sure I blow my nose before snorting. I also noticed that my pupils are somewhat dilated; not too bad (I like dilated pupils, especially on women
). I've only noticed this now that it's dark, I was checking earlier on in the day and my eyes seemed normal.
9:16 – I've been feeling the physical stimulation kick in again for the last few minutes... so there is some tolerance that I've developed during the day to the effects of the drug.
10:08 – Considering one last re-dose before I make up some codeine to come down. I think I'll go for it, having a good time and no work tomorrow.
10:25 – Just had another re-dose, same size as last time. Estimate at around 50mg? As I blew my nose before snorting, I noticed a little amount of blood in the mucus. Perhaps wasn't such a good idea to snort so many lines when I already had nasal trouble.
11:19 – Still going, almost want to keep dosing and go all night! Conversation flows like water, to steal a cliché. Think I might need to come-down eventually though.
12:34 – Starting to die down as I haven't re-dosed. Have a CWE brewing and am ready to come down and then conclude this report.
14:18 – About an hour ago I dosed 2.4 grams of codeine and then about 20 minutes later followed that with 14mg of etizolam. I know these are high doses, but I have big tolerances to opioids and benzodiazepines. I would advise that you don't get a tolerance as high as mine, because it's not very fun. Not at all. I'm feeling relaxed now, as I was coming down I was feeling some muscle tension, headache from electrolyte imbalance most likely and a very painful nose. Everything is good now though, still haven't got much of an appetite and am still fairly alert, don't feel much like sleeping. Will take an extra 6mg of etizolam and see if that helps.
CONCLUSION: This is a very interesting substance. I think we have all heard that before, but I'll throw it out there anyway. To level with you all, I'm not much of a stimulant user. I've used amphetamine and methylphenidate but not for a few years. The last stimulant I had used prior to this was MDPV, and that was a few months back. I didn't really enjoy MDPV; the first dose or two was nice, but then it went downhill from there. Too many physical side effects for me, and the compulsive re-dosing didn't even really fix the problem unless I was using ultra low doses.
This stuff I found much preferable. I didn't feel any vasoconstriction or other peripheral side effects that worried me, and when I had my BP tested it was fine. In fact the pharmacy assistant was telling me it was a bit low! Probably because of my age (21). I am very unfit though and smoke a lot of cigarettes and so I was happy to see my BP was OK. The pulse rate elevation was probably from having to go down quite a few flights of stairs to get to the pharmacy. The only other times that I felt my pulse rate was elevated was when it was first kicking in after a dose.
I did notice that I wanted to keep doing more. Eventually I called it quits and used my comedown package to get some rest... didn't get much though because I also tried out about 15-20mg of MXE which combined with the codeine and etizolam was enough to have me feeling very nice but not sleeping much at all. I liked the little adrenergic boost that it gave as I first dosed that then mellowed out into a more mental effect. I felt like I could do so much at once, but towards the end was trying to focus on one task at a time to get it completed so that I could then continue on with conversation. This was one of the big positives of this substance; normally I don't talk too much, don't socialize much... but on this I was talking and talking like I was going to be mute tomorrow!
And that's where I feel the comparison with cocaine ends. Whilst this is a dopamine re-uptake inhibitor like cocaine, it definitely has more of a push to it. The duration isn't that long; I suppose a single dose would have you feeling baseline around 2 hours, though the appetite suppressant and insomnia effects persist longer then that. I definitely took this one for a wild ride; I'd suggest starting off low and seeing how you from there. If you have anxiety problems then this may exacerbate them; I tend to have problems talking to people and fitting in at social situations but with this I felt very comfortable talking to people. Also felt like I could get a lot done on it, if I didn't have so many different things going on at the time of the experience.
All in all, I'd give this a 8/10. Keep in mind I'm not much of a stimulant user though, so your mileage may vary but I much preferred this to MDPV which made me scattered quite quickly. Methamphetamine I'm not so much a fan of due to duration and peripheral effects, and that's what I liked about ethylphenidate. There were hardly any physical side effects so to speak of.
I'm happy to answer any questions people may have, as my trip report is a bit all over the place.
0:00 – Eyeballed what looked like around 25mg or so. Burns like a mother going up! Luckily the pain doesn't last too long.
0:04 – Light up a cigarette. Starting to feel something coming on, feeling stimulated. Start to feel a mild drip.
0:10 – Definitely feeling stimulated and have a definite mood boost. Replying to a whole host of messages I hadn't had the chance to get back to in the last few days and have a real urge to talk and talk and talk.
0:13 – Have to keep updating this as I'm still feeling more and more stimulated. Watching the news and every single story that comes up I'm having to look up on the internet for more info. Commonwealth Ombudsman resigns over collusion allegations? I don't know why that makes me so excited but I need to know all the details for some reason!
0:20 – Feeling like maybe the 'pushy' stimulation has stopped rising; I feel really good and need another cigarette for sure. I'm jumping back and forth between news articles and Bluelight.
0:29 – Can hear my brother and his friend playing music upstairs and I definitely feel deeper music appreciation. I'm listening to the notes they are playing, the interweaving of the guitar and keyboard and the dynamics between them. Think I might go upstairs and bug them so I can have some conversation as no one seems to be online at the moment.
1:10 – Wow completely lost track of time there. Was jamming alongside my brother and his friend; my guitar and amplifier are too much to take upstairs so I played on the higher end of the keyboard and came up with some cool riffs and ideas for the songs we played on. I feel as if my creativity has been given a kick. The adrenergic stimulation has died down a bit but I definitely feel the euphoria and drive to do things still. Feeling like I want a re-dose but I think I'll put it off for a while.
1:40 - Did a second line of around the same dosage because I felt like it.
1:50 – Feeling that stimulating kick again... very nice, could get a lot done on this substance.
2:16 – Helping step-father out with computer problems. Normally I'd rather be doing my own thing but I feel quite happy helping him out, I like doing something useful. I'll also note here my appetite is definitely suppressed; it's currently 2:27pm and I haven't eaten since last night and right now I couldn't touch food at all. My stomach is rumbling though to remind me that I should have eaten.
2:35 – Feeling like another re-dose, even though I'm very much still stimulated and mood is still up. Haven't had stimulants in a while and I find myself jumping back and forth between conversations, Bluelight, Sydney Morning Herald, forgetting to update trip report. I'm sure that I could focus my energy on to one task if I wanted to though.
3:00 – Have to run some errands, and decide to put off re-dosing until then. Again, I feel pretty damn enthusiastic about it even though it's not exactly my cup of tea. I have a good amount of energy in me... slight headache which is probably from not enough water. Will drink a glass or two now.
4:27 – Errands took longer then expected. I could feel the effects wearing off, and felt a little irritable and wanting more. Was glad to get back home and have another line. I also noticed that there seem to be some diuretic properties to this substance, something I often get on stimulants. There also don't seem to be many adverse physical effects; my hands are perhaps a little shakier then normal but I have the shakes in general and it doesn't seem too much worse. My typing is fine. Off to do a few more errands apparently.
5:12 – Whilst still running errands I go into a pharmacy to get my blood pressure checked. 120/70 with a pulse of 90. The elevated puse came from having to walk down an obscene amount of stairs before I got to the pharmacy; before that my heart rate felt fine.
6:30 – Errands took a lot longer then I thought. Have a moderate sinus headache; fairly sure this chemical is irritating my sinus infection. It does hurt a lot when snorted. Just had another line and seems to fulfill that compulsion to dose almost instantly... can feel the energy coming back.
8:05 – Some people came over and had to eat dinner. Forced the food down but unlike recent times I felt very comfortable around our company. Did two bumps for a re-dose, was very painful... if this substance is overused, it could probably do some real damage to the nasal membranes.
8:50 – Keep thinking of things to add to report. By now re-doses are starting to have less of a stimulating edge, but are definitely keeping mood elevated. I also find I'm still getting really involved in multiple tasks; writing out long emails, reading studies, chasing up on things, etc...
9:06 – Another larger re-dose just taken. Estimated at 50mg. Unlike amphetamine and methamphetamine, this stimulant does not seem to be particularly good at keeping my nose dry and free of mucous, so I'm making sure I blow my nose before snorting. I also noticed that my pupils are somewhat dilated; not too bad (I like dilated pupils, especially on women
). I've only noticed this now that it's dark, I was checking earlier on in the day and my eyes seemed normal. 9:16 – I've been feeling the physical stimulation kick in again for the last few minutes... so there is some tolerance that I've developed during the day to the effects of the drug.
10:08 – Considering one last re-dose before I make up some codeine to come down. I think I'll go for it, having a good time and no work tomorrow.
10:25 – Just had another re-dose, same size as last time. Estimate at around 50mg? As I blew my nose before snorting, I noticed a little amount of blood in the mucus. Perhaps wasn't such a good idea to snort so many lines when I already had nasal trouble.
11:19 – Still going, almost want to keep dosing and go all night! Conversation flows like water, to steal a cliché. Think I might need to come-down eventually though.
12:34 – Starting to die down as I haven't re-dosed. Have a CWE brewing and am ready to come down and then conclude this report.
14:18 – About an hour ago I dosed 2.4 grams of codeine and then about 20 minutes later followed that with 14mg of etizolam. I know these are high doses, but I have big tolerances to opioids and benzodiazepines. I would advise that you don't get a tolerance as high as mine, because it's not very fun. Not at all. I'm feeling relaxed now, as I was coming down I was feeling some muscle tension, headache from electrolyte imbalance most likely and a very painful nose. Everything is good now though, still haven't got much of an appetite and am still fairly alert, don't feel much like sleeping. Will take an extra 6mg of etizolam and see if that helps.
CONCLUSION: This is a very interesting substance. I think we have all heard that before, but I'll throw it out there anyway. To level with you all, I'm not much of a stimulant user. I've used amphetamine and methylphenidate but not for a few years. The last stimulant I had used prior to this was MDPV, and that was a few months back. I didn't really enjoy MDPV; the first dose or two was nice, but then it went downhill from there. Too many physical side effects for me, and the compulsive re-dosing didn't even really fix the problem unless I was using ultra low doses.
This stuff I found much preferable. I didn't feel any vasoconstriction or other peripheral side effects that worried me, and when I had my BP tested it was fine. In fact the pharmacy assistant was telling me it was a bit low! Probably because of my age (21). I am very unfit though and smoke a lot of cigarettes and so I was happy to see my BP was OK. The pulse rate elevation was probably from having to go down quite a few flights of stairs to get to the pharmacy. The only other times that I felt my pulse rate was elevated was when it was first kicking in after a dose.
I did notice that I wanted to keep doing more. Eventually I called it quits and used my comedown package to get some rest... didn't get much though because I also tried out about 15-20mg of MXE which combined with the codeine and etizolam was enough to have me feeling very nice but not sleeping much at all. I liked the little adrenergic boost that it gave as I first dosed that then mellowed out into a more mental effect. I felt like I could do so much at once, but towards the end was trying to focus on one task at a time to get it completed so that I could then continue on with conversation. This was one of the big positives of this substance; normally I don't talk too much, don't socialize much... but on this I was talking and talking like I was going to be mute tomorrow!
And that's where I feel the comparison with cocaine ends. Whilst this is a dopamine re-uptake inhibitor like cocaine, it definitely has more of a push to it. The duration isn't that long; I suppose a single dose would have you feeling baseline around 2 hours, though the appetite suppressant and insomnia effects persist longer then that. I definitely took this one for a wild ride; I'd suggest starting off low and seeing how you from there. If you have anxiety problems then this may exacerbate them; I tend to have problems talking to people and fitting in at social situations but with this I felt very comfortable talking to people. Also felt like I could get a lot done on it, if I didn't have so many different things going on at the time of the experience.
All in all, I'd give this a 8/10. Keep in mind I'm not much of a stimulant user though, so your mileage may vary but I much preferred this to MDPV which made me scattered quite quickly. Methamphetamine I'm not so much a fan of due to duration and peripheral effects, and that's what I liked about ethylphenidate. There were hardly any physical side effects so to speak of.
I'm happy to answer any questions people may have, as my trip report is a bit all over the place.
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